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If I die in a school shooting I'll never go home again. My room will sit unused, A capsule frozen in time, A snapshot of how I was. If I die in a school shooting I'll never see my dog again. She will sit at the front door Waiting for me and wondering, Why I never came home. If I die in a school shooting I'll never graduate from high school. My yearbooks will sit stacked Stopped short of their goal, Missing years that should have been. If I die in a school shooting I'll never see my mom again. She will sit distraught, Planning a funeral For a child taken from her. If I die in a school shooting I'll never see my friends again. They'll sit together, missing me. One empty seat among them, A constant reminder of their loss. If I die in a school shooting I'll never see my little sister again. She will sit through high school Knowing I can't guide her through, That she has to figure it out alone. If I die in a school shooting My school will be stained. Pools of students lives will sit, Blood tattoos on the brick structures, Marks of death ground into it. If I die in a school shooting Everyone will wear black. They'll send their thoughts and prayers To a town marred by death, Forever to be the home of a shooting. If I die in a school shooting Will the world change? Or will I become one of hundreds   Of kids who have to die? What will it take? If things continue this way Children will have to live in fear. They'll look over their shoulders Always worried and wondering, If they'll die in a school shooting.
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May 29, 2018
May 29, 2018 at 4:02 PM UTC
If I Die in a School Shooting
If I die in a school shooting I'll never go home again. My room will sit unused, A capsule frozen in time, A snapshot of how I was. If I die in a school shooting I'll never see my dog again. She will sit at the front door Waiting for me and wondering, Why I never came home. If I die in a school shooting I'll never graduate from high school. My yearbooks will sit stacked Stopped short of their goal, Missing years that should have been. If I die in a school shooting I'll never see my mom again. She will sit distraught, Planning a funeral For a child taken from her. If I die in a school shooting I'll never see my friends again. They'll sit together, missing me. One empty seat among them, A constant reminder of their loss. If I die in a school shooting I'll never see my little sister again. She will sit through high school Knowing I can't guide her through, That she has to figure it out alone. If I die in a school shooting My school will be stained. Pools of students lives will sit, Blood tattoos on the brick structures, Marks of death ground into it. If I die in a school shooting Everyone will wear black. They'll send their thoughts and prayers To a town marred by death, Forever to be the home of a shooting. If I die in a school shooting Will the world change? Or will I become one of hundreds   Of kids who have to die? What will it take? If things continue this way Children will have to live in fear. They'll look over their shoulders Always worried and wondering, If they'll die in a school shooting.
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An early evening gust broke the back of the day's blaze Still 90 degrees at eight in orange haze Sweat runs down my neck Through the gorge between my ******* The wind lifts my linen shirt runs its hands along my sides reviving memory of Forest Park of a blanket in the grass Where the pines trace so many faces Crackling popping kids stolen matches, running screaming victorious! Blowing tin cans up with fire crackers Bicycles, sparklers, fireworks at dusk That whole afternoon I spent hammering caps Noise really makes us kids really especially annoying Mom wants us out! Gone! All of us! No needs. No excuses! No cookies! No slices of bologna! “No more Kool Aid! Out now! Out!” That evening I tried to dismiss the itchy sweat of stupid-sister-Suzy-matching-sun-suits at Gino's family picnic When some kid (I don't know?) between the rigatoni and the sweet corn Some kid tosses a sparkler into box of fireworks I don't know? whether to cry or laugh I was pretty scared Rockets going off across the lawn and onto porch Craze of colors through the trees Some at eye-level horror! But the sight of Aunt Nedda diving under picnic table Stockings, garter belt upended Capsized beyond her caring of uplifted dress Some images just stay with you, ya know? July 4th always lands for me on a firework's ***
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Jul 3, 2018
Jul 3, 2018 at 1:34 AM UTC
July 4th Memories that Last
Grandpa sits in his favorite chair, Spots his granddaughter and starts to stare, Whips out his **** and starts to stroke, He knows it’s his granddaughter he wants to poke, Calls her over and says, “Pretty please.” Come on granddaughter get on your knees, She does as she’s told and ***** him with zest, Because she knows ****** is best. Uncle Roy decides to give it a whirl, He likes to dress his nephew up as a girl, Likes to see him in silk and lace, Lipstick and makeup on his face, Imagining him with heels on his feet, As he sits there and starts to stroke his meat, He’d love to put him to the test, Because he knows ****** is best. Mother decides to get in on the act, Her and her son have a special pact, While her husbands at work she gets in his bed, Pulls down his pants and starts giving him head, Son likes his mom dressed up in her lace, As he shoots his load all over her face, He knows his mom is better than the rest, Because he knows ****** is best. Sister and brother are a special pair, It’s more than a last name these two share, Brother Bill can’t believe his luck, Having a sister that likes to **** Says, “Hey Sis, come on over here.” As he bends her over and takes her rear, Going at it like animals it becomes a real fuckfest, Because they both know ****** is best. Father can’t believe his daughter is so kind, She’s on her knees as he takes her behind, She moans and screams and starts to cry, Says, “Hey Daddy, you’re my kind of guy.” Daddy tells her ****** is the better way, It’s a game the whole family can play, Daddy treats his daughter like an honored guest, Because they both know ****** is best. 11-27-09b.
