"scene 30 000, take 1"
"AND ACTION"

I imagined us dancing in the Park
right near
while I was looking outside the window
we called each other "dear"
I spun you around
your hand in mine
it was everything but fine
it was magic
not tragic
it was wonderful
not dreadful

your dress healed wounds
as it was spinning around
your eyes shone with youth
so happy I found

save
space

the moon passing by
the stars in the sky

we danced and danced
continuing on

"CUT"

"scene 30 001, take 1"
"AND ACTION"

passing the crosswalk
all in the dark

a car came

I screamed out your name

blood floods
a puddle of shame

death
I checked your breath

we didn't hear the car...

...but I did
silently
watching

eyes looking down
my brain with regret
for all what I said

"CUT CUT CUT"
"TRY TO LET THEM FEEEEEL THE PAIN"
"scene 30 001, take 2"

"ACTION"

little me stares at me
...she knows I'm spying
out of my window
here
her eyes are sad
she was everything she ever had
the body in her hands
a puddle of blood
saying I'm "no good"

my imagination is cruel
I say
it's warning me from hell
but my brain does not know
I want everything I tell

my brain continues on
"let's move on!"
"you don't even like dancing"
"stop crying
before it's called dying"

"CUT"
*sigh

Closing my eyes
I imagine you
Standing
With your back to me
And doing something mundane  
Like…
Brushing your teeth,
Wiping down a countertop,
Or fixing your hair
As music plays
In the background
And your hips
Sway to the rhythm

As I move closer to you
My hands gravitate
To your waist
Pulling you slightly
Towards me

And as you slowly spin
Around to me
Our eyes lock...
And your arms
Naturally drift
Up and around my neck
Into a dancing position

And as we slowly glide
Around the room
We kiss lightly
As if we are stealing
Each other’s breath

The world feels like
We are walking on air

In real life…
You are just learning
How to ‘dance’ again
While I’m swaying
To the music
That you’ve created within me

And I can’t wait
Till the next time
Where we can
Talk
Smile
Laugh
And Dance
To the music in our hearts

You stop me from dancing, from singing
From sharing my fantasy -  
With your flaccid machine gun *****
You bust my brain that’s used to bullets
Every waking moment, trying to unbalance my blast and break it…

Acting like the vulnerable child that changed except you didn’t… full of weakness and cowardice…

Do you want to talk about it?
Better not show your ugly realness,
Who knows what that could tell…

Keep on killing in eliteness
Clinking your champagne cufflink caress -
You can try to delete us
Yes, you’ve already tried to burn this…

But let’s face it - we’re fearless…
And you’ve not stopped us from dancing
We dance and sing to space-spanning anthems…
And the rain restores us
And we smell like special wild flowers in forests
And all you are is a distant splinter
That came out with ease, once you were directly demeaned

And nothing can stop us, because we are the future…
And you will freeze forever and ever in your ugly paint - its golden frame you can’t change…  
And the hell you thought you could re-spell -
You’ll feel it all too well…

If I stare at a wall
long enough,
I lose track of
what it’s for.

Penguins in the abyss
return with fish
to feed their chicks.

Kiss me
before you remember
what I do
for a living.

Wake me for love
when it buries itself
in dirt.

Love me in pieces
like I’m meant
to be shredded.

Let’s go away
to never remember
ourselves and
forget to return.

Someday, I’m going to
let go of
this guy,
brittle leaves and
pancake batter.

If you ever
meet me,
make a fellowship of knuckles
to pay for the party.

Time’s up.
Make nice
and roll over—
Death’s dancing
with you tonight,
darling.

we meet in the lights
we dance all night
we meet in the chaos
grabbing me tight
we meet in the crowd
i enjoy the ride
kissing you stranger
never felt so right
feeling this way
i love how you make me feel
no boundaries for you
do what you do
touch me like you do
marking what's yours
against the doors
i have to leave
please believe
you ask to see me
i know what you want
well then
another story unfold
fits in a page
only to think about
quick feeling it is

The music calls me
Takes hold of my soul,
pulls me to the dance floor—
and I become
the girl in red shoes,
driven to dance through pain,
through exhaustion.

Suavemente, bésame

But I welcome it.
I laugh through the ache,
move through the burn.
I crave the sweat,
the heat—
the way my body forgets to hurt.

Quimbara, quimbara, quma, quimbamba

The drums take me captive,
and I go willingly,
hips in sync with the rhythm,
feet defying fire.

What is it that makes me burn this way?

A curse—
etched in my bloodline.
An inheritance I never chose,
but never refuse.

It makes me feel alive.
And I never want to stop.

Please, give me space,
And all the stars above.
Here, the never ending sky,
A gaze of hopeless love.

Drench me in epiphany,
And hold on to my soul.
Filled by suns — galactic light,
Each step takes a tole.

Dance with me swiftly,
And let the void billow, bloom.
A sweet tango of lovers,
Kiss me — spark the fume.

Forever, oh ever, I'll dream,
Of the sky, the stars and space.
I'll let the cosmos drift on by,
As I take in every loving inch,

Of your sweet, heavenly face.

Somewhere far away where nothing looks the same
I could see a pretty dancing dandelion dame

Nobody would rob her from her joy
and nobody saw her as a toy

she danced and danced with a smile
she could go on dancing for a while

she had no doubts, no insecurities, no fear
because no humans or danger were anywhere near

Oh, dandelion dame, I wish I was you in some way
because humanity, reality and this city are grey

I remember meeting you outside the party
our friends were wasted in love
looking for a savior with their bodies
You were sitting, singing a melody I recognised
I remember leaving, crying while drinking your last cup
you were smoking while our song was playing
but we didn't even know each other
The lights paralysed my thoughts
and I was drowning in words that refused to leave my mouth
You were laughing in the car with a girl I called pretty
some hours ago, in front of you
before the incident
I remember writing under the constellations,
in a corner where the lenses couldn't approach me
and the purple and blue flashes only touched pieces of the lunar light.
I remember writing a love song about someone I never met and never will
and then you had the guts to ask me for a cigarette
but I gave you a lighter I always carry around
You saw my tears falling down inside your drink
so you decided to drink my soul instead
The girl I called pretty got hypnotised
by the laughs and the screams inside
and suddenly it was just us
and our heartbeats
I remember meeting you outside the party
but you told me you couldn't see your reflection anymore through my eyes
you told me I was just a girl that stole your sanityand filled it with smoke
and then our heartbeats touched
and the incident happened
and I wasted parts of myself in the kiss we exchanged.
I smiled
I smiled and your lips formed a deeply regretful smirk.
I remember meeting you outside my party
wasted on love or greed or foolishness
or was I just high on hope and delusion?
I chose the wrong substances
and now I'm stuck with your regrets
and your cigarette infused breath you let me taste
I ran to change the song to something everyone likes but me and you.
I danced with our memories
and you danced with your chosen loneliness.
I remember it was the best party
I've ever had
I remember admiring how much you were hurting
I remember lying to myself about feeling shame about it
and it was the last chance I had to remembering you
I vaguely have any memories from all the parties you haven't been since then
but I'm throwing one now
and I know you'll remember it
meet me outside the party.