"pening" poems
Days passed by so fast
Overt feelings of hate towards my past
To avoid sadness and fulfill my happy jar
Another day won't be spent to play the game
Thus, I feel so free
Wounds healed slowly and thoroughly
Opening my heart when I am fixed
Jul 19, 2015
Jul 19, 2015 at 11:47 AM UTC
Kau Hadir
Dan bahkan pada saat seperti ini.
Pada masa kebingungan memuncak.
Kalut yang berkecamuk.
Hilang arah tak tahu kemana harus melangkah.
Letih yang minta sudah.
Kau hadir.
Ketika aku sudah tak tahu mana yang kepastian dan bualan
Merasakan jatuh ke jurang kebodohan paling dasar.
Mengemis kasih dan mendamba cinta.
Kasih cinta yang semu dan membuatku semakin terluka.
Kau hadir.
Panas wajah menanggung malu.
Pening kepala memikirkan sikapku.
Bagaimana aku bisa terlena dan membiarkanmu sirna?
Membiarkanmu tersingkir untuk sementara.
Namun kau, seperti biasa, akan senantiasa hadir.
Hadir melalui kata-kata
Hadir melalui nada-nada
Hadir melalui tanda dari alam semesta
Hadir dan terasa nyata.
Hadir dan membuatku terjaga.
Mar 21, 2016
Mar 21, 2016 at 4:20 PM UTC
Mumet i hate you ! Mumet tingkat kecamatan ! Mumet adalah ketika suasana hati sedang tidak bagus + badan yang lelah karena kerja terus-menerus + fikiran tidak fokus + tempat kerja yang jenuh menjerumus + dompet telah kurus + temen berprasangka buruk dan berkata ketus + orang tua banyak menuntut khusus + janji diingkari terus + keinginan terputus + harus menunggu, akhirnya emosi tingkat kedusunan menyebabkan pening d bagian alis kiri yang serius + semua orang tiba2 pergi dengan berbagai jurus = Sehingga merasa sendiri tak terurus... akhirnya sakit tipus, tinggal menunggu waktunya pupus*
Mar 2, 2015
Mar 2, 2015 at 4:31 AM UTC
Even the walls have their ears,
Although they are nonliving,
****** cries were overheard,
Easily by the walls themselves,
**** sounds of **********
Deflowering the young wife,
Roping in spies for the purpose,
Opening the ***** so delicate,
People so enjoy overhearing,
Pretty sights shine right upfront,
In their addiction to **** time,
No secrets remain virtuously,
Good habits are hard to develop.
May 29, 2017
May 29, 2017 at 9:49 PM UTC
I don't understand
Lost in what you're saying to me
Overcome by the whole idea of us walking hand in hand
Vow to forever be faithful to you
Enthralled by your smirk or grin
Your that girl who knows me only skin deep
Opening up to you like a blooming rose
Unloved or noticed by the Cinderella of my kingdom
Not giving up
At night, I reach my hand out towards you even though you aren't there
Tough to think that it's never going to happen
All I have eyes for is you
Lying alone in a cold, empty room
I wonder if I'm insane most hours of the day
Each day that passes before me, alerts me of the real world
Because I don't have you
To be my little firefly
Or my crucial hand rail
Instead, I've been abandoned to early
To stumble in the dark
And walk like a blind man
Mar 8, 2013
Mar 8, 2013 at 9:32 PM UTC
Slinking in the dark,
Lying low,
Yearning to taste the hunt.
Freeing the wild instinct,
Opening up his senses,
X-ray vision in the black night.
Dec 30, 2010
Dec 30, 2010 at 8:21 AM UTC
Address-From the depths of my heart
Date-16-9-2013
...................................................................................................
Subject: MEMORIES
...................................................................................................
January,
curiosity
Introduction,
Conversations,
Communication,
Acceptances,
Happy times,
Midnight convo's,
Merging hearts,
Long distance,
Fading trusts,
One sided love,
Bleeding heart,
Emotional breakdown,
Fast texting fingers,
Auto re-dial,
Sleepless nights,
Radio at highest volume,
Blues,
Music for the pain,
Wishes,
Heavy eyes,
Reading old texts,
Voice note on repeat,
Daylight,
Apology
Not granted,
Faith,
Emotionally strong,
June,
July,
August,
September,
Coffee
Memories,memories,
Pening words,
Hellopoetry,
Likes,
Comments,
Memory shared,
History lives on..
Sep 16, 2013
Sep 16, 2013 at 7:03 PM UTC
She felt herself f
a
l
l
i
n
g
deep into the dark
where NO ONE
could find her
all
alone
with no one to s
a
v
e
her
What. is hap
pening
to me?
soon alone NOT TO BE FOUnd
she felt a peace
r
ise in her
Is. THIS death ?