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Dec 23, 2011
Dec 23, 2011 at 1:20 AM UTC
****** Is Best
Grandpa sits in his favorite chair, Spots his granddaughter and starts to stare, Whips out his **** and starts to stroke, He knows it’s his granddaughter he wants to poke, Calls her over and says, “Pretty please.” Come on granddaughter get on your knees, She does as she’s told and ***** him with zest, Because she knows ****** is best. Uncle Roy decides to give it a whirl, He likes to dress his nephew up as a girl, Likes to see him in silk and lace, Lipstick and makeup on his face, Imagining him with heels on his feet, As he sits there and starts to stroke his meat, He’d love to put him to the test, Because he knows ****** is best. Mother decides to get in on the act, Her and her son have a special pact, While her husbands at work she gets in his bed, Pulls down his pants and starts giving him head, Son likes his mom dressed up in her lace, As he shoots his load all over her face, He knows his mom is better than the rest, Because he knows ****** is best. Sister and brother are a special pair, It’s more than a last name these two share, Brother Bill can’t believe his luck, Having a sister that likes to **** Says, “Hey Sis, come on over here.” As he bends her over and takes her rear, Going at it like animals it becomes a real fuckfest, Because they both know ****** is best. Father can’t believe his daughter is so kind, She’s on her knees as he takes her behind, She moans and screams and starts to cry, Says, “Hey Daddy, you’re my kind of guy.” Daddy tells her ****** is the better way, It’s a game the whole family can play, Daddy treats his daughter like an honored guest, Because they both know ****** is best. 11-27-09b.
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For my cousin, Chris Goldrick Lacing my skates after walking two miles in girl-strictured delight Mom's stories of Sonja Henie-- No, not ever Lacing my skates with  snow-ball pompoms felt skirt and nylon tights Cute little hat with matching scarf My thighs and fingers already freezing icy burn from miles on foot to get there the lake where-- I must get out I must get OUT! Knowing what to expect from my body the quick-twitch of muscle Could always sense specific-- gravity of water     at 22 degrees Desiring to feel the motion between ice and steel Read speed's vibrations through my body The brain registers relation to weather's effect Tell of velocity possibility of fall Feel the slash of the blades beneath me Throw my weight sideways, sudden to hear that furious hiss An object in motion tending, dire to stay in motion Threatening to stay there always in its heights-- of speed away-- from the crowds of skaters swirling distant in the lights Seeking instead the farthest reaches of Porter Lake speed and speed and more to overcome inertia of what it is to become undone at the outer edges, of humanity A force centrifugal unto myself Avoiding Pregnant and slow with years and babes.... The best must be broken and tamed of what it takes to stay free catching the edges with every stride catching my toe in the quick 180 spray of frost to the sudden still Listen to the frigid chill and the heave of my breath tumbling into evidence Gliding Once Forever-- on, into darkness of woods on frozen water The wildness of it all So infatuated with flight so full of grace I forgot Sonja The moon rose from her seat in the treetops and applauded
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Jul 17, 2018
Jul 17, 2018 at 3:54 PM UTC
Night Skating at Porter Lake
For my cousin, Chris Goldrick Lacing my skates after walking two miles in girl-strictured delight Mom's stories of Sonja Henie-- No, not ever Lacing my skates with  snow-ball pompoms felt skirt and nylon tights Cute little hat with matching scarf My thighs and fingers already freezing icy burn from miles on foot to get there the lake where-- I must get out I must get OUT! Knowing what to expect from my body the quick-twitch of muscle Could always sense specific-- gravity of water     at 22 degrees Desiring to feel the motion between ice and steel Read speed's vibrations through my body The brain registers relation to weather's effect Tell of velocity possibility of fall Feel the slash of the blades beneath me Throw my weight sideways, sudden to hear that furious hiss An object in motion tending, dire to stay in motion Threatening to stay there always in its heights-- of speed away-- from the crowds of skaters swirling distant in the lights Seeking instead the farthest reaches of Porter Lake speed and speed and more to overcome inertia of what it is to become undone at the outer edges, of humanity A force centrifugal unto myself Avoiding Pregnant and slow with years and babes.... The best must be broken and tamed of what it takes to stay free catching the edges with every stride catching my toe in the quick 180 spray of frost to the sudden still Listen to the frigid chill and the heave of my breath tumbling into evidence Gliding Once Forever-- on, into darkness of woods on frozen water The wildness of it all So infatuated with flight so full of grace I forgot Sonja The moon rose from her seat in the treetops and applauded
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A friend asked me how to be a writer. I wanted to say, lock yourself in a room, scream until you have a poem and no voice. Open your veins and bleed until you know that your bones are pure words and sorrow. Act as if you slit your own throat and all you can bleed are your own regrets and all of the darkness you boxed up for inspiration. Write your mom a letter, tell her you're leaving and you won't be back for awhile Because being a writer is traveling through all seven layers of Hell and denying anything is wrong. Forget loving yourself when all you have is a pen and paper fused to your wrist and Jesus is tapping at your skull saying turn back now. Warn the neighbors that if they smell burning It's just your soul clawing at the front door trying to get in. Learn how to be alone. Learn how to lose everything you have in order to feel release, learn how to only feel deceased from now on. A friend asked me how to be a writer. All I said was don't
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Jun 26, 2018
Jun 26, 2018 at 2:29 PM UTC
How to Be a Writer
Since Fortnite is incredibly bad, I turn it off and get real sad. As I sit there, a thought comes to me, There's a better game, but it isn't free. With a forceful tone and a loud holler, I demand my mom to pay 30 dollars. She buys the game, it's called PUBG, The price of this game was worth the fee. I fight my way to a Chicken Dinner, I killed 6 men but I'm still a winner. My mom barged in and yelled at me, "How dare you game this late," said she. I said "Sorry Mom," and gave her a shove, She said "Game, game, game, my love."
