1 I attended with my new suit
1 I barely made it to and back
1 I watched from a screen
1 I missed the train
1 I've been preparing for

2018-2023, 5 years.

I'm 25 years old
My dads getting old too
My mom I had to convince to come
Eyes of familiar faces to watch me stand or stumble
I just want you all to know, no matter what, I love you

A son, step-son, brother, half-brother, nephew, grandson, grand nephew, boyfriend, partner in this same suit
You made me who I am

Farmor, especially you.

summer’s golden touch
bright fine flowers growing wild
hot air’s cloudless sky.



Shell ✨🐚

caught up in uncountable personal agendas
it takes belief in the supernatural to break free
and live freely according to ones heart.

its like one side of me feels so frozen from trauma
it hurts to breathe
to shed myself
from pain
the depth of confusion
and stillness
that leaks inside of me
and outside
of the walls inside of me
been suffering for a while
but it feels hard
but softer at the same time.

~
drawn to a twinkling
crown of muted lights

a moment in the waterfront
of your eyes

in between circadian rhythm
and a place called irresistible

there we listen to sun-filled hymns
and children's laughter

not caring what comes after...
~

Not knowing, where the universe begins
Or how far, the darkness extends
Can one know, where it actually ends

this feeling is not
symbiotic: you reduce
my core to nothing

He's a rescuer
And he was
Rescuing the
People that
Was drowning
Also he gave
Then CPR
And nock on wood
They are fine now