we were planted in each other’s lives
for a reason
and ever since, our hearts
have been beating
I want to grow with you,
no matter the season

we are two seeds, independent
destined to grow into beautiful creatures
we are filled with love and harmony,
two plants growing into a romance,
tasting each other carefully.

you are the sun I need,
and I am the rain that waters your seed.
together we will bloom,
as we wear flowers as our costume.

we are two seeds, planted for each other
happiness is what we seek,
we are destined to love,
destined to suceed.

- gio

try your damnest to not show fear.
If you do, they're going to eat you alive.
So you put on a brave face,
Trying to make others believe they don't affect you.
Trying show that you can rise above the torment.

But they see right through it.
They just let you make a fool of yourself.
Silently laughing at your pain.
Your agony.

Your brave face begins to crumble over time.
Leaving a tear stained face.
Leaving you exposed and
Vulnerable.
Why?
Because you didn't have the strength to go on.
Because you're tired of trying.

It aches
To know
That in this
Difficult time apart
I cannot suceed
In making you happy
I know you wish you were here
And oh how I wish
That you were too
But in this time apart
I hope you feel my love
I hope that you see
Every laugh and smile as
My attempt to be happy
To prove my love and
Deep affection
My sweet love
I hope that one day
You'll see the world
A little brighter
I wish being yours
Made it so
But you dream
Of happiness
In each others arms
And until that day
Know that I love you
And that you will always
Be my sunshine
My star
In every night sky
You are my forever
And that
Will never change.

you may exsist
but you are a ghost to me
as am I
for it seems you never knew me
oh the sweet irony
oh the innocent trust
oh I don't blame you
for who am I to say
the flaws I release are as real as yours
but I know that the blood I bleed
may of led you astray
as for I know I was never easy
in the end
love fades like the light in my eyes that night
when I believed it would last for awhile
but every moment is fleeting
every promise is misleading
or so I have learned
the lines got tangled
I was choking myself out
I would be lying if I said I was alright
for I have seen my mistakes in the clearest light
the reflection in the mirror oh so real
the reality of my position, spinning fast as the wheel
thank you for all its worth
I may now be a ghost of these streets
those memories just linger in the air I breathe
I feel the cold of the pavement beneath my feet
you are now a ghost
for it seemed none of this never happened
maybe, oh maybe we can just forget
or at least I hope you suceed
the last time we spoke still haunts me
so dry and dull
the words so stale and short
in time
all good things must come to and end
and so it did...it is better that way

Oh Shadow Child
Go out and play
Take breath and stay
Your in need
Have some fun but later suceed
Shadow child don't live a life of greed
I am the one who brought you here
Please don't retain your fear
Let it all go
Learn to cry too though
Shadow child dance on the sidewalk
Go on be real,Talk
See life in only the best light
Tell me what you think is right
Don't worry I'm sure we'll agree
It's just you and me, at least for the day
I love you shadow child
That's why tomorrow you'll be free
Tomorrow you'll get a chance to know eternity.

money worries
always having them
makes your day astray
always on your mind at the wrong time
everyone who is rich
your creating jelousness
wishing that would be you
you try
and you try
but never suceed
so you have money worries that control your life
inspite of what u are
your true self
your life
your happiness
everywere you go
your body moves slow
when
when will this happen
when
when
will it be
when
when
will you see
that its only paper
or object that is there
but it is everywhere
i am here
not scared
not confused
not struggling without a dollar in my pocket....

Hello Inspiration,  
Where have you been, my friend?
You finally showed yourself after
Teasing me for months on end

People ask me all the time
Why I no longer pick up the pen.
All that will change now, wouldn't it?
Now that you're back again

Where did you go, Inspiration?
You left me feeling so incomplete
I kept trying to bring you back
I never did suceed

You ran away so hard and fast
Left an emptiness I didn't recognise
If I look away, will you run again?
I'm afraid to close my eyes.

It's good to see you, old friend.
We have a lot of catching up to do
But if I let go of your hand,
You won't abandon me, will you?

