I’d split my vein
Just to stop this pain
But I don’t want to hurt you

My sorrow is uncontained
Trip in front of the fast train

I never wipe my face when I cry

I let each salt water stream warm my cheek

Burn every tied connection between you and me

I let my tears pour over the bruised heartstrings

As if they were saline solution to a cut



I let my tears cleanse me of you

I let them blurry your image and memories we shared

Until I can’t recognize your false promises

I let my tears heat me like a furnace  

When tonight’s loneliness is too cold to bare

With these tears I can stop empty dreaming

And give you back all of your unkept “forever’s”

So tomorrow’s happiness is rewarding

Like a fresh bloom after aprils showers


I will never wipe away my tears..

And I will heal with no bandage

We never made sense
I should've listened to myself
It's crazy how you left me, for me
And not for someone else

I'd be lying if I said
This isn't hurting me
I'm a sucker for telling you
This is hurting me

I can't tell the difference anymore
Admitting a problem
Is that my solution
Or is this my problem

Numbing the pain
Doesn't make it ok
I'm gonna get you back
And still won't be ok

Trying to keep my wrist closed
So I don't **** me
And you're unphased by my pain
And that's what kills me

Baby won't stay
Body not a home
Doc looks for heartbeat
But baby's long gone

Cry myself to sleep
You aren't here anymore
Loneliness sinks
And strikes me right to the core

Our love was forbidden
And the world kept us apart
But I’ll forever keep your secrets
On every page of my heart

Hate that you came home too late
And yes I waited too long
So now I stare at  old text
And replay your voice like a song

My razor is so powerful

Always fixing me when I'm broke

From cutting  lines in my arm

To cutting lines of coke



My razor is my weapon

Only used to defeat myself

And I can't tell if my tool is good or bad

Since I'm not hurting/"fixing" anyone else

So intrigued by my lips
How could you notice the slits in my wrist
You fell in love with my mask
And couldn't taste the drugs in my kiss

Mislead by my smile
You thought those were tears of joy
Are you choosing to be blind on purpose
Or did you fall for my ‘happy’ decoy.

You hold conversations with a body
Because my soul already left me
Trying to show me what love is
But I'm completely empty.

You took something I can't ever get back..

                                       But I'll try..

Im not addicted
Im obsessed
And my drug of choice
Is one of the best

I owe you everything
And thats exactly what you took
The moment I met you
You enticed me with your look

I was dying to try you
Now im simply dying
Cause they took you away
And my insides are crying

You kept me safe
And always confidant
Now my friends are afraid
That I've lost my common sense

But if you got high
You'd put your morals aside
And if this brings me closer to death
I think im ready to die.