we stand on different grounds.
with oceans too wide to cross.
out of sight but never disappear
so i beg—
i beg for you to never let me
slip off your mind
when i am standing parallel
to wherever you are,
smiling from ear to ear.
arms heated always ready to welcome,
drenched in blood fighting with distance.
and i hope—
i hope you do not forget me
—though they said, i am a universe away.
In case no one gets it,
i collect my excerpts
than i spell my prayer.
Spills my personal feelings
longer than i bow
on my knees.
i memorize every shame
and quote it
in a piece of paper,
the same stroke
they did to break
every of their tone
when i got yelled at,
In case no one gets it,
i use my fingertips to fight.
Being sure of my words,
but never myself.
They can take off my guts,
break down my sanity
into pieces of insecurity.
Yet i’m here to remain bold
until the last spill of ink,
and my pen
can no longer stand.
the battle is in my head
I grew to love the moon,
the stars & what galaxy has in store.
I studied their gleam
& how they burn themselves
to lit up amongst darkness.
still, they’re not the reason
why my cheeks are lifted today.
I grew to love the universe
& how it made up a fate
for you to always be the reason
why I pull through even the hardest day.
—I grew to make a meaning out of your existence
you’re worth someone’s scratch
in their book,
every dots, space and the smudge—
as you busy questioning your value
someone’s smearing their ink to make each of your every breath a poetry.
for every word that born—
you blow spirit to them,
brought them to life.
—in the end, there’ll always be someone who loves you. they’re just not as loud.
what if love don’t spark anymore
after a while of being together,
what if it dies years
after the knots being tied.
what if it was gone long before we realize.
what if love wasn’t the one we seek.
what if it wasn’t something we need.
what if a marriage requires something else all the time—
for love that doesn't last forever,
but fate does.
happy 25th anniversary mom & dad,
hoping one day love could find its way back to our home & make it warm again.
—last year has brought me to you
in midst of my slump,
when i needed a rescue.
—last year i made the deal
during the heal,
i should find the will,
to survive the entire new year,
even if it means i can’t have you near.
gotta catch my other muse soon.
there will always be starlights in you that others couldn’t capture,
no matter how much i scream to their face to see how bright they gleam.
as i started to realize that they just don’t mean to spark for them—
that was when i found why my heart was the only one that burn.
—thank you for choosing me, you’ve been such a pleasure to me as you will always be.