I sometimes wonder about you,

Think about you,

Smell you,

Even see you in my dreams,

I see things that remind me of you,

So I talk about you,

Ask questions about you,

Because I miss you.

Feelings all come flooding back,

Again, I love you,

Want to touch you,

Feel your presence around me,

I smile because I know you,

We feel the same but we both know it's too late,

We both know the reason why,

We both went our separate ways.

In that moment,

Just that moment,

That long moment,

Everything is a blur as if I'm disorientated,

I want you back,

We'll make it work,

Then as soon as that moment's done,

You're once again something forgotten,

left in the past, until next time.

Ya Know I Exercise CONTROL...
When Dealing Wid’... **’s...
And... IGNORANT Bros’... !!!!!

In FACT I Mean... NIGS’... !!!
Who Are FULL of... LIP... !!!

When It Comes To Things...
That Burn Like... CIGS’...

Burnt From The TIP...
Right To The CORE...
of... “ INTERNAL Wars "...

That CONTROL And GRIP....
Their Thoughts And MORE... !!!

Do You LACK Control... ???
Or Would You Say... ?
That... How You Roll...
Throws Control..... Away.................

Why Would You Choose... ?
To Live THAT WAY... !?!

When You LACK Control...
It’s A RECKLESS Road...
That You Go Down..... !!!

ACTIONS With NO Bounds....
Moving Like... CLOWNS... !!!
But Causing FROWNS.... !!!!!
RATHER THAN Laughs....

When Your LACK of Control...
Starts Charting Paths....
To Behave Like KHAN......
Incurring The WRATH.... !!!
of... CONTROLLED Folk...

Who LIKE A.... “ Joke “.... !!!

But CONTROL Quotes...
That Are CLEARLY BROKE... !!!

CONTROL Ya Mout.... !!!!!!
Before You SPOUT...

SOMETHING That Leads....
To VENGEFUL Deeds... !!!!!!!!!

CONTROLLED Heads LEAN...
Their Minds To PEACE...
BUT When We LOSE IT...
You SHOULD MOVE IT... !!!!!!

... DON’T Be STUPID... !!!

Do What’s RIGHT...
..... APOLOGISE..... !!!!!!
And... KEEP IT Moving.... !!!

It’s AMAZING How Those...
Who LACK... Control...

ALWAYS Seem To Get PAROLE... ?!?
And YES I’m Meaning Those White Folk...

Who Leave Folks SCREAMING....

... “ What The F!?k !?! “...

Because of Stuff That Makes Them CUSS... !!!!!
About CONTROLS These Folk ABUSE..... !!!!!!

... Just CHECK The News... !!!

Like Paedophiles Who Mess With CHILD... !!!
They NEED CONTROLS To Be IMPOSED... !!!!!!!!!!!

That Let Them KNOW... !!!
That If They’re... “CAUGHT”...

They AIN’T GONNA SEE...
FREEDOM NO MORE... !!!

NO Short Jail Terms... !!!!!!
But Ones That BURN.... !!!!!!!!!

Because They’re...
... “SURROUNDED”...

And CONSTANTLY...
... “ HOUNDED “...

By... CRIMINAL Minds...
Who DON’T LIKE THEIR KIND... !!!

And Feel That They...
Are A HUMAN STAIN... !!!
That Have NO PLACE....

EVEN... “INSIDE JAIL”... !!!!!!!!

CONTROL For Some...
Indicates NO FUN..... !!!!!!

“If you don’t live wild, from time to time ?
Come on big man, what kinda life is that ?”

“I hear ya bro, but you need to know,
when enough’s enough, and to slow your roll !”

A LACK of Control REALLY Is NO JOKE... !!!!!
Ask Girls Who’ve ALLOWED....
Boyfriends To ACT WILD.... !!!!!
ONLY To FIND Their WILD Was FOUL... !!!!!!!!

I Like That Line... !!!
But I’ll FLIP IT Like FRIES... !!!!!

Ask Guys Whose ****...
Has SPLIT LOOSE LIPS... !!!

That LACKED Control... !!!

BELIEVE They KNOW... !!!!!!!

When They FEEL THAT ITCH... !!!
And CAN’T Take A ****...
You’ll SEE How Quick...
They Wanna **** A *****... !!!

When The Doctor Says...

“ Bend Over For This ! “...

As I Said Before...
I’m CONTROLLED Around ******... !!!!!

And I Mean The Types...
Whose ***** Looks NICE... !!!
But SMELLS Like TRIPE... !!!!!!!!!!

ALL That GLITTERS...
CONTROLS LOST SOULS... !!!!!!

And BELIEVE Some *******'...
Are Where... ***** GO... !!!!!!

