I’ve Had to Say

Goodbye.
A few times lately. Covid and the ravages of time.
Age and days
that have worn and weathered
our weary population.
Lots of goodbyes
Lately.
So many
goodbyes.

And you said it
With no emotion
And you've said it before
To many
I was no different
But still
I felt honored
To be loved by you

I have so much love to give

Like the sun gives to us

A light so bright, we can't even see the other side.

But pieces of my heart
Have burned
And flown away
From ash to dust.

There's a light
that still shines through
In my hopes of belief
That there could be a me and you

I empty myself out
And let the universe fill me
With her maternal love

Each breath of oxygen
Mother Earth fills our lungs.

So we must thank her
And never forget
Her love is what keeps us
What bounds us
What keeps our hearts beating
As one.

Dear Nicotine

Why do I feel like I need you

Like the air that I breathe.

You feel as good as oxygen

Yet

You are slowly killing me

Sinking to the ground,
With the surface turning wet,
I quickly found myself weeping,
Just moments before,
You questioned our compatibility,
You questioned how fragile our love is,
You suggested me finding someone better,
You suggested me to move on,
But it became clear,
You were questioning your strength,
You were questioning your heart,
You were questioning yourself for me,
I wiped off the tears,
Gathering all the strength,
Boosting up my trust for you,
I stood up,
Running towards you like crazy,
My eyes seeking your presence,
It is not over,
Not yet.