#always poems on Hello Poetry

s Jun 2019

Hm?

let’s watch history repeat itself
we know the song and dance by now
i’ll push you away with contorted hands
let the delusions block me out

i’m never satisfied, it’s the ******* truth
addicted to attention, obsessed with you
but my expectations are always too **** high
& it’s impossible to see me through

love’s nothin but a pathetic joke
built to erode
what did i try to preserve
even roses decompose

i’m in pain
just a silhouette lately
yea i’m listening to elliott smith
crying
what did you ******* expect

Yea I wrote something for the first time in months and it’s **** what about it

#trash #as #always

Lea J Jun 2019

Always

When I cried
You held me tight
When I screamed
You told me it would be alright
When I cut
You stitched my arm
When I took
You switched the pills so I wouldn’t do harm
When I punched
You held my hand
When I kept silent
You smiled because you’d understand.

#selfharm #hurt #thankyou #always #pills

Donna May 2019

The Love Of My Life

Holding hands , smiling
together , laughing sharing
Love is wonderful

This one is for my husband Dean who forever supports me and is always trying to help and care for me especially when my aniexty kicks in , loving him is the best medicine I ever going to need xxxxx ❤️

#loving #my #husband #caring #sharing #love #always

Vic May 2019

Note 72: Always

I've always liked the moon better than the sun.
I've always painted in black, not in colour.
I've always been a little hidden, never fully exposed.
I've always written, never said.
I've always been afraid of the monster under the bed.

A poem every day.

#note #72 #always #moon #sun #black #colour #hidden #monster #exposed

Iska May 2019

Last Place

I am not your number one
And that is ok
I have accepted this
As my fate
Inescapable
You see,

I...
will never come first.

And that’s ok.

When I tell you I love you more than anything,
You will never reply the same.

And that’s ok.

I will never be your first

And that’s ok

It’s ok.
It’s ok.
It’s ok.

Her smile will forever make you day

And that’s ok
(I wouldn’t love you as much as I do if it didn’t anyway)

She is your purpose for living

And that’s ok
(I wouldn’t love you as much as I do if she wasn’t anyway)

Her laugh is your most precious thing

And that’s ok
(I wouldn’t love you as much as I do if it wasn’t anyway)

It’s ok.
It’s ok.
It’s ok.

She will always be your brightest sun

And that’s ok

She will always be the first

And that’s ok

I will never even be the fourth

And that’s ok

It’s ok.
It’s ok.
It’s ok.

It really is.
I swear to god that it’s ok
I love you all the more for it
And I wouldn’t have it any other way

But at night....

When loneliness seeps into my bones

And monsters hiss into my ears

Reminding me that I am not your first
That I... have never been anyone’s first and most important person

That I have never deserved it

And that I will never even be your fourth.

And that’s ok.

It’s ok.
It’s ok.
It’s ok.

But at night...

With loneliness bleeding through my soul.

I can’t help but wonder...

What it would be like.

To at least once

be first
To someone
To anyone

Because I have never been anybody’s number one.

Never been put first

Not even by myself.

And I never will be.

And that’s ok.

It’s ok.
It’s ok.
It’s ok.

Because when the sun is out.
I love you all the more for it
I don’t regret it.
I do not envy it.
I love you all the more for it

And it’s all truly ok.

It’s ok
It’s ok
It’s ok

But at night

With loneliness swallowing me whole

I can’t help but wonder

Why I

Will never

Be enough

To ever

Be first

Or even

Simply fourth.

#first #important #love #last #always #depression #anxiety #insecure

Vic May 2019

Note 66: Always

Does always exist?
Or do we mean
As long as I love you?

A poem every day.

#note #66 #always #love #lies

Rintato May 2019

Thank You

Although a being,

But of different country.

Rifted between by language,

Yet connected through unified heart.

Sharing smiles and cries,

Fighting stress and depression.

Together we have been,

Through thick and thin.

Thank you for all the times

And accompaint you have been.

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#friendship #always #thank #you