i've been awake since 6am i'm running on two and a half hours of sleep i've been on the road since 7am and i'm writing this at 1pm i'm thinking about greggs sausage rolls thinking about where i'm going in life thinking about when this road will end thinking about slowthai's yugioh cards thinking about how much i love frank ocean thinking about how i interpolate milo lyrics to fit my life though i probably couldn't tell you what his words mean thinking about how i drift from one person to the next desperately searching for a new friend to cling to thinking about why i didn't shave my face for two weeks i was scared that with a blade in reach i'd be tempted to slice my throat if i drowned, would my body float? thinking about how i should cut my hair thinking about how i can act cuter thinking about that coil girlfriend but maybe i'll go for a boy instead i burned my mouth on a greggs sausage roll again so it looks like it's all going to plan sometimes i view greggs as a temple and the sausage roll is my zen master i find solace in cheap british bakeries just like how i find peace in a black man's philosophies today i'll get my groceries from the nostrum grocers and write poems at the apex of my sleepiness this road is only going one way and i can't go back to pick up the pieces so i collect what i can to stitch together a new tapestry made out of the few remaining pieces of the old me maybe one day driver will say i have perfect hair thinking about how excited i am to read tallen's messages on discord it's nice hearing about his l5r discourse thinking about how i promised to deliver instrumentals for quetzal but i never did get started on them thinking about my friend gabe's new album and how i wish i had richard dawson's falsetto and how i wish someone would hug me but if i admitted that, that'd feel pretty needy of me i don't know when this road will end maybe i'm stuck on here forever immortalised in the asphalt like a dead bird approach me like you would your dad hanging in trafalgar square i used to smile in every selfie now it's a chore to smirk at all but it ain't all bad i might make curry on saturday or maybe i'll make chicken soup and it'll be better than hers because i'll make sure to remove the bones
The Frog and The Bee and the Mouse with the House lived together in peace and harmony on the River Louse.
One day the Mouse with the house did declare it was time that he moved out of there.
The Frog and The Bee did not agree and set about convincing the Mouse with the House that he needed to stay on the River Louse.
They sent out invitations to all around to attend tea at half past three.
The tea party was in honour of the Mouse with the house to be held on the banks of the River Louse and hosted by his dear friends The Frog and The Bee.
One by one each creature replied and the guest list rose quickly to Twenty Five.
The Frog and The Bee decided the tea would be civil indeed and The Frog made some scones and The Bee made some honey.
At half past one The Frog and The Bee set up some tables to lay out the tea.
At half past two the tables were laid with the scones from The Frog and The honey The Bee had made.
The scene did look grand, pots of tea and saucers of milk all laid on a tablecloth made of silk.
At half past three the guests started to arrive. The first of the guests to arrive were The Elf with one ear and The Fly with one eye. The Mouse was delighted to see his friends, the ones who helped get Horse around the river bend.
Next came the Horse and his Master of course to thank the Mouse with the House on the River Louse for his friendship and help on the day that the Horse could not get around the river bend and the Mouse with the House, The Elf with one ear, The Fly with one eye, The Frog and The Bee all pulled together and worked merrily to assist the Horse round the river course.
One by one others did attend, there was a duck who lost his cluck but the Mouse with the House helped him every day until he could at last say "cluck cluck"
Next came a ****** who had forgotten how to weave but the Mouse with the House lay out the sticks until the Beavers memory began to tick and the ****** remembered how to weave.
Then came a beautiful Butterfly with bright red wings. She told the Frog and The Bee that one day the Mouse had found her crying and sighing her wings had faded and she did not look grand a thing of beauty. The Mouse ran back to his House and in his shed found a can that had Paint in Red on the side. He took a brush and painted her wings and now the Butterfly all shiny and bright flapped her wings with all her might.
Last but not least the Mayor arrived with his glorious wife by his side.
Mayor and Mayoress Swan did agree that the Mouse with the House should not leave his friends of The River Louse and they would indeed miss him dearly if he relocated his house.
The Mouse smiled embarrassingly and said "I am sorry he did declare, there's been a mix up, when I said" I must get out of there" it was only to the shops I intended to go but The Frog and The Bee moved too fast or I moved to slow"
The Frog and The Bee and all the guests were all delighted with the news and brought in some music supplied by "Five in a Pen" which of course were all mother Hens and they danced all night until the Moon went in and the Sun came out.
Then the Frog and The Bee said to their friend the Mouse "let's do this again next year, and Mouse can bake cake for the tea, our friends can attend and we'll dance all night to Five in a Pen and we'll eat scones and honey and cake too and we'll do this in honour of all our friends and those who live and work on the River bend"
I wrote this at 2am this morning when I couldn't sleep. If you've read my other poems The Mouse with a House on the River Louise and The Frog and The Bee, these characters will be familiar to you and the poem will make sense. I hope you enjoy.
I spent far too long striving to be ordinary. Previously, only when nothing mattered did I feel truly free. What does it mean to say this? I try to remember not to care too much but I must be sure to love more than enough. *Atardecer, amanecer.