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Emilia Aug 19
Some times its moments like these
that actually convince me that I should stay
listening to a new album
way passed when I should have shut my eyes

listening to you on call with her
and laughing so hard because of me and the other's shared looks
that I feel sore when I wake up

walking to a spot that I considered forgotten
that I considered my own
and sharing it with you

you see,
taking flight has always appealed to me
especially when the only one who knew my pain
just rubbed salt in the wound
cut off my arm
and took it as a souvenir

Now I can't bear taking flight
because that would mean leaving you behind
one of the only ones who understood me

Yes, you were one of the only ones who understood me
You, the luck up my sleeve
and if I ever decide to leave
you are the one whom gave me pause
I will feel the greatest sorrow when I leave you behind

It is moments like these,
laying on a rug listening to what I will be listening to
for months and mounths
and thinking about you

and not just that
for my mind is a monster
and when you saw
you accepted it

Sitting on a cold couch
talking of others doomed romance
was one of the best things you could give me
for I could finally be the true me

The shared looks that we give each other
when it makes people mad
Oh, those looks
those looks that I will never want to miss
never want to forget

And oh how I wish to hold your hand
oh how I wish to cradle you in my arms
but all I have is your eyes to cradle
and your words are all I can hold

you mean more to me than you could ever know
and those little stolen moments that we make ours

Yes, you were the one I could at last love
the one who finally accepted my mind
Yes, you are my love
and You, the luck up my sleeve
and if I ever decide to leave
you are the one whom gave me pause
I will feel the greatest sorrow when I leave you behind

Its moment like these
when the music fills my mind
when it flows through my head to my feet
and all I can feel is that place
when I want to stay the most

It is moments like these
when I listen to the analytical words of another
and sit by my friends side

Its moments like this
when I am tightly warped in an embrace
on the top of a mountain with a cross
feeling the true love of God for the first time

Its moments like these
when I miss you all so badly
that I can hardly breath
but I know I will see you again tomorrow

Its all of these moments
When I finally see my friends who have become family after a period of absence
When I can lay in a bed and rest when I truly feel weary
When I cry and I cry
because in the end, I know I will have to leave it all
My friends who are now my family
The tree that has now become familiar
The radio with its iconic voices
The lemonade with its iconic tastes
The music with its wonderful sounds
The park with its heart wrenching sunsets
The house with my friends as family rooms

Those things all give me pause
because in the end
leaving will happen
whether I want to go
or not

but I hope that you know
out of all of those things
out of all of those beautiful, tragic, wonderful, aw striking things
you are truly the ones who I will miss

I love you all,
I love you all more deeply than you could ever know
This is for my friends that became my family, my acquaintance that became my truest friend, my annoyance that became my greatest love. I love you all more deeply than you could know and you are the only things keeping me anchored here.
lisagrace Aug 18
Twenty four and a few more
The woman has grown -
Even flown,
In her new normal
Gatherings of friends
Music and dancing
A strange, drunken costume party
At last!
A soirée in the real -
A gentle joy she dared to steal
It’s been a while, I know, but here is the next in my Retrospective poem series. Twenty four.
lisagrace Aug 7
They met in her family's
Restaurant kitchen
She, an apprentice chef
She, an absolute gem
She, who would become
The squish

Kindness and honesty
Go such a long way,
It's a pity
It did not happen sooner
The first time
She called her a friend,
She had beamed -
Her eyes truly did
sparkle that day

The decision was made:
This is her person
No spell so emphatic,
No truth quite as static
Because friendship
Truly is magic

🥀
Not every people are your people —
but in that same breath, everybody needs you.
Going round the city, and round the clock,
where times are always hard, like the past
we keep wearing; all the ones we hang up.
As someone called me, and I answered
quickly, frequently, honestly; just to hang up.

Funny how that’s what we do with people too.

Fingers of strangers scrubbing their own
dishes, while dishing out cold remarks —
serving my character as tonight’s leftover dinner.
And still, I stay on their minds without an address,
resting in dreams without a mattress; in the scripts
they write, I’m some recurring actor or actress —
But I don’t have the stamina to be running through
someone else’s head for free; dressing for their occasion
while my self-worth turns into something old fashioned.

And the idea of pushing a lawnmower over grass
that’s not mine, just to keep the image they clipped
of me, cut and well-trimmed - cuts me short of worth.

I’m always cut short for time, by that very blade.
Could it be a blade of grass or time itself?
Either way, it leaves another scent in the air —
the smell of success I’m still chasing.

Not every people are your people —
there are some paths, you won’t walk.
And some eyes, you won’t meet.
And some connections? You just hang up.
lisagrace Jul 19
My friend, I love you

I'm not in love with you, just to be clear. 
It's not so much
in the way that you walk,
or the way that you talk.
Or even the way your long hair
is always just so.
Or your smile.
Or your warmth.

I remember the way that I used to be. 
Quiet. 
Unsure. 
Afraid. 
Naive. 

But you pulled me away,
made me see that I could be more -
would be more, beside you.

