I did not ask for you to paint your feelings of past hurting from other lovers on my body
But you did
I want you to know
That I would not never clench your heart
And squeeze out its contents
In an attempt to fertilise my own insecurities
I want you to know that
It is ok to show emotion and to be delicate
It is ok to show weakness because after weakness comes strength
I want you to know
That I know it takes great courage to pick yourself out of the rubble war has caused instead of burying your head in the dirt
I want you to know
that I am not like her
I am like me
I would not inflict the pain of a million heartaches on you to appease my own hurting

Isn't it just odd
That no one cares about me
Until I'm crying

the room was empty but it was filled with boxes of our things.
my hopes and dreams for us,
your secrets and lies.
you kept them taped up tight,
and every month that passed by you began to unbox them
one at a time.

and when i lost you,
it allowed me to become someone new.

i wasn't aware of the pain you felt.
but if i could have taken it from you,
i'd let it skin me alive.

its throbbing inside my soul
like a tooth ache.

- wanting to love you again

my body has been aching
it feels worse than the flu i had
when i was a 10 year old child
lifeless and limp
food doesn’t taste the same
my face is starting to look different
its settled into my veins now
and i’m not sure i’ll recover

- you're the virus in my body

you poured gasoline
inside of my lugs
you struck the match
and watched as the inferno begun

I  would have traded hearing you tell me
I don’t love you anymore
For every bone in my rib cage to shatter
It would have ached less

so now what you got nunthing
yes  who says people  care
no you dont
you think everything is ok
everything perfect
you got to be perfect
no you cant do that
you got to  be perfect
P-E-R-F-E-C-T!