If I get busy with other things,
If I don't respond to you at once,
Will you dissappear like you did before?
Or will you give me a second chance?

You came back so suddenly
That I just have to ask
Are you here just to tease me?
Or is this going to last?

I have so many questions for you
Why? When? Where? And how?
But first, let's celebrate your return
And make the best of what we have now

Each moment of darkness will lead to much light,
And through every hardship, we continue to fight.
It's easy to be hateful, but much wiser to give love,
And by all our faith, we are watched from above.
It's truthful that in life, we will fail more than suceed,
But with each of our downfalls, the more courage we'll need,
To get right back up, and learn from our past,
And cherish each moment as if it's our last.
The strongest of people, are the ones who fell hard,
And continue to get up, unbroken, unscarred.
This is the hero, the one who stands tall,
For he is the fighter, the bravest of all.

You love her, not me. But why would you ever want me? I'm crazy, anyone could see. I try and cover my scars, but there are too many to hide. And you can see it in my tear filled eyes. I'm that crazy girl no one loves. Seeking attention, that's all I'm doing. But what's sad is that, if i suceed, you'll instantly love me.

I've never felt so useless; I'm so used to being used. Am I just being thrown and tossed around like an abused piece of news?  
Old news is that what I am? I remember hard times before when you couldn't I'd always rise and take a stand.
Seems to quickly we, as people, forget how to be a friends; tempers flaring, words daring then hours later waiting to make amends.
While my feelings are hurt, And your basically floored, this whole time we both feel like we're being  ignored.
Our fights they're terrible I can admit that, I can also admit our friend ship isn't half bad.
Actually I like you most, you just don't see... Have I ever kept anyone for that long around me? The people in that category I can only name about three.
     honestly I can say that most of the problem is with in myself, I really can't tell when it's real so I always have with held.
With held the extent  in which my friendships go, when ever I hit the road. It's always been alone.
With hold my feelings because I'm scared they're wrong, **** I even with hold the name of my favorite song.
I've been told before I'm easy to love but hard to know, I'm just so used to being overlooked that I thought people would really careless to know.  
I'm scared I'm not enough and that I will never suceed. I'm scared to love and then in it bleed.
There's apart of me that feels like I'm trapped in my own little realm, and I'm so far gone no one cares to help.
So I shut my self down and the ones that I love, but not because it I'm above,  it's more because I feel I'll never be enough.
I set outrageously high expectations,
So that I can't commit to any kind of relations.  It's just easier like that, dealing with me is no mental vacation.
I've  told you I knew the problem was me, don't ever for a second think I'm too blind to see.
I know I'm a monster and act like I don't care, I just know that even though everyone says it, they won't always be there.
It's not that I feel you won't, I just know what it's like and I've lost all hope.
So then I **** up on purpose cuz I'm a ***** and I'm scared. Ironically you're still always around the corner... Just there.
Waiting for what, I really don't know,
But I won't ever be different, I just don't know how to go with the flow.
And for all those reasons that's why I'm alone, I'm just grateful you haven't gone.
I don't  wanna fuss, dont wanna fight, just wanna make sure you my friend are at home and are ready to smoke a blunt tonight.
All my insecurities are giving me a headache, so I puff on the blunt to watch them vacate
They disappear like the clouds of smoke I exhale, turn the music real loud and think of something random like retail.
& just disappear even if it's for a second,
I know I'm terrible I told you I'd admit it.
Of course the insecurities always come back, but I'm really trying here please just help me and cut me some slack.

I'd splinter you with kisses
Unbound by fear and ingnorant with
The lonly bee keeper alone.  

I'd wish endless wells erupteted to
My  wishes all  alone spare my own penny

I'd dive under cars and sing until you
Gave into my rusty note and lunged for my life  and levy under my unarmed seranade until the cops sing he's a menace who never had to change.

I'd go endless and naked pools of wealthy under brick until we bunker in the warm beds cloth of clear blue water and kiss like nature opening her ponds of endless algae

I'd say my words forever until your dying truth goes past failure to suceed.

