she will be naive for you
so when your soul has dragged itself through the mud she'll
hug you close and says it's been a long time since she has been that ***** and happy

Today
Dear reader
You are the most precious
Person in my life.
For this moment
I offer you my heart
Freely.
I hope for your dreams
and mourn your losses
I stand before you
With my sacred oath,
That for this fleeting moment
Unspoiled for eternity
My heart is in your palms
And you beat within my chest.
As the world mires  
In Greed and Ego,
Manipulation and Hate
Today
Dear Friend
For a moment,
We changed this World.

I will hold you closely, though you may not know I’m there.
My heart will shed light and warmth, though the lack of words may leave you bare.
I’m not always sure of the world around me,
And day after day I live with fear,
But my love for you is unceasing, Alive, and I more than anything
I care.

If I love too deeply, forgive me,
All that I know is to pick apart and dissect the world around me
Until my understanding of the universe is more clear,
And once the beauty is revealed I can only stand in awe at the miracles of each day.
You are the most miraculous to me.  
And so as I open your mind and peer inside, please tell me if I stray too close
To the shadows you hide in,
The lies you cling to. I will only love you more for these,
But I know they cause you fear.
And if I must leave, just tell me to go.
I will love you no matter the distance, around the world, or a universe away.
I will send you all the light I can and be at peace.
With no expectations.
I am yours, unconditionally.

Regardless of position
and possession
treat people
with kindness
and compassion
because
they feel
the same.

Are we Brought to this World to be loved Equally Or to be Loved Unequally
Dear father,
Aren't we all one
Didn't we all come out from One Womb
From one soul
From one flesh
From one Phenomenal Women
Who went  through all the pain
All the Aches
All the broken bones
All the suffering
Dear father,
Aren't we all one
Didn't we all come out from one womb
From one Flesh
Aren't we all one.

You are the darkness that the world fears
You are the entity that gives people tears
You are the sadness, you are the uncertain
You are the doubt, you are the pain
You are the negativity of everyone
You were shunned, you were buried
You were banished to the darkest depth
But my mind, my soul, and my heart knows
That you are more than the monster in the burrows
When they chose to abandon you, I was there
When they chose to judge you, I was there
But a person like me couldn't do anything
Except remember all the things that they were doing
I lost you...
I lost my everything.
But I want every single one of them to recall you every time they look up to the sky
Forgive me if I couldn't let you go completely
But I had to take something from you
A part of you that will always stay in this world from now on...
Your beautiful darkness.

I desire for someone to love me with enduring patience, to understand me and root for me through the good times and bad times. Someone to love me for who i am despite my flaws and my imperfections.

I also want to love someone whole heartedly and earnestly. To sit down on the floor in the living room at 2am and pour out our raw emotions; talking about about our favourite tv shows and dreams that we have yet to complete. Or our darkest fears and secrets. You could hurl all your rants and troubles at me and i’d still listen to them and reassure you’ll never feel alone for as long as I’m alive. I want to figure out your little insecurities and your fears. Let me learn them and fend you from them. We’ll watch all our favourite movies and tv shows while we have little cuddles and eat on the bed because no one is there to yell at us to not leave crumbs. Let me trace the beautiful networks of constellations down your skin and spine to admire the universe in you; the galaxy I wish to explore and the infinite amount of love I wish to give. Despite the flaws you think you may have, I’ll still love you regardless of what they are. I’ll sing you your favourite songs, plant you kisses and I’ll fall in love harder with you everyday.

I need you to know that you I may have never been the best with showing my love or with words but I promise and reassure you that I’ll love you unconditionally.

I hear you whispering to me
            it's alright my child
     I know you want this to be over
                 I am right here
             I will always be right here
            don't give up you hear me?
   As long as you can still grasp a breath
                          you fight
      You breathe...so keep breathing.

          Your body...your soul
            may be fighting you
         It is older and has taken
     on many troubles and trauma
       but your spirit needs to stay
you have important work still to do here

        As they press on your throat
    Trying to check the last bit of air
      the Red tail Hawks Circle in the sky
                 we are here
               Do not be afraid

      You were born with white blood
        The ones who have dark blood
             are angry that it is
      still running through their veins
                are afraid of you
             Your light is so bright
           they fear getting burned

       Time may not be on your side
But you will know when the time is right
       you are the silvertip grizzly bear
   who smells from many miles away
who will rip flesh with your mighty    
            claws in seeming anger

                           His smell
seven times stronger than the Bloodhound
           your nose is a time traveler
      while they see someone's name
                            carved in
         a heart in the tree they will know
          this person loves someone else
            
       you know who made the carving
      what was on the soles of their feet
        what direction they walked in
   And to stay away if they are dangerous

        little Portia...jumping spider
        you can see in four dimensions
      Opening Our Eyes to history
as ancient Greek statues were painted
                        not white
         your evolutionary camouflage
     is useless against the death machine
          the black Emperor Scorpion
which to you glows in a bright blue green
      
you are also like the monarch butterfly
      
          waking from sleep cocooned
            living only a few months
      migration that spans Generations
born knowing exactly how to get to their  
           greatest grandfathers home
              who left six months ago
                not told by your Mother

You are the beautiful white bleeding heart
     that I planted outside your door
    you didn't know where it came from
  It will provide you ease from your pain    
           and calm  your nerves
      you must extract this from the root

         It all feels very important
             To speak the truth
             to get it all down
     It feels like it might be too late
                but it is not
   just remember to keep breathing
       As long as you have a breath
    as long as you can grasp a breath
                 you breathe
                 keep fighting
                     I am here
                 I am with you
           I will always be here.

Cherie Nolan© 2016