I keep having dreams of you,
and they're absolute nonsense,
well,
you're absolute nonsense,
please let me be,
leave my dreams be
nonsense, but without you in them.

i cannot imagine my life without you.
i do not want to actually.
even the mention of you not being by my side,
brings tears to my eyes.
i love you so much.
it hurts.
i ask myself repeatedly,
how did i function before you were in my life.
and the answer is,
i didnt.
you bring a smile to my face when there are tears in my eyes.
you are the little voice in the back of my mind reminding me that i am beautiful.
that i am worth it.
you are the reason that i wake up in the mornings
and the reason that i do not sleep at night
you are the reason that i have not killed myself yet
you are the reason that i breathe
the reason that my heart beats
and the reason that i laugh.
i do not know
how in such a short period of time,
you have has this such effect on me
but from your smile to your cynical remarks
to your memes to the little freckles on your back,
i am more sure
than i have ever been
that i am in love with you.

body aches
skin feels cool
it's lost all its warmth
from not being with you

I wonder,
shall I beg,
get down on tired knees,
offer myself,
in some endless hopeful pleas,
an offer all my earthly possessions too?

Because I will,
you know it's true
I am yours,
and all my things are ours,

How do I know you are the "one"?

Because my love-
you are the shining of the sun,
you know very well,
my spirits source of fun,
and I,

I know beyond the shadow,
of a single lonely doubt,
so from the highest spot-
of the highest high up mount,
an for you I will yell it,
in my voices loudest shout,

I am NOTHING without you ❤

Ma Cherie © 2017