I remember your birthday
at your family's restaurant.
I knew I'd already
ruined the night for myself,
but you found me
where I stood alone in the street...
and the silence softened.
You asked me if I wanted to dance.
I said no, it was already too late,
the damage was done...
but I wanted to say yes.

****, I wanted to say yes.

You're the one who listens to me,
who doesn't assume
I'll always say no thankyou.
I'd had "friends" like that before,
They made me believe
that I wasn't enough, just as I am.
But you...you believe that I am.

Now? I’d say yes.
No hesitation.
With you, the nerves quiet down.
I don’t feel like I have to hide.
It just feels safe.
Like I can dance without thinking,
and not be afraid of being seen.

But I've worried, even now.
Am I doing enough?
Do I check in, when it matters?
Am I still enough as I am?
You are a ******* gem, and all I want
is for you to sparkle.

I see how you are with others.
Lighter 
Laughing 
The way it skims the air,
untouched by my knowing.
I look at you and I wonder,
could I be like that?
Do I even want to?
I know my energy is quiet and subtle,
yet you meet me there and reflect it...
but is what we have enough for us?

This could all just be in my head.
I know I'm a worrier.
But I think you know
how much you mean to me. 

I'll never say it. 
I can't. 
Not out loud, anyway. 
But I can manage a birthday card
and a felt frame of a tabby cat
who looks like Julia.
The words flow easier that way.
And so I write it here too.

I really, platonically love you.
My squish. 
My gem. 
I love you.
A platonic love letter to the friend who helped me grow into myself.
This is for the ones who stay soft, who see you clearly,
and love you as you already are.
I. Ignition (1st Gear)
We built this bond with bolts and wires,
not warmth. Call it a connection— but it
was code, calibrated smiles and pre-programmed
concern. You turned the key, and I came alive
Just long enough to move when you needed motion.
____________

II. Drive (2nd Gear)
We were just motorheads, revving louder than we felt.
Not riders—just parts in motion. Fueling the ride,
but never the journey. You drove me— not toward a
future, but to the edge, where metal meets rust, where
trust wears thin. Your “drive” was reserved for those
who mapped your ending in their eyes— those who
promised arrival, but never shared the breakdowns.
____________

III. End (3rd Gear)
But not everyone is there for the real ride.
Only a few stayed when the wheels locked
and the road curved off course. So if this message
reaches you— the ones who truly cared— know this:
you weren’t just passengers. You were the engine.
Lalit Kumar Mar 26
She never asked him to stay.

Loving Loki was like chasing smoke—always slipping through her fingers just when she thought she had him. He would be there one night, draped over her couch with his usual smirk, spinning a dagger between his fingers. And by morning, he’d be gone, leaving only the ghost of his laughter behind.

It was a game between them. He would disappear. She would pretend not to care.

"Dramatic exits are your specialty, huh?" she teased once.

"Would you prefer I linger?" he had shot back, tilting his head.

She didn’t answer.

But then came the night he didn’t disappear. Not entirely.

That night, when she woke, groggy and reaching for water, she found something on her nightstand. A dagger—his dagger. The handle worn, the blade still warm from where he’d been holding it.

Loki never left things behind.

Her fingers ghosted over the metal. A message, a promise, unspoken.

And just like that, the rules of their game changed.

It became a habit.

When he was gone, the dagger would stay. When he was there, it would vanish from the nightstand and return to his belt. She never mentioned it. Neither did he. But every time she woke and saw it resting there, something in her chest softened.

Until one day, it didn’t return.

Days passed. Then weeks.

She told herself she didn’t care. That he had always been this way. But still, her fingers reached for the spot where it should have been. Empty.

And that was the night she finally broke the rule.

Standing at her window, looking at the stars, she whispered, “Just one more trick, please.”

As if the universe had been waiting for those words, a flicker of green shimmered in the air behind her.

"Missed me, darling?"

She turned, but this time, she didn’t tease. Didn’t joke. Instead, she closed the space between them, pressed a hand to his chest, and whispered back,

"Don’t vanish again."

For once, he didn’t.
polina Feb 5
I wish to be found, across
Miles of distance, across lifetimes
I wish to be discovered in
Such a way that I’m left in awe
Of all the things I didn’t know
About myself

I wish for you to find me, even though
I say I don’t need you; I wish for you
To try, and try again, so hard that I
Have no choice but to let you in

I wish to find you, you that knows me
Almost as well as I know myself
I wish for you to know me, truly, to
Look so deep inside
Into the darkness that I’ve been afraid
To explore

I wish to be found, in this lifetime
And the next, by you, who is the one
For me
bee Jun 2021
you tell me,
'it doesn't matter where you come from'
and for the first time,
i even believe it.

we spend every moment together
you have your responsibilities,
and i stay by your side.

i find a home in you,
i was finally not alone,
gaining a family.

you are taken from me,
i live day by day,
missing you,
it's unfair.

you come back,
'it's you, it's really you'
'yeah, it is'

it's unspoken,
i know what happens next,
i don't wanna accept it,
you can't go,
i wanna be selfish.

i don't wanna say goodbye,

'you guys are the best'

this is goodbye
you are taken from me again,
and i know there's no coming
back this time.

i miss you, forever.
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