How can you judge
With your eyes alone?

I do not care for your colorful shoes
Nor your expensive jacket
Even less for that long car

Why would you?

Is it truly all we wish for
Something to please the eye with?

Does it bring you more pleasure?
Then a talk about the stars?

I want a connection
Not just attraction

The excitement to meet someone new
Often melts away after a day
Maybe after a date

I want more
I want to see beyond your soul

Tell me what you miss
What you hope for

Your story is what I long after
Not your empty shell

It stares back at me
A reflection I long thought of my own
Too blind to see
I cannot fix myself through you

You kept adding cracks
Refusing to care for yourself
Ignoring your duties
And pushing your problems on me

Like a plague
Your words sought my heart
I kept tried to smile
Believing you were too young
Too young to understand

Yet the voice inside
Kept telling me the truth
That it had to end
No matter how far it would go
Like everything in life

It was no use
It was no good

You had to leave
One way or another
I ignored my own cracks for too long

There is nothing I regret
But maybe the last days
I could have been free
Way earlier than this

The big stage wasn´t meant for us
We both did mistakes in this play
But I won´t give up
Not yet at least
I still have enough breath
For another play

All on my own
Without your toxic thoughts
Without you adding cracks to me

A clear mirror
Old but fixed
Reflecting my movements
This life
Until another

Connection
All we ever wished for
Since we can think of

A soft touch
A hearty laugh
All meant for us

Loneliness doesn´t suit the pretty face
Neither does tears

Still, it´s a part of life
You cannot avoid it
It all returns to you
For you to cry during the night
Staring at the ceiling
Wondering where you went wrong

Nowhere to go
Nowhere to hide

Yet you might feel at home
Because you keep hoping
A feeling more powerful than time

It made you what you are
You should be proud
Instead of frowning at your reflection
In the bathroom mirror

Your body carried you
Your mind shaped you
Even without a friend
Even without a partner

It is you
A choice to make

Wherever you like seeing the tears
Or reject their existence

In the end
It all comes back to you

A happy face
A gorgeous smile
A cry hid beneath

Why would I?

I am not hiding anymore

Tears left their marks
My cheeks turning into rivers
My lips into mountains
Desperately trying to kiss the sky

The sun and moon
Never truly meeting
Only from afar

I feel like a cloud
Some days so pure
Others full of sadness

Yet I keep floating
Until I break down once again
Into the cold lake below

Drowning
The air out of my lungs
Gone

It´s not pleasant
It will never be
But it has to be gone
So I can raise again

I will grow
And grow
And grow

Until I can cover the sun
And the moon on my own

My throat turns dry
My fingers are tingling

A feeling in the air
A sensation of pain

Excitement may be stronger than fear
But not in this case I believe

I don´t even know why
Nothing makes sense
Never I wondered so much
Like during the last nights

Are my roots deep enough
To survive the next storm?

I wish for more than hope
I desire knowledge
To be sure
If I can make it to the next spring

I can´t give up
That time is over

I will endure
So my leaves can return
Every single year

I won´t stay empty for long
Even if it takes a winter more