The girl who never cried broke out in tears,
How can this be?
She tries to say this isn't real,it's not reality
But she doesn't wake and her heart continues to ache,
He wasn't just some boy
To her he was everything she'd ever need,
She feared without him she wouldn't suceed,
She fell to pieces,
She hurt inside and out,
She neded to shout
Even moew she needed to know if he always had doubts.

How could she have been such a fool,
She believed his lies,
To him she was just another tool,
He used her and made her feel like nothing,
Her heart no longer feels anything but pain,
Her world was shattered and her heart was slain,
This may be her end,
She can no longer go on and pretend,
No it's not alright,
No it's not okay,
She can't bare to stay
Her life must be taken away,
One more day like this
Just to make sure there's nothing she'd miss,
Then she'll be dead
Remembering how he loved her instead.

What do you see when you see me,
do you see all that can be.
The mum that holds things all together,
who does far more when people let her.

Do you look in my eyes and hold a gaze,
do you see a soul, in fire a blaze.
Do you comfort me when the days been unkind,
do you make a cuppa help me unwind..

What do you see when you see me,
do you see all that can be.
The  woman who tries with all her might,
always pushing forward against hine sight.

Are you aware of my challenges faced,
do you hold me close in a tight embace.
Or do you just point fingers and find my flaws,
as you leave my confidence wiped across the floor.

What do you see when you see me,
do you see all that can be.
A wife who loves her family so dear,
with every heart beat if you can hear.

Her late nights to complete the chores,
housework with music on, seems less a bore.
Children's in bed the day's  been long,
tucked up in bed with a kiss and a song.

What do you see when you see me,
do you see all that can be.
A woman whos strong but yet so weak,
can't always find her voice to speak.

Help her to suceed to find her way,
when time outs needed to play.
An unplanned outing with family or friend,
stops her from going round the bend.

What do you see when you see me,
do you see all that can be.
An inner child thats fun in spirit,
that wants to dance and never quit.

So as in the mirror reflections holding gaze,
I can see the mother, wife and child a blaze.
A sparkle left a glimmer of hope,
my lifes my own no time to mope.

I get so
Happy
When I
Talk about
Marrying him
And the life we could
Live together
But then we fight
And A fear arises
Perhaps he and I won't suceed
For young love dies fast
But still I want it to last
I've been praying on my knees
Since day one
And hope has yet
To die.

Life and death breathe in my state of immunity death brings fate to calamity wisdom is outstandind it makes you stand our from the crowd exceedingly , I forbid but the dark still proceed I just wana dwell in the ark and suceed am a seed rooted beside the see of greatness and recrouted prosperity

My heart pumps twice for winter and summer for ****** and osama B or martin luther choose what you wana breath detect and eject any pathogen that might bring a disease

What does your heart concieve as it proceeds to pump use both eyes to see but if one misleads you its better to receive life in one view than to swallow a nife and never go trough

well im sorry i had to leave
but i have to anwser to other needs
so  my goals will suceed
i no she got a heart
and forgive me for tearing it apart
live your life and be strong
be happy and move on
cause at the end you'll see who'll be living long
I hope you be alright
and have a good night
gone and tell your friends cause I know i aint right
but believe me im still different than others
we can be friends there for one another
please dont compare to the bad guy
cause when i was with you i never put a tear inside your eye
just keep living your life
cause im very sure you'll make a person's wife
so enjoy live your life have your fun
and please don't think about this mean thing that I've done
this is already to hard for me to take

therefore this could be my biggest mistake

One mans Trash is another
ones gain an Treasure..

So dont discriminate
An dont base it off -genoism
( ;p )

Knowing nobodys perfect

Dont go making excuses
for whos the strongest..

Because people now a days have discrimination down to a science..

Their is no gene for fate,
Blood has no nationality..
An
Family dosent necessarily Mean blood
Like a first family.. Their just as much..

Never was as curtaint of how far away I was from my goal, Then when I was standing right beside it..