“CONTROL That Bro,
And You TOO Miss !
If I served you a dish,
covered in MY **** ?
I’ve got to ask you this ?
Would you REALLY Take a lick ?!?”

I Think... RIGHT THERE...
Is Where I’ll QUIT... !!!!!!!!

A SMART MAN KNOWS...
NOT TO... Expose...
His Anger And BLOW... !!!

And On THAT NOTE...
My MANDATE’s GOAL...

Is To BE A MAN...
... Who Shows.....

.... “ CONTROL “....

I'm forced to face
What I've become
My Joy rises
And sets with the Sun

When stuck all alone
Who's left to blame?
When pride is lost
Why feel the shame?

I command both sides
Of this internal war
Neither side surrenders
Only my blood will pour

What doesn't **** you
Makes You stronger
But what if you don't want
to live any longer?

I'm Buried Alive
A Deadman walking
If no one's around
Can they hear my talking?

Breathe new life
Into my being
That I drag around
Lost without meaning

A helpless feeling
I can't seem to shake.
Life is a Death Grip
I can't seem to break.

Bob Marley Made A Track...
That Done Explain THE FACTS... !!!

About THOSE Wearing... " Caps " …
Where IGNORANCE Makes STANDS … !!!!!

Secrets … Weakness …
BLATANT... HATRED …
RABID … Vapid …
Heads YES … VACANT … !!!

But For … The Cap …
That SHOWS Their Hand … !!!!!

ENEMIES … " Friendly " … ?!?
Thought Waves DEADLY … !!!

In Fact They Readily …
Move … UnsteadilY... !!!!!

From Girls To Guys …
They Wear THOSE Smiles … !!!
That Give You Signs … !!!
About Their GREEN Miles … !!!

Some CUT Themselves … !!!!!
For Their PAIN To Quell … ?!?

These Types AREN'T WELL … !!!!!!!
And Have Heads That SWELL … !!!!!!!!

So Their Cap's BIG … !!!
And Encompasses Things …
That HURT Their Heads … !!!!!

LIKE … Basic Sense... !!!

Others Wear Caps ….
That Leave Them TRAPPED … !!!

Kinda Like... " Homeland " …

"Which man am I ?
Wasn't I a good guy ?
I seem to have lied,
to myself for some time !
I feel as if I, am losing,
My Mind !"

NO CAP For Them … !!!
I Think... Jackets INSTEAD … !!!!!
Before Their PROBLEMS …
Cause Somebodies' DEATH … !!!!!

I Now Wear A CROWN … !!!!!!
So Throw Caps Around … !!!!!
To See Who Is DOWN …
And Who Starts To Frown …

When My Words Start To DROWN …
The Sounds of These CLOWNS … !!!

Who YES … Wear Hats …
On … CIRCUS Grounds …
Or Basically... CAPS … !!!

Stay With Me Now … !!!!
And DON'T Drift AWAY...............................  

The Point That I Make …
Is Bob's Words Work TODAY … !!!

... New Age FAKES …. !!!
ALWAYS Trying to Play …
That They're … HUMANE... !!!
When They Move Like SNAKES … !!!

Spitting VENOM …. !!!
... ******* Blood ….. !!!!!!
Did I Mention … ?
... They're NO FUN … !!!!!

SLIMEY Movers … !!!!!
Caps For SHOOTERS …

Macks And GATS …
That Should Be CAPPED … !!!

But The Caps Most Wear …
Are … LESS Prepared …
For Words I Share …
That QUICKLY SNARE … !!!

Their … "Hidden Agendas" … ?!?
... Chicas And Fellas …
End Up Like MARCELLUS … !!!

LOCKED In DARKENED Cellars … !!!

CELLARS … of The MIND...
Where ALL They Remember...
Are Lines I've Designed … !!!

That … OPEN Their Eyes …
To What They DENY … !!!

Their FALLACY Worlds …
ESPECIALLY GIRLS … !!!
Who Now Seem To Prefer …
To Take Turns To Get...
...... BURNED ….. ?!!!?

When MEN DON'T Wear CAPS … !!!
Or What Some Call … " HATS " …

And Then Leave Them SPURNED …
When CLEARLY They YEARN …
For Them To … RETURN … !!!!!

I've Said It BEFORE … !!!
So I'll Say It AGAIN ….. !!!

Some Women Are ****** …
For … RABID Type Men … !!!

But Wear DIFFERENT Caps … ?
When Meeting REAL MAN … !?!

They Put Up … " An Act " …
And QUICKLY... RETRACT … !!!

I Used To Wonder WHY … ?
But Now I Recognise …
That Many Are NEEDY …
And DON'T Have STRONG MINDS … !!!

Especially THOSE … !!!
Who Have STRONG BEHINDS … !!!