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Feb 16, 2018
Feb 16, 2018 at 11:23 PM UTC
The Game That Changed My Life
Now you have to understand that the greatest gift a child can receive is a sibling. Wrapped up in that hospital delivery is limitless potential. They can be your partner in crime, or the key witness in your conviction. A sibling fights the same battles you do just with different tactics. Some prefer to pit mom against dad others dad against mom. No one will ever walk the earth as close to you. Part of the DNA that makes you unique flows in their veins. Even if circumstances change that bond can’t be broken. They will annoy you, steal from you, drive you crazy, and if you’re lucky enough hate you. And yet they are your best friend, confidant, and the person who if you’re unfortunate enough will go to hell and back as fast for you as you would do for them. So to all the siblings out there. May you be playmates in adversity and friendly rivals in joy
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Apr 10, 2015
Apr 10, 2015 at 10:35 PM UTC
Siblings
I think sometimes, about what it means to be transgender. I probe and probe for answers, because as the possibility for a new age of enlightenment and safety increases, the others want to know. I’ve come up with many answers, but I can hold to none. I don’t deserve to paint the definition of a culture with the limited experiences I’ve had. I don’t see myself in the transgender identified people allowed on television. I don’t see myself in the transgender identified people making news feeds and giving high profile interviews. And as my nation’s exposure to our culture increases, likely will their curiosity. Am I transgender? Do I have the right? I’ve heard doctors, psychiatrists, may refuse transgender patients access to hormone therapy based on how dedicated or convincing their portrayal of their identified gender. If you want to be a man or woman, you’ll have to look like the women and men on TV. If you want to be transgender, you’ll have to look like the trans identified people on TV. Every single one of us who has an active role as either participant or observer in our society is prey to the crisis of validity. Am I pretty enough? Am I strong enough? Am I brave enough? Mom enough? Dad enough? Competitive enough? Successful enough? Rich enough? **** enough? Pious enough? It never ends. We’re, as a nation of people, being crushed and compartmentalized by this ever present lens, looming over us, exploiting our weaknesses and fears so it may grow wider, and support itself as it follows us, seemingly forever into the future. And one of the worst fears this camera of existential torment exploits, in most of us every day, is, “Do I have a reflection?” “What does it look like?” “Do I look like me?” What does it mean to be transgender? I can’t get away from that question. But I don’t have an answer. There are varying degrees of anguish, depression, panic, anxiety, and other wonderful emotional states that creep up on you and breathe down your neck nearly every waking day. Absolute contempt for the lie of a life you’ve lived till now, and contempt for the fragments still stuck to you, in memories, attached to your body and mind. Fear of those in your own community who would purposefully humiliate, invalidate, or attack you, choosing their own universal moral code over the innate urge and capacity to support the health and continued well being of another human. A ******* neighbor. A ******* pupil. A ******* employee. A ******* sister, brother, son, daughter, mother, father, cousin, ******* blood. What is being transgender like? By my experiences, it’s just like being anyone else in the country. But with a lot more fear, death, exclusion and medication.
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Feb 5, 2015
Feb 5, 2015 at 5:07 AM UTC
What is Transgender?
I think sometimes, about what it means to be transgender. I probe and probe for answers, because as the possibility for a new age of enlightenment and safety increases, the others want to know. I’ve come up with many answers, but I can hold to none. I don’t deserve to paint the definition of a culture with the limited experiences I’ve had. I don’t see myself in the transgender identified people allowed on television. I don’t see myself in the transgender identified people making news feeds and giving high profile interviews. And as my nation’s exposure to our culture increases, likely will their curiosity. Am I transgender? Do I have the right? I’ve heard doctors, psychiatrists, may refuse transgender patients access to hormone therapy based on how dedicated or convincing their portrayal of their identified gender. If you want to be a man or woman, you’ll have to look like the women and men on TV. If you want to be transgender, you’ll have to look like the trans identified people on TV. Every single one of us who has an active role as either participant or observer in our society is prey to the crisis of validity. Am I pretty enough? Am I strong enough? Am I brave enough? Mom enough? Dad enough? Competitive enough? Successful enough? Rich enough? **** enough? Pious enough? It never ends. We’re, as a nation of people, being crushed and compartmentalized by this ever present lens, looming over us, exploiting our weaknesses and fears so it may grow wider, and support itself as it follows us, seemingly forever into the future. And one of the worst fears this camera of existential torment exploits, in most of us every day, is, “Do I have a reflection?” “What does it look like?” “Do I look like me?” What does it mean to be transgender? I can’t get away from that question. But I don’t have an answer. There are varying degrees of anguish, depression, panic, anxiety, and other wonderful emotional states that creep up on you and breathe down your neck nearly every waking day. Absolute contempt for the lie of a life you’ve lived till now, and contempt for the fragments still stuck to you, in memories, attached to your body and mind. Fear of those in your own community who would purposefully humiliate, invalidate, or attack you, choosing their own universal moral code over the innate urge and capacity to support the health and continued well being of another human. A ******* neighbor. A ******* pupil. A ******* employee. A ******* sister, brother, son, daughter, mother, father, cousin, ******* blood. What is being transgender like? By my experiences, it’s just like being anyone else in the country. But with a lot more fear, death, exclusion and medication.