Even if your 100% best is
only half as good to other's..
It is greatly appreciated to me
So dont forget to remember me..

Because if at first you dont
suceed Try an Try again..

Because if you remember this..
You'll want to keep on going..

"For every stroke to the horizan it was one we had to make back to the shore"

So pretend your life was swimming..
Dont let no anchors drag you down,
Dont stop till you Finnish
or
you might drowned

Also
dont let your resemas
be based off genetics

Derailed again through twisted train of thought,
brings me to my knees,crippled through racing mind self shame to myself I've brought.
Faster faster it races on with non logical ideas to cause pain.
My head brings dark clouds fog thunderstorms with rain.
A tsunami like a virus it's spread, infected my very wake.
So I climbed off this faster carriage to try to give myself a break.
Numbing all takes every ounce of strength,
yearning within my very soul ill goes to any length.
Paralyzed with fear of family alone, if I suceed with ending it all.
Dead inside now a numbed feeling to help me cope, I feel sick.
These cold railway tracks rusted damp and twisted lay up ahead confront me.
I no i have to board again soon as this was an unscheduled stop,
no waiting platform for me to be welcomed  by a loved one.
Alone I fight it, legs heavy, each step forward weighed down by quicksand .
I have to rise, the world is spinning,
spoken words from others jumbled.
Unable to concentrate enough to speak words to form sentances not jumbled.

Again I board the train it gains speed,
the outlook from the window a haze of green as trees and field zoom past at lightening speed.
I close my eyes ,I can hear the rattling of carriages, the wheels grinding along the track.
clackaty clack clackaty clack.
So I sit back slumped in the corner of the carriage.
I visualise my life flash before my closed eyes within my mind.

It makes sense now, I need to filter the good the bad the ugly from my subconscious.
Clear my mind wipe it blank.start again.
Trapped within the comfort of this carriage I now relax almost feel safe.I've let go.
My destination is uncertain but I will not quit.
This steel coffin upon wheels that I once perceived to be the end slows,
cla ckty c l a c k cal ckty c l a c k.
it stops I disembark.

It's then I realize I am the driver of my own train of thought. me.
Me in the driving seat alone.me.
I can control it.me
I will do it me.
My life a new platform awaits me.
I hope it is all the positives I percieve it to be.
I can do this.me.
I am now free.

Im writing a story about you
Im trying to see what is real
And what is not
Im trying to find
A new pathway
That leads me to you
It might be hard
But I admit, That i will try
And go ahead
I demand A little respect
For the ones that are already there
It is hard
TO see me suceed
But I know Someday
Ill be there too
I will give it all a chance
TO never stop and never let go
I wont loose this race again
Because this time, You are on the other side
Other side
Other side
And I know I cant replace
The memories and the cries
But I can make new themes to add a smile
to the feast
Here today gone tomorrow
I will make it just for you
Here today Gone tomorrow
And I will make to be with you.

A little bird came to me
Showed me the truth
Finally helped me to admit
Life goes on
With or without him
So ..
I must move on
I must...
And finally I did ..
Forgetting his words
His gifts ..
Whatever their was ..
Yet when i suceed
He came back
Asking for mercy
Asking for forgiveness ..
Never knowing
It was too late ...

Bushra ayub khan

Where I'm from
We paste out names on the lot
Lazy is the taste
Don't gain weight is my motto
Where I'm from
When we leave
We stop our steps
To collect our thoughts
Anywhere
Anywhere
Cause where im from
We have that loose hair
When I'm growing out my fro
We all show out when we see you
I keep it smooth
Because I choose to
Cause where im from
Tons of people are relaxed
Our music is shared
I already declared my dreams
But it's too late now
Anywhere
Anywhere
New with my limo
Keep my flow slow with the tempo
We built this
I tell them
My name is wolf
I wish you had it
Original to the lot
Spread my name like ashes
I have the knowledge
To cover the college
Changing myself everyday
International quotes
Of this is the cool
Relaxed new future
So you nature where you come from
Cause where i from
you need to tell yourself
To suceed of telling what you need
Let your love blossom
Let your love for life cost up
Cause where im from
Im would never act a fool like that
Where I'm from
We get recognized as awesome
Anywhere
Anywhere
I'm bullet proof
Lyrics turned south
While the kids bounce to the sounds
We innovate
Translate the words to the youth
We all gather the coup
Think
We are go out by noon
Walking out so smooth
Let it free
Cause where I'm from
We think like that
Anywhere
Anywhere

