/because you could really get a square, or any coherent mundane geometric narrative of re- re- re-... out of a *******... or tell someone with a size 11 shoe, that a size 9 will be, just as comfortable... and while the English language goes to ****, thank **** it has no mother and has no son in the guise of me... with the current lexi- of non-cis non-binary yadda yadda abracadabra... a return to stern, dog breeding terminology... pedigree, mongrel... hybrid... can't really as the semite for an authentic opinion, came from a people that sat on their ***** for long watching chickens walk down a village dirt road... anything to redefine, those half-***** screaming into a tin-can tied to a string... after all, Greenwich... outside of the English speaking world, we like to call the natives: Greenwich bellybuttons, or rather, bellybuttons of the world: pępki świata... as a person of acquired tastes, it's turning into a heartache, seeing english so deformed... perhaps by both technology and youth... a Frankenstein to behold... and when in Paris, did I speak any french? not really, but I had the audacity to cling to an Italian girl who could, and a Russo-Canadian girl, who also could... but you still managed to meet people who understood that english, not french, was and is the lingua franca of tourism... obviously not so much when it comes to commerce... and banking, is not exactly a commerce... neither is the media... e.g.? re.: Münster... on the first day 3 people (not including the attacker) were killed and 30 injured... on the second day 2 people were killed (including the killer) and 20 injured... who the hell still thinks that the media juggernaut is a trebuchet to fling a Meursault into the limelight? it's naive to think that such people are seeking fame... a ******* butter knife and a glass of beer will always be more "famous"... and the man who discovered beer, well... good luck reading Plato... comes the staring into the abyss, and the abyss not staring back, whispering a words: ad absurdum counter ad nauseam...
too much love poetry, too much love
poetry that isn't risqué,
plain mundane out of fear...
a fear of being found dead 2 weeks
later...
not mundane to say the leat,
just: a zoological observation
of a lion, rather than stark naked
on th savannah...
or thereabouts...
but to have to exhaust
poetry for love? this sort of love?
i prefer the memory of candyfloss
sitting on a stump of wood...
maybe that's why i find the current
movies exhausting,
bankrupt writing,
or rather, current movies an modern
art, minimalism, minimalism,
large open spaces replaced by
strobe c.g.i.
point being, when did the fallacy
of subjectivity come into
contact with dialectics?
just asking, because i somehow
cannot conceive an objectivity of one,
in that, not having to cite
a bibliography, third part sources...
can't a subjective opinion
be just as true as an objective
herd nod?
mesmerising that
subjectivity should be deemed
as sub-dialectics,
bellow engagement...
somehow contaminated...
are pronouns in that respect
subjective? silly question...
chess pro noun: or solving crosswords...
pro nouns, meaning:
in favour of remembering
names of objects...
and further into the exposed
muddle of atomised grammar...
objectivity is when you stress
pre nouns...
otherwise, someone is to be found
vehemently stressing a pivot
word, and that gives him or her away?
all of a sudden objectivity is
regarded with more respect,
objectively, perhaps talking
about things with a blank canvas,
orientating oneself where
you're not allowed to use nouns...
the closest you can get to asking
a co-worker for a hammer on
a construction site is to hum a hmm...
is that objectivity?
hence the classically mundane
narrative...
because i just wanted to say
that a richness of one's own memory
creates a cinematic void...
i can't estimate how many hours
I've sat drinking, more entertained
by my memories, than any recent film...
just like today, having refreshed
a pale nectarine kitchen with
lemon peel... i already started thinking
about the corridor...
but before that, during
the day...
why is spring in England,
why is summer in England...
so... ******?! i wish there was
a better word for it...
god i've missed continental spring...
i haven't experienced, continental
spring for... 22 years...
deep continental spring,
past Germany, above the Balkans
below the Baltic...
22 years of 22 springs,
spent on that bog of a sinking ship
known as England...
rain... rain... more rain...
dampness and 21 Beehive Ln.
Gants Hill just across the synagogue
above the estate agent...
dampness and those *******
woodlice...
22 years having spent each mid
April to late May under
earl Grey the ******* ponce...
no one I sleep better
in this part of the world,
the body has synchronised itself
with the fauna and a heritage past
and the mind seems revived...
to the scents of waking trees,
to the sight on national news
of bears waking from their wintry
hibernation in the Tatra mountains...
ecologists testing mosquito repellents,
anti-rabies snacks dropped into forests
for foxes to eat...
and only the one direction
traffic of English... comes a headache
having to listen to it, comes easier writing
about it...
hence the old woman decided
to take my case of the presidium...
tomorrow i'll have my photo taken,
take my British passport,
declare myself as myself before
a bureaucratic piece of paper
with a signature, wait less than two weeks
and get my Polish citizen identification card...
plan B...
just in case...
just in case it becomes normal
for spring and seeing so many
children playing outside the 2nd level
balcony overlooking a graveyard...
boys as old as 6 / 7 playing with
wooden swords...
teenagers sitting on benches
in the cool night till 10:30 pm...
and everything else
worth living for, lived in a small town...
far away from the London rats...
far away from a country that understands
bilingualism as schizophrenia...
maybe i am mad,
but the ones who think I am, are no more
sane...
than me...
first thing's first...
with a snap of the fingers,
i can retain my dual-nationality,
and perhaps, after a while,
after I stop finding the study of psychiatry
by studying psychiatric blunders
a bit boring...
and say auf wiedersehen to
ol' ***** 'n' Charlie Ambrose...
honestly,
england's worth of its very misery...
its hardball when attached to the mainland,
a nation of thespians,
hard this, soft that,
nuns instead of frisky youth...
or at least: for the joy of life
at first, prior to the sentiments of
adulthood, and shackles,
as was once done in a spring field
or on top of a hay stack;
which... makes it doubly
uncomprehensive...
ad to why someone's father might
force himself to forget his mother tongue. ..
with his son not being able to speak it,
suddenly reaching for
a bomb making kit, a knife,
a car or an assault rifle...
that sort of grievance?
as the old testament ends with a hope...
not till the heart of the son
turns to the father, and likewise
reciprocated...
shame for the collateral
damage... truly, shameful...
but you'd think that a son could
realise his beef, is with his immigrant father
and not the host nation...
because a return to the past
or, the body to the land,
the land to the mind, and mind to
the tongue, and the tongue to the breath,
and the breath to the soul,
and the soul to the forefathers...
kinda amrican, wouldn't you say so,
Herr Jefferson?
