Take it away
don't let it stay
for it only corrupts the mind
coping is hard when your all alone
and sitting in the dark.
Voices surround
and lieing is simple
but everything is just a blur
your too far gone now
and noises vanish
you've come to the dark side
your vision abandon
and they rush to your side
wanting to save you
but it's too late to care about the daughter they never expected.

Darkness holds me back as I creep through the day,
I've lost sight of not only the path in front of me,
but me as well,
living as if I was a ghost,
that no one cares to bother with,
but its in these times that I know better,
I know I have you, you make me strong,
and you make me carry on even when the days are long.

Caught between two worlds,
You know which the right choice is
But you're held back
Confused, refusing to except the truth.
You choose the right way,
Saying it's just a test drive,
Immediately you feel relieved.
The negativity,
It's all but almost gone
Feelings rush back
Attacking at once,
You cry,
But not out of sadness.
You're overjoyed at this foreign feeling,
Saying its been awhile,
You accept it with open arms
Releasing the what you've held in,
For years.

Unspoken words,
Unwritten letters.
Pens and paper waisted,
Sitting just sitting.
What are you waiting for?
Love if forever, You say.
So why not wait?
Well love maybe forever,
But if you don't know it exists,
Then you can't hold on to it,
Forever

She sat staring at the clock
thinking hoping
that there was some other way
not realizing the effect of her decision

but as the minutes ticked by
and the time she had
to talk herself out of it was over
and she began the task;
her last task

and as she completed it she wrote don't miss me,
I was never good enough
for you anyway
and with that she took her last breath
on the earth she lived on
for 16 short years.

She didn't want this she writes
but it had to end
she had to go
nothing made sense for her anymore.
She felt she didn't belong.
You made her feel that way.
But you act like nothing happened.

A girl is gone
taken from her family
her friends
and you the cause of all this
have the nerve to continue to torment others.

It's sickening;
then I know why
the last friend you text bye to that night.
Then all at once your gone as well.
Feeling an enteral pain and guilt from the tragedy you caused.

Forced smiles and introductions,
Simple hi's and how are you's
The biggest show you have to display
Time against you,
How long can you keep up the act?
It gets harder,
as the pain becomes clearer.
The world spins faster,
Lost for thoughts.
You choose not to think,
To feel,
To be.
Giving up wasn't the hard choice,
As you see it,
It was the only choice.