#notagain poems on Hello Poetry

haysia Dec 2017

My heart beating frantically
As I lay down in my bed
Never thought that I would still feel this way again
And I wanted to feel those toxics
flowing freely and burning me insides
And to hamper the pain
I am feeling right now
Rather than to feel those growing gap
between us over and over again.

#no #notagain

Lilly frost May 2017

Back Again

What are you doing here
Why are you in my head
You left long ago
Our connection should be dead
I was over it
All gone
I was better
Letter by letter
Recollecting my thoughts
Rebuilding my mind
What are you doing here
I eradicated your presence
Scrubbed my mind
Cleansed of you
A clearer view
Why are you back again
Why are you in my head

#gone #scared #piecebypiece #mental #head #notagain

Squid the Russell May 2016

Thoughts Drifting

I rarely talk to you
I try not to think about you
But when we’re in the same room
My eyes unwillingly
Drift to you
Then my thoughts
And once again I mentally hit myself
Saying
That can not happen again

#eyes #thoughts #crush #drift #notagain #unwillingly

Jamie Jan 2016

Not Again

Excited like a kid at Xmas
Hands sweaty in anticipation
Then you appeared
From nervous reck to comfort
With only a lingering hug

We spoke like we speak everyday
Not like the 2 years it has actually been
I gather the courage and hold your hand
Then I kiss you like I used to
Suddenly it all ends abruptly, with me waking up

She came back in a dream

#dream #nightmare #notagain #foreveryours

Mercury Chap Apr 2015

Like I did yesterday

Purple thoughts of sprinting mind
Beautiful, loving, a shade of pink
Wandering, stressing out too much
The thoughts blotting my mind like a permanent ink
I want to say it to him
But I don't know how to think
Of something to spread smile across that face from grim
I don't know how to speak out my heart
I don't know if I do then would we be apart
Or closer than I never thought?

I want to burst out those words
In a simple manner
But simple seems more difficult
Difficult which makes me less saner.

So soon I would
Flush out those feelings
Into a void
A
   N
D
     I
WOULD
     FEEL
   LONELY
TO
     BE
ALIVE,
Bury the thoughts and revive my sadness
Like I did it yesterday.

Can the purple thoughts be easily flushed out?

#crush #him #pink #sigh #notagain

Unpuresoul Dec 2014

The cure

I may not post poetry all
The time, but when I do
it's from the heart and I stop my fall
I hope I make you feel the same too

    I will not live forever
this fact I have accepted
but my words do not endever
my fears aren't of death but loss protected

    My faith is not questioned
My trust is un-shooken
pain I have sustained is not treated
the wounds gape and are unforgiven

   In pain I seek salvation
But I dare not ask for I fear
not of death but to find a solution
the solution to depression and Find
                         *THE CURE

#fear #depression #pain #strength #selfharm #notagain #cures

Ember Evanescent Nov 2014

Something I need to express.

I feel like a *****.
I say a lot of really unforgivably cruel things
To myself
All day
Everyday
It's been years since I have spent a day
Not muttering insults at myself
But they are all true.
I can't decide if truth or kindness should win when it comes to hurting myself emotionally.

I am such a *****. To myself.
I'm sorry, I'm in one of those moods where if I look in the mirror I want to smash it. If I stare at my hands, I want to tear off all my fingers. If I think about the type of person I am I want to leap in front of a train at the train station. I'm in one of those moods where if you asked me to define the words ugly and worthless, I would give you the same definition twice: Me.
Apologies for the self-deprecation. I’m not trying to be attention seeking, I just needed to express this. Writing has become my healthier alternative to self-harm.

#selfloathing #notagain #stuckinamood

Forgotten Dreams Aug 2014

I won't let you win

1
Falling
2
Help me
3
I can't control this
4
No one can hear me
5
I should let go
6
Falling
7
Not worth it
8
Drowning
9
Breathing
10
*Still Living

#forever #notagain #stillhere #neverandaday #iwontletyouwin

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