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Take care of me, Be there for me. Never discourage me, Love me unconditionally. You're supposed to be my mother. But you treat me like I'm nothing. I'm sick of your constant disrespect, The loss of love in your eyes that makes me want to cry, It's itching inside of the back of my mind. And someday I'll say goodbye to you, You won't want me to, But you can't make me stay. You're not my mom. But until then, I'll be walking in the rain.
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May 11, 2015
May 11, 2015 at 12:34 PM UTC
You're Not My Mom
Whenevel I clied hungly, Chhe would give me milk. Whenevel I do not dlink it, Chhe will tly that I dlink it. Whenevel I am chho angly, Chhe will tly that I dlunk it. Whenevel chhe loshesh hope, Chhe will look at my papa. My daddy will only shmile, Lift shweetly in hiz armsh. They would then shuksheed, Togethel they enteltain me. They dichhtract & feed me, Milk I lyk not chho vely hot. Twichhe they tly & I leject, They sing me some lhymsh. Mom then poulsh two dlops, On back of hel hand chhe tlies. 'Tsch! It's hot,' chhe ekchclaims, I let out a shmall shlieky laugh. Daddy lent hel a helping hand, He blung a khup of cold watel. Finally they togethel feed me, Calefully & lovingly they do it. Whenevel I lemembel my lisp, I am chho happy & smile bloadly.
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Jun 10, 2014
Jun 10, 2014 at 2:20 AM UTC
A Cute Lisp
I had a cat named Snowball. She died, she died. Mom said she was sleeping. She lied, she lied. Why oh why is my cat dead? Couldn’t that Chrysler have hit me instead?
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Jan 14, 2013
Jan 14, 2013 at 9:42 PM UTC
Snowball I
Sending me down the road Mom said don't worry, you'll do fine Work hard Work honest Be kind The road lead me to my home I worked hard Worked honest Was kind Just as I was told, I found Hard work moves you forward Honesty is a must Kindness is a friend to all
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Sep 29, 2013
Sep 29, 2013 at 8:03 PM UTC
The Road
The night under the mirror went through a revolving door. ~~~~ Eventually I did put a face to  your loving cues your emails It had been so long since your destiny had asked you my King to marry her that hunting jealous day that began much earlier under a 1975 degree celcious and did burn us to a crisp Nothing would have given me more assurance more pleasure  such a gracious challenge to a  mysterious proposition to dig my heart for the final blow one queen for his other prior queen bee me Karijinbba and a winner I would have been all night with my King under the mirror! to obliterate her wedding band from his hand how loving of you cupid of mine always digging at my heart for my heart of gold then came cause and effect of karma blowing up our plans another King Brad appeared with roses and diamond ring in hand he had no mask just an hidden agenda he took my children to his Mom to make his other queenjealous and I took the bate for just one hour both my King and Brad had chosen he same photo E-mailed among several to both single men seeking bride at Kiss com. my lovely picture was the same summer dress I wore with the king I loved as someone something from above and beyond mirrored the scene in my life a kind of cause and effect it showed my old beloved a simple approach to a woman's heart and me that the woman he married giving her a diamond ring taking her and son to his Mom was more to make me jealous too fight for his love an invisible revolving door had opened up both to win my lover back or to lose both Knights fate life karma G** had bid the greatest game of love and twin souls remained split bleeding both men found a way to another woman playing their game I was sent to worship my Lord Jesus Christ mocking me beware of Karma or THINK and get rich and happy to catch a true king FOCUS don't take bates, don't settle for new when the heart is taken  by a true love not followed. My king was found by his mate and I returned Brads diamond lesson played leasson learned Then came the clock ticking tax collector King Mr Time he took my hand paper INK and pen to script a new poem its Winter he said, HOW DO YOU WANT ME TO KISS YOU? and a new revolving door appeared here at H.P. ~~~~~~ By: Karijinbba Copy Rights ASG/BBA -revised 6/2020.