That's Why They Like Guys …
Who DON'T Treat Them Nice … !?!

Because It Feels RIGHT … ?
To See That BLACK EYES...
And Their CHEATING Styles …
Comply With Their Vibe …
of Living … IN DENIAL … ?!?

… A CAP I DON'T WEAR … !!!
Cos' I'm NO LONGER SCARED … !!!
To Deal With … The TRUTH … !!!

DON'T Lie Down With Dogs …
Then They Cannot BITE YOU … !!!!!

YES ….. !!!
  
"Who Jah Bless, no man curse !
So, why are my brothers
wearing caps that, hurt !?!"

Cos' Their Heads Are TOO BIG … !!!
For Their Caps To Now FIT … !!!!!

No Wonder They're TRIGGERED … !!!
To Act Like … Go Figure … ?!?

Such Words I Now CAP …. !!!!!
Like … Financial Plans … !!!!!!

If It FITS You Should Wear It … !!!
Like … "Closet Racists" … !!!!!

Who THINK That They're Slick …
UNTIL Lyrics HIT …
The Spot That Gets HOT … !!!
Right UNDER Their Skin … !!!

And Under Their Collars … !!!
Til' They Start To HOLLA' … !!!!!

For MERCY That's WORTHY …  
of These ***** GIRLIES … !!!!!
When Men REMOVE Thongs...
And HIT Their... G Spots … !!!

So Their Caps Get A LICK  ...
of Their WET Juicy Lips … !!!!!

But DON'T Get CAUGHT In … !!!
The Web That They SPIN … !!!!!

Now Of Course Some ARE COOL … !!!!!
But … DON'T Be A FOOL … !!!

Spiders Spin Webs …
Where Insects Get TRAPPED … !!!

Just Like This POEM …
That Maps PAST These Traps.....

For Those Who FACE FACTS …
And Wear RIGHTEOUS Hats … !!!!!

Unlike THOSE Who Have HOLES …
That EXPOSE How They Roll … !!!!!!!

Who KEEP Throwing It Back …

When They KNOW IT'S … !!!

…. " THEIR CAP " ….

What the hell does that mean?
When does someone become an adult?
When they turn 18? 21?
Or does age even matter?
Maybe it’s more about what someone does.
How much someone accomplishes.
What makes someone an adult?
Driving?
Moving out of your parents house?
Getting an education?
Losing their virginity?
Having a full time job?
Making money?
Marriage? Children?
What if I haven’t accomplished any of these?
What does that make me?
All I know is that I’m 25
and still feel like a ******* child.

So …
For Whom Will The BELL …
..... REALLY TOLL … ?!?

Online TROLLS...
Whose Comments Go …
Up... Peoples' Nose …. !?!

NO Prose NO Coc'...
Just ROCKING Boats …
Because Their Flow …
Cuts To The BONE … !!!

Or For Those Who Expel.....
What Are CLEARLY …
…. " FOUL SMELLS " … !!!

Or Will It Toll For Those...
Who Will NOT Atone … !!!
For IGNORANCE SHOWN …
In Jokes They Quote... ???

I Guess Karma KNOWS … ???

And Will One Day EXPOSE...
Those Who Have HOLES …
... Within Their Souls …

Those Who LACK Faith … !!!!!
So Are …. INHUMANE...
In Moves That They Make...

Because Their Claim To FAME …
Is Being Named Human STAINS … !!!!!

The Types Who MAINTAIN …
That … WRONG And Strong …
ALWAYS … Get Along … ?!?!?

Even When Swan Songs …
... FINALIZE Epilogues … !!!

So... DO YOU Fit The Role … ???
of Those Who'll PAY A TOLL … !?!

Cos' You LACK CONTROL … !?!
And Live In LOOPHOLES … ?!?

From Brothers To Mothers
To … SIGNIFICANT Others …

Too MANY Now Smother …
Loopholes With Their BLUNDERS …  
As If They'll STAY … "Covered" … ?!?
Like... BULLET PROOF Hummers … !!!

These People Just PLUNDER …
And Then Sit And Wonder  …
Why Lightning And Thunder …
Encompass Their Summers  …. !!!

They Hear THUNDER CLAPS …
Then... Start To REACT … !!!

Instead of … EASING Back …
And RE-THINKING Their Plans …  

The Bell Has Them SCARED … !!!
Cos' They're Just NOT Prepared …
To Face Up To … CHARGES … !!!

That FILL CERTAIN Chairs … !!!

They're … Devil May Care … !!!
Because Their Card's MARKED …
With Hearts That Are DARK … !!!!!

They CLAIM To Be SMARTEST … !!!
And Normally FASTEST …. !!!!
To... Flood Up Their Market …
Because They're The HARDEST … !!!!!

