What if I showed you all the poems I wrote
Would you taste the asphalt
I felt
As I sat and scribed
Would you see the graffiti
The street signs, city life
Would it mean anything

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Don't look for me
I won't be there
I'll be in the leaves
Of some foreign land
Swimming in the grass and
Drinking up the sunlight

Don't look for me
Or dig up my grave
There will be no body
Just olden bones
I don't live there anymore

Don't look for me
Underground
I'm in the sky now
Sitting in the trees
Doing things

Don't look for me
Anywhere on earth
Don't even search the stars
Truth be told
I never got that far

Don't look for me
I'm too tired to be found

Don't look for me
I've already drowned

I’ve been looking for you
so hard and so long
Ten thousand days and nights,
of singing your song
Calling you home,
to here by my side
I’ve been searching and waiting
So hard I tried.

All this time,
they told me I was idealistic
So I tried dating people
who I thought were more realistic
I kissed many frogs
but none turned to princes
And so I carried on alone
waiting for something more priceless

My heart has been broken,
I’ve shed many tears
I’m sad that you have missed out
On all these years
But sod it, I might be going
wrinkly and grey
I still do not plan to give up
On my dreams of love today

How will I know
if its you I have found?
When can I rest
knowing I am homebound?
I think I will know
by the way that you treat me
You make me feel safe
and you speak to me sweetly

My love will stay beside me
through thick and through thin
You show me you are someone
I truly can believe in
I’m a ******* a mission
for deep lasting love and romance
They say I am foolish
but I have to take a chance
That someone out there
will love me truly
even though I can be
wild and unruly
But now I understand
why it’s taken so long
My task was not to find you
but to rise to become
a woman who inspires
your love, commitment, affection
by singing my own song louder
to be loved for its own imperfection

I’ve come a long way
but I still can doubt and worry
I’m doing all I can
And if I’m ever difficult I’m so sorry
I want so much to love you
with the entirety of my being
but remember that I’m just a girl
and with all my crazy I’m always well meaning

I’m far from perfect  
Sometimes I get fearful
But many other times
I’m incredibly cheerful.
If you are my soul mate
you have probably struggled to
And my arms will surround you
Let me be your rock, your ally
Whenever you are blue

I stopped all my searching
lit a candle in my heart
And I sang a song of love to life
for us to no longer be apart.

My love, I have waited
what seems like forever
Please come and join me now
so we can do some of life together
I don’t want to be droopy and wrinkly
when we get together
Or not be able to make love to you
without ******

It’s time, hurry up,
I’m fed up of waiting
This search of mine
is getting infuriating

Mahogany separates me from the earth.
The world is quiet in this dull dark dark.
So I wait for the end to begin.
I wait for my life to finally end.

I linger in a mist hidden in an abyss.
Still sitting in wait for the deadliest bliss.
I'm happy now or atleast I think I am.
It's hard to know for sure something you haven't felt before.

So I go back and forth trying to figure myself out.
It doesn't work now I'm more confused then before.
Why does life begin only to come to an awful end.
This circle we live in is trully pointless.

Now all that brightens my day is the crimson liquid from my veins.
It flows then slowly makes me whole.
In death I trully fill my soul.
In pain I find my only pleasure.

Darkness.
That's all I see now.
It welcomes me and holds snuggly.
In it's embrace I feel the warmth of a friend.

A friend.
What did that ever mean.
They came, went and never stayed.
Surely if others had them then I was at fault.

A dark cloud rumages around my mind.
It whispers death into my head.
I try to breathe but don't have breath.
I dream of death.

There is something wrong with me.
I crave the night and hide from the light.
I am all that is wrong in the world.
So in compassion I take myself from this life.