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Jul 15, 2018
Jul 15, 2018 at 12:37 PM UTC
Night under the mirror
The night under the mirror went through a revolving door. ~~~~ Eventually I did put a face to  your loving cues your emails It had been so long since your destiny had asked you my King to marry her that hunting jealous day that began much earlier under a 1975 degree celcious and did burn us to a crisp Nothing would have given me more assurance more pleasure  such a gracious challenge to a  mysterious proposition to dig my heart for the final blow one queen for his other prior queen bee me Karijinbba and a winner I would have been all night with my King under the mirror! to obliterate her wedding band from his hand how loving of you cupid of mine always digging at my heart for my heart of gold then came cause and effect of karma blowing up our plans another King Brad appeared with roses and diamond ring in hand he had no mask just an hidden agenda he took my children to his Mom to make his other queenjealous and I took the bate for just one hour both my King and Brad had chosen he same photo E-mailed among several to both single men seeking bride at Kiss com. my lovely picture was the same summer dress I wore with the king I loved as someone something from above and beyond mirrored the scene in my life a kind of cause and effect it showed my old beloved a simple approach to a woman's heart and me that the woman he married giving her a diamond ring taking her and son to his Mom was more to make me jealous too fight for his love an invisible revolving door had opened up both to win my lover back or to lose both Knights fate life karma G** had bid the greatest game of love and twin souls remained split bleeding both men found a way to another woman playing their game I was sent to worship my Lord Jesus Christ mocking me beware of Karma or THINK and get rich and happy to catch a true king FOCUS don't take bates, don't settle for new when the heart is taken  by a true love not followed. My king was found by his mate and I returned Brads diamond lesson played leasson learned Then came the clock ticking tax collector King Mr Time he took my hand paper INK and pen to script a new poem its Winter he said, HOW DO YOU WANT ME TO KISS YOU? and a new revolving door appeared here at H.P. ~~~~~~ By: Karijinbba Copy Rights ASG/BBA -revised 6/2020.
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im so sorry but I just can't come to my senses to not tell someone goodnight to someone i love because every night my mom tells me goodnight and I love her very much
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Jan 17, 2015
Jan 17, 2015 at 12:31 AM UTC
reason for a goodnight text
i. I intentionally failed to wish you a happy birthday this year, though I know significant dates, hours, moments, people, by heart. I still search for you in boys I mistake for bandages, the ones with eyes almost the same shade of your hazels, lips resounding your laughter, resembling a wisp of your smile, But they aren't you. ii. Sometimes I pretend you're dead, because it's less painful to stop reaching out into voids. iii. My mom still blames you for everything that preceded that year. Though you probably had no idea what happened when we stopped talking altogether. Can you believe it's almost been three years? iv. My dad wonders who was my 'one that got away' Though, I'm pretty sure he knows it's you. v. Remember how I mentioned Sylvia Plath? How most everything she wrote brimmed with melancholy? How I loved every single word? Especially that piece where she talked about expectations and disappointments. You'll never know that up to this day I still think people are selfish enough to always, eventually turn into the latter. Even you. vi. It's sad I never got the chance to tell you about Ted. How she loved him so much, she just had to figuratively dive headfirst into the flames-- burning herself, what was left of her-- after she found out he never really loved her the same way she loved him in the first place. vii. *truth is, some of us never learn to accept the love we think we deserve.* viii. I don't know if you still read my poems or if you still think about me, about us, sometimes. Every time you fall asleep past eleven, a part of me hopes you do. because I always remember you-- in birthday candles, red ribbons, off-tune voice records, golden arches, concrete sidewalks, pedestrian lanes, the last flickers of city lights softly fading out of the blue. I remember you in everything, in everywhere, in everyone. It's useless, no matter how much I try to forget. No matter how much I just want to forget. I want to forget. But, how could I? When forgetting means forsaking the very memory of you.
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Jul 9, 2018
Jul 9, 2018 at 6:00 AM UTC
i'm sorry. i thought i was done writing about you
i. I intentionally failed to wish you a happy birthday this year, though I know significant dates, hours, moments, people, by heart. I still search for you in boys I mistake for bandages, the ones with eyes almost the same shade of your hazels, lips resounding your laughter, resembling a wisp of your smile, But they aren't you. ii. Sometimes I pretend you're dead, because it's less painful to stop reaching out into voids. iii. My mom still blames you for everything that preceded that year. Though you probably had no idea what happened when we stopped talking altogether. Can you believe it's almost been three years? iv. My dad wonders who was my 'one that got away' Though, I'm pretty sure he knows it's you. v. Remember how I mentioned Sylvia Plath? How most everything she wrote brimmed with melancholy? How I loved every single word? Especially that piece where she talked about expectations and disappointments. You'll never know that up to this day I still think people are selfish enough to always, eventually turn into the latter. Even you. vi. It's sad I never got the chance to tell you about Ted. How she loved him so much, she just had to figuratively dive headfirst into the flames-- burning herself, what was left of her-- after she found out he never really loved her the same way she loved him in the first place. vii. *truth is, some of us never learn to accept the love we think we deserve.* viii. I don't know if you still read my poems or if you still think about me, about us, sometimes. Every time you fall asleep past eleven, a part of me hopes you do. because I always remember you-- in birthday candles, red ribbons, off-tune voice records, golden arches, concrete sidewalks, pedestrian lanes, the last flickers of city lights softly fading out of the blue. I remember you in everything, in everywhere, in everyone. It's useless, no matter how much I try to forget. No matter how much I just want to forget. I want to forget. But, how could I? When forgetting means forsaking the very memory of you.
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Hey mom-dad, listen. Hit me, hate me, throw me out, But don't shut me up.