A repeated feat, just as dusk lusts for dawn:
Nights blend seemlessly with the days they seek.
Infatuation to the greatest degree
because if it was love, they'd have found a way to suceed.
Sun would share the sky with stars,
a liminal space split in half.
The ultimate comprimise for exisiting.  
When will the missing them dull to an ache I can bare?
or is this the price?
Would the abscene of pain simply mean the abscene of them?
because if so,
I'd rather dispare in the knowledge that just like the dawn,
I'm cursed to an eternity one step before them,
forever casting shadows.

I can see the glimmer in your eyes when you lie
I can see the smirk on your face when they fall
I can hear your heart racee when they believe
I can hear the sound of your laugh when you suceed
You may fool them but you can't fool me
I'm a better you than you want me to be
I've been the real you
The one who exists only behind closed doors
Who you are when around nobody else
A person who hides behind lies
And feed off of others despair
The one who manipulates everybody
Because she has never truly cared
And maybe I still am
Maybe she never left
But I know from myself
Once she's gone
You still have nothing left

We both were birds of a different tree,
Waiting for a chance to be set free,
Many things run through my mind,
As I see you as something that is one of a kind,

Amidst seriousness to suceed in life,
Crossing obstacles a sharp as a kitchen knife,
Fate made us owners of different hearts,
But you are that one name that make sorrow depart,

Only rare chances of luck come to people like us,
But when it knocks ours door we took it just in time,
I feel that warmth that soothens my heart only when I hear your voice,
This I believe is one of the best decisions I've done by choice,

A bond that we both built in this time line,
Is now the blood that runs down my spine,
What we are for eachother may be unacceptable for others,
But everything is well and fine if we'd stay together,

Whenever a teardrop falls on your blushing cheeks,
The door of my subtle and sensitive heart creeks,
Wherever life may bring us ; even the ends of the world,
I'll always be there for you.

Sometimes God, will take people out of your life.
So that he may, do an work within you at the time.
Sometimes God , will place you in a lonely place too.
So that he may, get your attension for once here.
Sometimes God, wants you to stay single here.
So that he may, use you in ways that you are unaware.
Sometimes God, ways  might seem hard here.
But when he wants, you to do something here.
He shall make an way, for you to suceed at it here.

To be honest, there's nothing I love more than being a writer
They say, to be one, there's nothing you really need to do
Except put the thoughts and words you wish to relay
In smooth ink that flows over the rugged, pale paper
That's all it takes, they say
It makes a bitter laugh escape from my chest
'Oh really? ' I think nastily
They have no idea.
But never mind, for truly, I love being a writer.
There's this bitter feeling that curls in my gut, though
That seems to wrap  itself around my neck, stifling me
Whenever I look down at the scribbled words, words I wrote
And hear the disembodied, treacherous whisper hiss in my ear
'That's not good enough. '
It seems to cut through the elation and wonder
I feel reading another's work
That has left me astounded, amazed
It whispers this time
'You can never dream to write like that. '
I try to force the thoughts away, repeat to myself
'You're doing this for yourself'
After all, there's nothing I love more than being a writer.
But when I'm sitting glaring at my pen
Looking at an empty page that seems to stare me down
The mocking drawl comes again
'You didn't think you'd actually suceed, did you? '

Dear friends

Of course
I want you to be happy
Suceed in life
Find your place, your people
Be happy whatever it takes

But why
Do I always get left behind in the process
Am I worthless after all?
When is it my turn?