Ashita: Favorites

Mar 2019 Ashita

My Type

Mar 2019 Ashita

Jo Barber

My Type

My type is tall
with dark hair
and dark eyes.

The whisper of ****** hair
on a jaw so square.
Leave the clean-shaven men
for other girls.

Smart and witty,
with music so gritty.
And a smile so sweet and wide.
Not sure what I implied,
but I suppose I'll now confide
that I'd be the Bonnie to your Clyde.

#type #attraction #bonnie #clyde #tall #dark #handsome #beard #men

Mar 2019 Ashita

Crying

Mar 2019 Ashita

Piyush Gahlot

Crying

I wiped em' off,
still they keep flowin'.
My white pillow is almost soakin',
need a remedy to this pain.

Don't know why but crying feels good.
Letting your anger out.
Shedding off your ego,
Introspecting,
I guess these tears are the holly water,
Which is gonna purify my soul.

:'(

#cry #alone #lonely #life #love #hurt

Mar 2019 Ashita

Today I die, again.

Mar 2019 Ashita

Ben Fernekees

Today I die, again.

Woke up,
Tripped down,
Scrapped my knee on the way to the ground,

No trace of blood,
No trace of blood,

Another victim of the dark,
Scared to walk into the light,
Scared to put down the knife,
Scared to know he was never right,

No trace of blood,
No trace of blood,

The night before? Hiding.
The day before? Running.
The week before? Crying.
The month before? Shaking.

No trace of blood,
No trace of blood,

Too many words in one head,
Too many thoughts driving to madness
Filling up and emptying away,
Unable to escape as the fire consumes,

No trace of blood,
No trace of blood,

One last day before the darkness,
Nothing more noticeable then the silence of voices,
All awaiting what's next,
All watching, as I lay in the pool that gathers.

No trace of blood,
No trace...

#death #depressed #anxiety #dark #thoughts

Mar 2019 Ashita

Hidden

Mar 2019 Ashita

yúyīn

Hidden

Hiding the hurt, hiding the pain
Hiding the tears that fall like rain.
Saying l'm fine; l'm anything but.
This ache in my soul rips at my gut.
My skin is on fire, I burn from within.
The calm on my face
is an ongoing sin.
The world must stay out,
I've built up a wall.
My fragile lie will collapse
should it ever fall
Loneliness consumes me,
It eats away the years
Until my life is swallowed
by unending fears.
Waiting for someone to see
I wear a mask
And care enough to remove it,
Is that too much to ask?

#depression #pain #hurt #loneliness

Mar 2019 Ashita

The Onion

Mar 2019 Ashita

Her

The Onion

in college i was asked
if i could compare myself to anything
but a human
what would i be

most of the class
said a tree
the ocean
a flower
the wind
but not me

i am an onion
hardened on the outside
but as you take your finger
and peel
and peel
and peel

you find that
the layers of my life
have left you in tears
happy
or sad

that choice is up to you

#personal #****

Mar 2019 Ashita

I am not her

Mar 2019 Ashita

Her

I am not her

i hope one day
if not soon
you see that
her and i
do not have the same
hair color
skin color
eye color

my name is mine
and hers is hers
we are different sizes
we have different voices
my history is more than a few
textbooks you receive throughout high school
where hers is just a chapter

she is easy you see
and me
well i am complicated
i am the destruction left in the wake
of when a hurricane and tsunami meet

please stay
even though i am rough
but know
i am not her
i am me

#emotional #mine #sad #relationships

Mar 2019 Ashita

Broken Pieces

Mar 2019 Ashita

She Writes

Broken Pieces

You broke her heart
But she still loves you
With all the pieces

#broken #heart #love #pieces