She did not know what was going on
She was confused about the path she would take
Did she have to make the decision alone?
She has heard that she didn't but where was that other decision-maker
She gave everything she had and expected nothing and gained nothing

She did not know what was going on
Was she really falling in love or just desperate
Had she really been so blind was she finally seeing clearly
Had she really just lowed herself for an illusion

She did not know what was going on
How could she not realize
the is so young, so ignorant to love
She had so much ahead of her
and many more problems

She did not know what was going on
Yet that was no excuse to put on the platter
Yet she had much better things to do
A guy was no match for the worries in her mind
She had a mother brothers fathers* and yet her mind,
was only on him

She did not know what was going on
yet she did
she knew why she cared so much
she knew why she was so attached to something so pathetic
It was not love, or desperation, or even lust
it was fear

She did not know what was going on
She was afraid that she would never really understand love
She was afraid that she would never be loved
she was afraid that she would end up alone
So she fell for the trick of love
She fell for a fantasy

She pretended she had to make a decision all by herself
when she always knew that God was the answer...

Certainly there are moments in life when life seems to be absolutely strange.

The moment it was understood that things are over was the same moment in time when the importance of present moment in time was understood, realized and also accepted.

Shortcoming, limitation of scope with regards to the future and rest of the other things were followed by this understanding in the present moment of time.

Strange seems life,
strange, absolutely strange at times.
Still it’s life and life continues

Better to wait for the right moment in time
Better to be cautious, careful and then carefully take the next step and follow the same.

Unexpected things do happen and keep following in life
Still with all the ups and downs in life,
always it's better to be on the safe side.

Agreed that an uncertain future needs to be ascertained,
but then the present cannot be put at stake for the sake of worries about the future.

Strange seems life,
strange, absolutely strange at times.
Still it’s life and life continues.

No matter what new thing comes across mind
No matter how odd, difficult and troublesome is the obstacle in the present moment of time
Still it’s always possible to remove the odd that comes along the way
The only thing that needs to be there in mind is determination, which
makes everything happen at the right moment.

Always remember
You have got one life, in this one life you have got chances and opportunities.
No one really knows how much or how many.

So be wise,
play safe,
but do take a calculated risk.

Time has played a major role in deciding and ascertaining what’s possible and what’s beyond the present moment in time.

So ascertain the future only when the need of the hour says so,
otherwise continue with what’s going on in mind at the present moment in time.

It’s life
Strange seems life,
strange, absolutely strange at times.
Still it’s life and life continues.

Under the light of a thousand stars , i stand alone...
And i console myself , not to cry anymore.
Who set out to gain but has won a loss...
A loving loss, a startling loss...
Who has survived taunts and grins.
Been hated, judged , but still held tightly close to the heart to feel it's trampled warmth..
And then one day , thrown out in a manner befitting an imposter..
Just when i had grown to cherish the impish grins,
Basked in the sunlight of abnormality,
Borne by a person who stands somewhere under these twinkling stars ,
Someone i bungled and tossed away......

Understand me.
Understand me.
Understand me.
Understand.
I’m standing in front of you.
Understand me.

I stood before you,
And you never understood.

Why is it when you are lonely
Women are not attracted to you

Why is it when your seeing a girl
Other women want to see you

I ask this question to girls I was seeing, not dating
They all said the same thing, that's not true

As I ponder on these thoughts
And discussed with my close friends
I had come up with a plan

The plan we discussed, of course my friends each had a girlfriend
and they could not participate, a perfect plan it was.

How many girls could I string along with all of them knowing
about each other with no lying about my intension for a month
The winner pays for a party at the end of the month

Ray said 2, he was ***** whipped and controlled
David said 4, he said i'll give you the benefit of doubt
Me 7, one a day for the week, I had confidence
One rule they all had to be hot

I did win made it for a month and they all knew about each other
The funny part it made them try even harder to get me

We did happen was, i did have the party, a huge party
Invited all seven,
first a cat fight then they turned their claws on me

One cat stayed

The evening is still,
no breeze;
the tress tell me nothing but "Wait."

How long will it be
until I can say
exactly what I want,
and be heard
AND BE HEARD
without a word?

But a walk my way
and time to play
will tell me time has won
finally;

For faith and trust
took over
and anything lost
is nothing anymore.

And if no Us,
it is I
I have found.
And that's enough for both,
I know.

I know.