You see me beautifully clothed,
But deep within am thoroughly shredded;
You see me peaceful and calm,
But there are deep cuts beneath my palms;
You see me stable, the kind of woman you want to keep,
My mind is crowded with chaos, I barely sleep;
You have plans to walk me down the aisle,
Am really not sure how much longer I can travel this mile.
Be careful what you think you know,
That was me several years ago.

I realized...
I accept no love
Because I deserve **none.

I can't say I've never thought of it
you
like that
because then I'd be lying
and I'd be the undeserving one

Was this not what you wanted?

A sliver of hope--
Instead you ended by shivering out on that unsteady-tipping *****.

And for all those somethings, I hadn't  know,
well, I had to let them go.
Now I am, all alone.
But hey, it's not like you would've know--
Too lost to see through your own moats murky waters.

Was it One; Two; or Three;
Captured sirens swimming with you,
within your clouded judgement?

Or is it, One; Two; or Three;
Vile hags trampling with you,
within your undeserving life.

Are you feeling empty yet?
Or are you full of your lies?

It appeared to be a feast--
While in harsh reality, you were plucking at nothing...
Nothing except brittle bones.

Its all a shame,
for it was a dream spun upon spindle--
Lost in a cowards looping *****.

Was this not what you wanted?
                Hmm-
          What a shame...
          What a shame...