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Jun 6, 2018
Jun 6, 2018 at 2:05 PM UTC
Please listen
***** I like ***** I like **** before you touch, you must get permits. Nothing like a nice pair of assets, oh how puppies make nice pets. Bazongas are ***** that are large, strippers and hookers, will always charge. Nothing like the perfect ***** but only on the perfect woman. ******* are yummy dark or white, but first you must wait for an invite. Some girls even have a third ****** do not squeeze says Mr. Whipple. I don't mind girls on the itty, bitty, ***** committee, on a carpenters dream, I show no pity. They could be called a bust, some call them cans, a woman's squeeze box, all men are fans. Chesticles is a term I have never heard, but everyday, I learn a new word. I like cones, I like jugs, girls with big ones, I give hugs. Al Bundy loved calling them ******* at the restaurant, I wish I was one of the recruiters. A girl with a nice set of knockers, might find herself with unwanted stalkers. Fergie sang about her lovely lady lumps, a good set of melons, still give me goose bumps. ***** always come in a pair, why do bra's, they have to wear. Even men who smoke lots of crack, still can appreciate a good sized rack. I don't care if there fake or real. in a crowded room, I always cop a feel. Girls love showing off some cleavage, I wish I lived in a ***** village. Babies need breast milk to make them stronger, if the mom is hot, they may do it longer. In conclusion, I love ***** with whipped cream or melting ice cubes.
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Oct 30, 2013
Oct 30, 2013 at 3:49 PM UTC
*****
there was a slice of chocolate cake in the fridge and my sister asked me if i wanted it. i didn't respond, stared off into space and continued to smoke my cigarette in the kitchen because mom was asleep already and it was 1 am on a saturday in july and it was hot and we were both braless and hoping the single fan on the counter would circulate the air enough to make us comfortable in the cottage that we called home that didn't have air conditioning in the middle of the woods. the three of us hadn't moved for three more hours, instead spent all of that time talking about nothing and everything the way sisters do because sisters eventually end up saying all the words that have to be said but each time it sounds new even though it never is. we're all different but the thing about sisters is that other people always see you as the same. we all eventually grew into having brown hair even though i had been born a redhead and she had been born blond and she had been born the same shade of brunette that still graced her scalp but was thinner than the rest of ours and fit in an elastic pony tail comfortably unlike mine, which broke those things immediately and she, who cut hers all off in hopes to cleanse herself and keep herself from being weighed down.
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Jul 23, 2014
Jul 23, 2014 at 4:16 PM UTC
Sisterhood
STATE SHUT DOWN BY IDIOCY "This is correspondent, uh, burp... wait, winds r, yeah, okay go back on live camera..." pretend the wind is blowing you back "This is the most major storm in recorded history of this network!" "My God, I could die in this sh..stuff." "Five star hotel what the **** "Okay, okay, live we are, look here, pan closer, these leafs on this Raleigh plant here, see how violently they are moving?" LEAVES ARE FALLING! "That is the fear one feels knowing that a category two, at any moment, could become a category five." "This Dave Mowers live from Hawaii, checking in before I possibly die. Mom I love you, Dad, well, look how brave I am!" "Is that an Asian girl?" "What an a..cute *** that, cut to... to the violent leaves again you **** "I'll fire you cameraman!" *Four large oak trees have fallen. HAWAII HAS ENORMOUS SURF!.  Four large oak trees have fallen.**
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Aug 24, 2018
Aug 24, 2018 at 11:59 PM UTC
LIVE FROM RALEIGH
im there when you want to rip out your hair and scream , knees on the floor, your face is in my hands  .                           . there seems to be glass everywhere you look and you're crying , you can see it. i dont know who told you i was dangerous -- but i can only be so kind .
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Jun 17, 2018
Jun 17, 2018 at 8:22 PM UTC
i stare at mom's vanity while im crying on her bed
In Spanish, VIVIR means To Live, the proper conjugation of which to when you say something as improper as “I live” would simply be translated to “Yo Vivo”. I live, as a Colombian-American. I live, as “You don’t look Hispanic” I live, “Woah! You and your brother look nothing alike. You’re so… white.” I live, “My mom came home once and talked about a man who simply replied with a horribly pronounced “Me gusta” when my mom said she was Hispanic.” I live, “My dad condones abusive behavior because he thinks Latina aggression is **** I live, my mom asking me “Would you rather celebrate the Sweet Sixteen or have a quinceanera party?” I live, as the white boy sitting across the room in Spanish class asking “When will I need this in real life?” I live, as the “Yes I DO have a friend with a skin complexion similar to mine, and yes, he is Hispanic.” I live, most of my friends are beautiful people of color. I live, when will you open up the tab in Google and search some Hispanic History to fill your mind instead of “Latina **** I live, the messages on the Internet saying “You’re Hispanic? I bet you’re great in bed.” I live, there are NO gender neutral nouns in Spanish I live, yes I DO love coffee I live, no it did NOT stunt my growth I live, one kiss per cheek at family meet-ups I live, “Eskimo” nose rubs I live, "if you’re hispanic, why aren’t your ears pierced?" I live, being expected to remember Spanish just because it was my first language, but growing up with an American dad made me whiter than fresh bed-sheets sold in America, made in South America, Hecha en Peru. I live, my mom breaking into tears as she is so proud that I can sing in Spanish I live, my mom used to be so embarrassed, when I replied “un poco” to her friends asking “Tu Hablas Espanol?” I live, "if you’re Hispanic, is your mom an Alien?" I live, "But your dad looks so white!" I live, being subject to racism hidden in a joke, hidden in a remark about how pale I am, hidden behind a judgmental look, hidden behind a scoff, a laugh, a pity shrug, a fetishized assumption. I live the bulletproof clothing and horrible crimes I am warned about when I say I wanna go to Colombia I wanna go to my mom’s home. I live, as a Colombian-American. I live. Yo vivo.
