I'm scared.
Scared of failing.
Scared of losing.
Scared of feeling pain.
Scared of emotions.
Scared of love.
Scared of everything.
But no one knows.
Because that's the thing
About being scared.
Only the people that are scared
can see it.

Gothic dandelions
White perfect
Spheres
Of seeds
Contrast the black
Background of the night
How I wish I can take a picture.

Trapped in these chains where ever I go
even with the key I am not truly free.

I feel like an animal in a cage,
everywhere I go it feels the same.

My brain disagrees but my heart agrees,
that I am a women in a man's world.

Red is the rose
and the polish on my toes

Red is the kiss on my cheek
and my dress– truly chic

Red is also blood
and bodies in the mud

Red is red
Love and dead.

I am not violent.
I am not mischievous.
I am what they made me, a weapon.
I am a result.
Yet, they had the nerve to tell me to find peace.

I live,
Therefore I love.

I love,
Therefore I hurt.

I hurt,
Therefore I can die.

I will die,
Therefore I must live.

My heart;
I fooled it,
Protected it,
Deep in me,
From love.
To not heed about it.
But then...
I was tricked.
And my heart jumped;
Lifted in a flight;
To the mirage-hope,
To be loved  back.
The flight was high,
And when pulled back
By the extreme gravity,
Fallen and hurt,
From truth,
With an Unsoundable dud.
My heart said-
"Hey you! That was 
Just a stunt. And I'm fine."
But it weep and bleed,
And seep in words.
And maybe poetry.
Yet it says-
"Hey you! It's just
My experimental words.
You know me
Nothing relates me. "

Brain, brain go away
Don't want to listen one more day
Already lonely and afraid
Feel insecure and full of shame

Brain, brain don't act this way
You're always angry; Filled with hate
You know we're joined; Can't separate
Yourself your punching in the face

Brain, brain what can I say
To make it so you see things straight
Don't know how much more I can take
Of constant warring and debate

Brain, brain it's getting late
This journey's not some endless race
Life's flying by and at this pace
Forget a win; Not gonna place

Brain, brain let's medicate
I'll feed you drugs and we'll sedate
The only way to mitigate
Discrepancies we generate

Brain, brain we sadly waste
This outcome feels like it was fate
But never was there a sealed date
Fulfilling what we self-create

Brain, brain so much we faced
Success so close could almost taste
Instead our tail we always chased
We'll die alone sad and disgraced