i. the curly, green-haired
leo with the cry-baby tattoo
on her left calf; fish net stockings and
loud guitar playing and
menthol cigarettes. driving through
the park at 9 pm, ***** shots,
the white house with the a-frame roof,
hugs that made your heart feel as warm
as she did

crying as i left my room again to be
intertwined with a girl who did not love me, but i wanted to;
months pass, lonely car rides with
one-sided conversations and
seven years gone,
quiet disconnection
that made you feel as cold
as i did

ii. brown eyes, brown skin,
round glasses and chicago streetlights.
holding each other close on the subway
lakehouse parties in the beginning of spring and
pisces season and tarot readings and
soft kisses on the train.
holding hands at the aquarium,
sweet poetry and calm and
a sense of oneness that made you feel
important

hurt for the third time
a panic, a loss
i held their heart in my hands and
let it fall
harsh
unimportant
i still carry the guilt on my fingertips

iii. short hair. freckled cheeks, i
fell in love with the way the skin
crinkled around her eyes when she smiled.
an apartment, a home built
around our lips touching
wrapped in blankets on the couch,
dense smoke and her hand on my leg while she
drove. chinese food and
waking up against her chest and
laughing so hard
my ribs hurt

crashing. her anger withering away my
heartstrings; pain and
crying alone in the bathtub
moving away
drunk tears on the interstate
punching my thighs
in place of the way her
words made
me hurt

I am walking on a land
so full of wonders,
I get to eat its fruits and water so holy,
I too become holy
Lucky am I to have eyes,
to witness its dreamy trees and plants,
to feel the sun kissing my soul with it's rays of light

Stepping on this green land beneath my feet, I am healed
The breeze of air gently touching my hair
The smell of the beautiful natural surrounding, I can't get enough of
My ears are blessed everyday with the sound of birds

Truly magical is the beauty of nature,
why can't you see?
I am swimming in paradise
and I am not the only one,
miraculous is the Mother Earth,
because it lets all creatures to swim
in this eternal bliss ♡

Love is; oxytocin with a hint of serotonin
Pheromones and testosterone
Dilated pupils and elevated body temperature  
Why can’t love just be love?
Moist palms and stomach aches
Embracing one and other comfortably
To passionately lay in bed and do absolutely nothing
Its having a gibberish conversations at 4 in the morning
Tasting her lips with overwhelming gluttony
Love is in the air, and on the sheets
Love is love
And I like it, just the way it is

This place;
It's full of the weird and the wonderful
This place;
It's creatures are more amazing than I've ever seen
This place;
It's got the style that got its unique tag
This place;
It's full of the weird, the wonderful and *us.

If I sung you to sleep,
what would you dream?
of mystery and madness?
of love and revenge?
of spiralling staircases, culminating
swiftly in a pool
of swirling fear?

Starfish –
sleep slowly,
sleep soundly.
Stretch bubbly limbs that
are kissed by the shore,
hugged by the sea.

This cove
of creeping creatures,
they slip and slime
like a plastic bag
of goldfish.

What will you dream?
of memories:
when you were swept
away from the sea
to dry on the sand
like a limpet?

Bubbling, giggling,
blobbing starfish:
sleeping, sliding,
slipping out of place,
slipping out
of starfish dreams.