I crave a new feeling.
That near death thrill,
The one that makes you feel so alive.
The falling,
But never landing.
The light,
Followed by darkness.
The knowing,
That you'll only be guessing.

Our love wilted and died.
I left you behind.
I said I'd never look back,
I lied.

We may have kissed,
But not the lips.
We didn't mean to last,
Just distract.
One rule,
No lips.
Lips are for lasting.

I fell before I loved.
A little too hard.
A little too soon.

Who can hear a tree fall in the forest?
Whats another slice in a ****** mess?
Another pill to ease the pain?
Another tear in the rain?
The answer to all of these is the same.
A single step, a step closer to the ledge.
A cliff, a window, a roof, a noose...
These questions are deadly.

I won't leave,
If you can give me a reason not to

With each that falls,
I relive an old pain,
I feel a new sorrow.
The same suffering,
A different agony.
An endless loop,
A momentary relief.

Every time you frown
I feel the need to make you smile.
All you seem to do is lift others up,
even when it pushes you down.
They love you.
But I want to care for you.

My demons are there for me
When you aren't.

Sometimes it hurts.
Sometimes there's nothing you can do.
Sometimes it doesn't stop.