I turned eighteen, and the floor dropped out.
The summer before, the clean-shaven men
at concerts, the ocean, at grimy
gas stations, would gaze at me
with their sallow eyes and creep
closer, stuffing their tarnished
wedding rings into their pockets. I pretend
I don't notice the approach.
I'm sweetheart now, and the world is dying
to know about my day. The artless
small talk ******
my cheeks a shameful red--
always this crass, unsolicited
acupuncture.
Now, I'm darling. I'm baby-- my
age the next delicate question laid
across their taste buds.
A year ago, I could blush and remind
them of my mere seventeen trips around
the sun, and off they'd retreat as if
the law were the only thing keeping
my clothes on my body.
The eighteenth trip has come and
past; from here on out
I fly alone, braving the flocks of
pitiful predators.