It was like I was two people at the same time.
No one noticed me, no one ever listened.
But at the same time I was the one that couldn’t keep my mouth shut and I was liked by many.
I didn’t really know how to act. Should I scream or suffer in silence?

I remember every touch, every word, every kiss, every moment.
I remember our phone calls, our jokes.
I remember everything we did.
I kind of want to forget, but at the same time I don’t.
When I look back now I see every embarrassing thing I did, the memories are haunting me.
Somewhere deep inside of me I wish I never met you....

she disappeared.
in a second she was gone.
without a word.
without a goodbye.
I knew I would see her again.
goodbye means forever.

I can see the horizon.
I can see the ocean.
I can see the beach.
I can see cars driving.
I can see trees.
I can see buildings.
I can see birds flying.
I can see airplanes lift and land.
I can see boats out at sea.
I can see everything.
And yet I can’t see a future with you in it.

hope.
hope for a long time.
hope never again.
hope is not a sure thing.
hope is not knowing.
hope is to delay.
hope is a lie.