Xan Abyss

Oct 2014

david badgerow

absence

this is a craigslist missed connection ad
because you were
beautiful and drunk
and i was
drunk
when you approached me
at the beer tent
said 'hi'
and something about my '...bare feet'
but all i heard was 'kiss me ******* the mouth'
we had so much chemistry,
neutrons and protons colliding
when our fingers touched as you
passed me your cigarette, exhaling
i watched as your hair began to stick
to a crest of sweat on your neck while
we chatted for forty seven minutes and
thirteen seconds, near as i can figure
never mentioning each other's names
or phone numbers but
if i ever see you smile again
i'll slip you my name like a prayer
pressed to your lips or a ring on your finger
even though you said you hate jewelry
your ears, so cute and small and not even pierced
solitary necklace adorning the angelic collarbone
now burrowed into your left breast
it's a cheap faux crystal trinket with a purple tint
that you got for $15 two years ago
but you love my earrings
saying you always had a thing for guys with tattoos
you're an environmental sciences major
and a wonderful butterfly
with eyes like an ocean
hair that just won't quit
and the most delicate navel
i've ever seen
you're perfect and
i might've dreamt
of your legs
for the last two nights
those devilish muscles that first
brought you close to me
then, quick as light,
stole you
away.

Oct 2014

Thomas

Madame Silence and Her Minions

I’ve sat with Silence
As she cast silhouettes
Moving in the likes
of Ballerinas across
My hair.

I’ve moved with them too.
That’s how I’ve come
To know their names
Or natures
As such:

1) The one who sold her soul to the Devil
For pennies and a dollar
So her mother could
Come off the
Corner

2) The one who put Fireflies and Rainbows
In mason jars and played make
Believe with running fingers
And a wounded
Moon

3) The one whose only trace of a father is
The bloodstain on the wall like a
Family photo with X’s over
The faces because he
Destroyed more
Than his own
Soul

4) The one who strung sorrow to the ceiling
To play its marionette with dancing
Shadows weeping and frightfully
Abandoned, hiding under
A candle in shameful
Bliss

5) The one who wandered though fields
Of whispering epitaphs that
Made nursery rhymes
From the likes of
Madness

6) The one who locked her heart in
A vault within ashen walls and
Wrote letters to stars that
Wrote it’s not her fault
She’s infinitesimally
Small

I told myself I would never return
To sleep
To dream
To surrender my mind to its own
Devices
Vices.

But here am I, Lord
Swinging with the wind
Under a purple tinged twilight
Making friends with twisted tongues,
and braided hearts slinking through the alley.

I’ve bore my heart like a cross,
Carried it past moratorium
Marching east for west
Until my frantic feet
Cease to move
Me.

Oct 2014

Tina Marie

to my sun god

For so many years I wandered
Through the night
With your sister Selene,
Laughing and smiling:
A grim facade
So no one would question me.
Her cold moonlight
Allowed my charade to go unnoticed.

Little did I know that you,
My very own Helios,
Were floating through my night unseen
On the flat underbelly of the earth.*

Then without warning
I saw your other sister Eos.
She taunted me
With the first of your rays,
Giving me a glimpse
Of what it meant to walk in your light.
Snatches of the impending dawn
Teased me with their muted hues.

Suddenly, you in your golden chariot Peeked just over the horizon
I tried to flee west;
Afraid to believe
The warming rays emanating
From you could be real.
I tried to uproot the gleaming tendrils
From my jaded heart
But I couldn't outrun the sun.

So I gave up trying.
I turned to face you.
I kept my eyes closed at first,
Cautiously
Letting the radiance of your being Illuminate the damaged corners;
The scars of my aura
Layed bare before your brilliance.

And still you came.

So I opened my eyes
And saw that every scar,
Every damaged piece of my spirit
Was made beautiful
Before your smoldering gaze.

*Joyously I took your outstretched hand
Now I wander with you
Through the painted mesa skies
From cloud to cloud
In a leaping pirouette
Never to allow the night
To take residence in my heart again.

#love #hope #salvation #story #sunrise #mythology #kissymarie

Xan Abyss Oct 2014

A Regular Madman

They call me a raving lunatic
My mind is poor and sick

Manic vagabond, mystic sorcerer
Snake Oil Salesman, Son of Lucifer
Given wings of Raven feathers
Cursed to live in stormy weather
Chaos lives beneath the color of my painted teeth
I've a dark mind indeed, of morbid persuasion
Come sing along to your damnation
Ride the cannibal sensation
Devise a way to survive the game
Or you won't get out alive again

Alchemy infernal, elixir of dark might
Inhale the emerald Smoke of Jesterian Light
Given to us a seventh sight
Arise to conquer the lies this night
Our darkest night

A beast, a fiend, a wicked thing
I'm a regular madman
A creep, a dream, a demon seed
A regular madman
Indeed

Follow me through the thick of the trees
Over roots and rocks and dying leaves
To a darker realm of mystery
Where everyone is a freak like me

A better place, you'll see
A better place indeed

An old song about.... (?) ..... I originally wrote for a project that never got used because that project became instrumental instead.

#circus #dark #lunatic #freaks #vagabond #traveling #raving #madman #ringmaster #freakshow

Xan Abyss Oct 2014

I Am Fire

My pain turns to anger, my anger to hate
My hate becomes fire with which I create
Peace turns to passion, passion to joy
Joy into weakness through which I'm destroyed

Like a madman screaming at the wind
For crimes it could never commit
Staring at the void, I watch it ignite
The shadows drown in incendiary light

(And I am one)
One with the fire
One with the blaze
One, all and everything
I am one
One with the darkness
One with the pain
From these ashes I shall rise again!

I am fire!
You are fire!
Let us burn!
Bright together!

Into the eye of this storm of darkness
You and I, we all will fly
Into the void, into the unknown
Bound in union, fighting as one

And we are one
One with the fire
One with the blaze
One, all and everything
We are one
One with the darkness
One with the rain
And as one we will fight to remain!

I am fire
You are fire
Let us burn
Bright together

Our pain turns to anger, our anger to hate
The fire inside us we use to create
In darkness is beauty, in beauty is light
The light that will guide us through infernal night

And we are one
One with the fire
One with the blaze
One, all and everything
We are one
One with the darkness
One with the rain
And as one we will fight to remain!

I am fire!
You are fire!
Let us burn!
Bright together!

We are fire!
Raging higher!
Sing it now!
Louder than ever!

An old song I wrote about seeing the light instead of feeling the burn.

#life #fire #passion #darkness #lyrics #burning #creation #unity #cycles #anthem

Xan Abyss Oct 2014

Dreams of Demons

Do demons ever sleep?
If so, do they ever dream?
Or do they just live in us,
Only as real as we allow them to be?

In my dreams
of demons,
Sorcery of Horror
Takes hold while I'm sleeping
I wake up screaming
In the oblivionic darkness
Cold sweat and shallow breathing
I don't know what it means
but I think Nightmares could be
A gateway for your mind to see
into the Dreams
of Demons...

Late night, mostly asleep ramblings

#poetry #dreams #dark #ghost #demons #nightmare #haunted