OR
MAYBE .JUST ANOTHER life
but SOON she was falling again-before she
left
she said one thing
maybe i’ll b
e
……
and THEn she was gone
Jan 30, 2015
Jan 30, 2015 at 3:42 PM UTC
Saying things that are implied is only redundant if I am listening,
but my ears have been filled with leaking thoughts
and sounds reserved for when I flip the light switches down.
loop after loop, it all becomes static
his voice is a plant drooping from it's *** melting down the sides
like lava I'm not afraid to touch.
it is still nothing to yours:
Opening my eyes is harder than saying goodbye,
harder than letting go for one cold, shivering moment
even if all I need is enough breath to hold on tighter.
the lines of your soft skin are muted whispers against mine,
and the only visible movement dances colorfully inside of my eyelids.
why is it so hard to
speak when I am left
Alone, where thinking becomes almost excessively easy.
it is too soon to mean it, or even let it float around
while I cry, and wait for you to reach out
and clasp it into the palm of your hand, where it will seep
soak
breathe in as part of your blood;
but the feeling of not being able to convey how much I care
is more taut than a balloon on the verge of eruption.
Please let me listen a little longer,
breathe a little deeper,
tell you things like thank you and ask you things like
why?
because even I don't know sometimes.
Mar 18, 2011
Mar 18, 2011 at 12:13 PM UTC
Ominous tides control my mind
Killing me on the inside
Ageless hurt boiling in the pit of my soul
Yearning to be set free from the eternal prison I have made in my head
Ineffectually think of my impending doom
Fearing the person that I am slowly melting into
Equally hating myself for my sinful crimes
Eloquent words flowing off my hateful tongue
Leaving behind the once pure little girl inside
Deranged voices talking to me
Expecting me to comply
After death and before lie
Depression is my only truth
Nightfall arriving, perishing my once boisterous being
Opening the demon in my soul
Who will not leave me alone
Oct 8, 2014
Oct 8, 2014 at 9:04 AM UTC
Made of steel yet her heart so soft
Opening arms to comfort all who seek
The anchor of the family binding together
Her love knows no bounds or limitations
Enveloping all she cares for in her warmth
Richly blessing all who are honoured to call her Mother
May 1, 2014
May 1, 2014 at 1:31 PM UTC
relishing in the taste of your soft lips
opening my soul to yours, connecting on a
molecular level, skin touching skin, i
am all yours. babe.
never let go, your rough arms enveloping my body
cultivating our love, deep and pure but
everything comes to an end
Nov 16, 2013
Nov 16, 2013 at 12:06 AM UTC
D: ays seem to drag on, relentlessly.
E: ventually you feel like you should give up.
P: ersistent feelings of sadness, worthlessness, useless…
R: eality seems to be slowly fading away from your grasp.
E:motions are beginning to get harder and harder to hide from those you love.
S: o, you decide to tell someone about it.
S: adly, they don’t believe that what you’re going through is worth the heartache you feel.
I: t’s okay though, because you expected this reaction to happen.
O: bviously what you’re feeling is stupid and unimportant.
N: ow what?
D: epression sinks in and begins to…
O: verwhelm every sense you have.
E: verything is dramatized and there’s nothing you can do to stop the…
S: ting of words from those around you telling you to just “feel happier, let out the sadness”
N: eeds don’t seem important anymore, you just ignore them.
O: pening yourself up to other people is no longer an option.
T: hey only make you feel worse.
D: eciding to get the help you deserve was the hardest part.
E: very day is a new day with endless possibilities.
F: ocus only on the positive things that happen to you.
I: n hindsight this will allow you to slowly be able to differentiate between the things you have control over and those you leave to God.
N: ever again will I let people dismiss my feelings.
E: ach feeling you have is part of who you are becoming and allow us to be human.
W: hy hold back anything anymore?
H: ow you feel is so important and you need everyone to understand… to become more…
O: pen-minded to the things that they couldn’t possibly comprehend.
Y: ou are worth it.
O: ur lives matter.
U: nderestimated potential shall no longer be a problem.
A: nyone can change their perspective on life, they just need the right support group.
R: ealizing you’re worth it, is the most important thing you can open your heart to.
E: veryone matters.
Nov 6, 2019
Nov 6, 2019 at 9:04 PM UTC
L osing all your doubts
O pening up to them
V aluing them above you
E xperiencing life together
Apr 8, 2019
Apr 8, 2019 at 9:52 AM UTC