I thought I knew what being alone meant

Until everyone who once loved me

Just seemed to stop -

No longer offering care.

Dark Days
That’s what I call them
The days I feel useless
Powerless
And weak
As I get older
They occur more often
My head will pound
My stomach churns
But I keep going
My friends expect it
I can’t come and say
“I’m too tired”
I can’t stay home and sleep
Even though I feel as I couldn’t move
Dark Days
They are the worst and never end
Now it’s almost everyday
I cannot fathom how bad it is
I hurt, all over
My mouth feels dry
Migraines getting worse
My heart hurts
Why can no one hear the awful voices I hear
They tell me horrible things
Tell me how many people hate me
Tell me how worthless I am
I want to give up
I want to just stop trying
Let me just let go
Here in my mind
I am so very alone
On these lonely
Dark Days

Have you ever felt
like no one understand.
Have you ever got
how bad I want to be dead.

Do you know how lonely I felt
with that much people around.
Even I don't know the answer yet
how I gonna live my life ahead.

I’m a lone sailor being ******
around stormy weather,
praying for any passing ship
to give me a hand.
But I’m not a lone sailor,
I’m an adventurer
all on my own
and not just anyone
can be my second mate.