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Dec 28, 2015
Dec 28, 2015 at 8:19 PM UTC
I live, Yo Vivo
In Spanish, VIVIR means To Live, the proper conjugation of which to when you say something as improper as “I live” would simply be translated to “Yo Vivo”. I live, as a Colombian-American. I live, as “You don’t look Hispanic” I live, “Woah! You and your brother look nothing alike. You’re so… white.” I live, “My mom came home once and talked about a man who simply replied with a horribly pronounced “Me gusta” when my mom said she was Hispanic.” I live, “My dad condones abusive behavior because he thinks Latina aggression is **** I live, my mom asking me “Would you rather celebrate the Sweet Sixteen or have a quinceanera party?” I live, as the white boy sitting across the room in Spanish class asking “When will I need this in real life?” I live, as the “Yes I DO have a friend with a skin complexion similar to mine, and yes, he is Hispanic.” I live, most of my friends are beautiful people of color. I live, when will you open up the tab in Google and search some Hispanic History to fill your mind instead of “Latina **** I live, the messages on the Internet saying “You’re Hispanic? I bet you’re great in bed.” I live, there are NO gender neutral nouns in Spanish I live, yes I DO love coffee I live, no it did NOT stunt my growth I live, one kiss per cheek at family meet-ups I live, “Eskimo” nose rubs I live, "if you’re hispanic, why aren’t your ears pierced?" I live, being expected to remember Spanish just because it was my first language, but growing up with an American dad made me whiter than fresh bed-sheets sold in America, made in South America, Hecha en Peru. I live, my mom breaking into tears as she is so proud that I can sing in Spanish I live, my mom used to be so embarrassed, when I replied “un poco” to her friends asking “Tu Hablas Espanol?” I live, "if you’re Hispanic, is your mom an Alien?" I live, "But your dad looks so white!" I live, being subject to racism hidden in a joke, hidden in a remark about how pale I am, hidden behind a judgmental look, hidden behind a scoff, a laugh, a pity shrug, a fetishized assumption. I live the bulletproof clothing and horrible crimes I am warned about when I say I wanna go to Colombia I wanna go to my mom’s home. I live, as a Colombian-American. I live. Yo vivo.
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I could’ve woken you up in the morning and could’ve been the sun that rises even when we both live in a place where it never does. I could’ve taken you to museums, at least 2 of where I’ve been to. The first one, we’ll have to take the bus because I’d tell you that I’m too lazy to drive but for the second one, I will tell you that I’ll drive you there. My car would look at me as though it knows that there is another soul seating in the passenger seat – it was no longer some books, a box of pizza, or my dog. I could’ve taken photos of you in that place, post them everywhere but subtly so that they can see that there are at least 2 forms of art in that photo — the one you’re looking at and the one I’m looking at. I could’ve talked to you at night under the stars, in the same rooftop where I told you that I liked the cathartic experience of doing just what we could’ve done; the same rooftop where you talked about your life, at least some pieces of it. I could’ve brought you to where I used to study. We could’ve walked the halls that stared at me for being too alone and too lonely only so I could tell them, “Hey, here he is, finally.” and they could’ve smiled at me because they know how long the longing lasted. We could’ve taken a stroll in the shade of the trees or could’ve had a picnic there while watching the joggers and the sunset. I could’ve introduced you to my friends – they’ve been meaning to meet you. They too know how long I’ve been stuck on an island by myself. They know who I was when I was eleven and when I was sixteen and I bet, if you gave them a chance, you could’ve heard the crazy things we did. And maybe they could’ve liked you. They could’ve told me how lucky I was and probably would’ve warned me that if I hurt you, they’d stick with you instead of me. I could’ve introduced you to my family — my mom liked you even then. I could’ve introduced you to my little brother who I would consider as the biggest and most important judge of character because I believe that children can sense goodness in people and he could’ve seen that in you. I could’ve written you letters, could’ve left random little tokens I would've used for all the words I cannot muster to say. I could’ve played the piano for you even if I just know, at most, 3 songs; even though I don’t really know how to read notes at all. I could’ve introduced you to the artists I like and I could’ve known more of yours. I could’ve listened to them and I would have had to remember you every time. I could’ve held your hand, could’ve eaten brunch with you, could’ve read you a poem. I could’ve loved you — could have – if I was the given the chance. But, I was and I could’ve used it but I didn’t.
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Aug 7, 2018
Aug 7, 2018 at 11:01 PM UTC
Because Today is the Last Day
I could’ve woken you up in the morning and could’ve been the sun that rises even when we both live in a place where it never does. I could’ve taken you to museums, at least 2 of where I’ve been to. The first one, we’ll have to take the bus because I’d tell you that I’m too lazy to drive but for the second one, I will tell you that I’ll drive you there. My car would look at me as though it knows that there is another soul seating in the passenger seat – it was no longer some books, a box of pizza, or my dog. I could’ve taken photos of you in that place, post them everywhere but subtly so that they can see that there are at least 2 forms of art in that photo — the one you’re looking at and the one I’m looking at. I could’ve talked to you at night under the stars, in the same rooftop where I told you that I liked the cathartic experience of doing just what we could’ve done; the same rooftop where you talked about your life, at least some pieces of it. I could’ve brought you to where I used to study. We could’ve walked the halls that stared at me for being too alone and too lonely only so I could tell them, “Hey, here he is, finally.” and they could’ve smiled at me because they know how long the longing lasted. We could’ve taken a stroll in the shade of the trees or could’ve had a picnic there while watching the joggers and the sunset. I could’ve introduced you to my friends – they’ve been meaning to meet you. They too know how long I’ve been stuck on an island by myself. They know who I was when I was eleven and when I was sixteen and I bet, if you gave them a chance, you could’ve heard the crazy things we did. And maybe they could’ve liked you. They could’ve told me how lucky I was and probably would’ve warned me that if I hurt you, they’d stick with you instead of me. I could’ve introduced you to my family — my mom liked you even then. I could’ve introduced you to my little brother who I would consider as the biggest and most important judge of character because I believe that children can sense goodness in people and he could’ve seen that in you. I could’ve written you letters, could’ve left random little tokens I would've used for all the words I cannot muster to say. I could’ve played the piano for you even if I just know, at most, 3 songs; even though I don’t really know how to read notes at all. I could’ve introduced you to the artists I like and I could’ve known more of yours. I could’ve listened to them and I would have had to remember you every time. I could’ve held your hand, could’ve eaten brunch with you, could’ve read you a poem. I could’ve loved you — could have – if I was the given the chance. But, I was and I could’ve used it but I didn’t.
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(Inspired by and dedicated to John Edward Smallshaw, and his "Spice") I am a summer-man, Because I'm blessed to sit by the sea. Let it and the other two Musketeers, boon companions to me, Sun and Wind, erase my discomposure as I reside in the Poet's Nookery. Let them have almost all that troubles, but not all. I am a summer-man. On the bay, on the beach, I see birth, I see death, osprey nests, carcasses of mussels and horseshoe ***** This, somehow reassuring, the cycles, this circularity, the tides and inevitability. I am a summer-man. Student of languages seasonal, Peaches, plums, cherries, poetry and loving Woman.^ This, the  summer alphabet-soup of my multiple tongues. I am a summer-man. Sancerre and Pinot Gris, super cold, Paul Simon, Nina Simone, with proper aging, getting  hotter, Salsa and Afrikaner hints, super louder, Even "Still Crazy After All These Years," that-who-wud-be-me, chills outer.^^ I am a summer-man. When ever this lad's writes appear, it proves once again, there is no truth that his   name was once Dr. Seuss In a prior life, even if each is signed by Ogdiddy Nash** I am a summer-man. **Disrespectful of the calendar, if I can, try to make summer season stretch-marks from May to October. I would add April, but the IRS is already ****** at me.^^^ Though the cherry blossoms of May now gone away, the lilies of June arrive, but but for a week or two, soon, like my mom, withered away. Acorns in August^^^^ have arrived too swiftly.** This summer, beloved, and love of summer, deep-rooted. Season of my Peter Pan Poetry Galore Festival. A love,  incapable, impossible, of ever growing old, ever growing cold, it cannot wither. It is summer heat reminders exposed, how it misses its man, that hide in the flames of the teasing, popping, reminding Winter fireplace's crackling popping***
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Aug 25, 2013
Aug 25, 2013 at 9:33 AM UTC
I am a Summer-Man
(Inspired by and dedicated to John Edward Smallshaw, and his "Spice") I am a summer-man, Because I'm blessed to sit by the sea. Let it and the other two Musketeers, boon companions to me, Sun and Wind, erase my discomposure as I reside in the Poet's Nookery. Let them have almost all that troubles, but not all. I am a summer-man. On the bay, on the beach, I see birth, I see death, osprey nests, carcasses of mussels and horseshoe ***** This, somehow reassuring, the cycles, this circularity, the tides and inevitability. I am a summer-man. Student of languages seasonal, Peaches, plums, cherries, poetry and loving Woman.^ This, the  summer alphabet-soup of my multiple tongues. I am a summer-man. Sancerre and Pinot Gris, super cold, Paul Simon, Nina Simone, with proper aging, getting  hotter, Salsa and Afrikaner hints, super louder, Even "Still Crazy After All These Years," that-who-wud-be-me, chills outer.^^ I am a summer-man. When ever this lad's writes appear, it proves once again, there is no truth that his   name was once Dr. Seuss In a prior life, even if each is signed by Ogdiddy Nash** I am a summer-man. **Disrespectful of the calendar, if I can, try to make summer season stretch-marks from May to October. I would add April, but the IRS is already ****** at me.^^^ Though the cherry blossoms of May now gone away, the lilies of June arrive, but but for a week or two, soon, like my mom, withered away. Acorns in August^^^^ have arrived too swiftly.** This summer, beloved, and love of summer, deep-rooted. Season of my Peter Pan Poetry Galore Festival. A love,  incapable, impossible, of ever growing old, ever growing cold, it cannot wither. It is summer heat reminders exposed, how it misses its man, that hide in the flames of the teasing, popping, reminding Winter fireplace's crackling popping***
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