These Days I Sit LAUGHING …
At These MOVING TARGETS …
Because They're ******* … !!!
And CLEARLY LACK Smartness … !!!

Just Like These … HOT Girls …
In Their WONDERLAND Worlds … !?!

Who THINK Cos' They're Pretty …
That They Can Act … ****** … ?!?

It's Really A PITY … !!!!!
Cos' When Their **** Gets OLD … !!!
They Make HOT Turn To COLD … !!?!!

And Make Diggin' Their Hole...
Feel Like LOSING Your SOUL … !!!!!

NOT THAT I Would Know  …
Married Men Tell Me So … !!!!!

I AVOID THESE Female Vipers … !!!
Who Set Boys Up Like Spiders …

Cos' Their Web Is *** …
And YES Giving Head … !!!
Until All That's Left …
Is Falling … Pregnant …  

It Seems That **** Heads … !!!
QUICKLY Give Them Children … ?!?

Maybe Cos' They're DUMB … !!?!!
Or Because These ***** …
LIKE … *** In Their BUMS … !!?!!

The Proof's EVIDENT … !!!
When These Men RESENT …
Their Children's ESSENCE … !?!

Because of jumping Into Beds …
With These Types of Women  …. !!!

Who … MESSED UP Their Heads … !?!
Because of What … *** … ??!??

And THAT'S Their DEFENCE … ?!?

Well... Bells Toll For Them … !!!
As They Do **** Women … !!!
Who As Time Unfolds ……....................

REALLY SHOW How They Roll …
When They're SNIFFING ******* … !!?!!

Who STILL DON'T Seem To KNOW … ?!?
That … *******' That GLITTER...  
Are... NOT Good To Go … !!!!

So … WATCH For These HOLES …
Where … DIRTINESS FLOWS … !!!

These Holes AREN'T Composed …
of... NUTRIENTS YO ….. !!!!!!

So Here's My LAST QUOTE …
NOBODY'S Above Falling In Love …
Or Making … BAD Choices … !!!
But DON'T Get TOO BOISTEROUS … !!!!!

Cos' It's NOT Okay … !!!
To Play You Are BOLD …
And Show NO CONTROL … ?!?

Cos' What Will You Say… ?
If …. One Day YOU FACE …

A POWER SO GREAT ….  !!!!!
That It DECIDES YOUR FATE …

And Holds ALL THE NOTES …

For …

... " When Your Bell Tolls " …

Yup... !!!
I'm Used To Them Now.. !!!

People Acting FOUL … !!!
Cos' of Things That Come Out …
of My LOGICAL Mouth … !!!

LOGICAL Thoughts …
That Seem To Wage WAR … ?!?
In The Minds Now Inclined …
To … Live In DENIAL … !?!

Those With FAKE Smiles …
And … BLEMISH FILLED Files … !!!!!
CAN'T Take BITTER Pills ….
In Words That Are FILLED …
With SCALPEL Incisions …. !!!!!
That Cut Through DERISION …
THEY TRY To Be Giving … !!!!!!!!!!

The Type That Are DRIVEN...
By … Insecure Visions... !!!
In Mind States … "Imprisoned"...
Because They Are Living …
In A World of Pulp Fiction … ?!?

WITHOUT Any Shepherds... !!!
Who'll Put Down Their Weapons …. !!!
And REJECT...........…. Vendettas …..
To Find Something BETTER …. !!!!!

Than Waging DUD WARS... !?!
That … DON'T HAVE A Cause … ?!!!?

Because They Are FLAWED … !!!
And Have... NOTHING More …
Than PETTY Name Calling … !!!
That PROVE They Are FALLING … !!!!!

Into The MIRE …
of … Down Below FIRES … !!!

Where They Just Get BURNED …
Because of … Their Words … !!!!!!!

Because They …. INCUR ….
The Wrath of The RIGHTEOUS … !!!!!!
Who Choose To Be WRITERS …
Whose Station Is HIGHER … !!!!!
Than BULLETS They Fire …

But I'm Used To Them Now … !!!

Attempts To Bring Down …
And See That I FROWN …. !!!
Because My Words HOUND …
These SPITEFUL Young Clowns … !!!

... SPITEFUL INDEED... !!!

Insightful... HARDLY … !!!!!!!

In Fact They Are DEEP … !!!
When It Comes To Their Needs … !!!!!

They Seem To NEED Sheople' …
Because They Are Feeble …

But Have NO KNIEVEL' ….
To JUMP OVER EVIL … !!!!!

I Choose To Employ …
A Vibe With MORE POISE …
Than … REACTIVE Noise … ?!?

The Type That Is Found...
Where BULLIES Surround... !!!

I DON'T Bully Heads …
Who Are IGNORANT … !!!!

They BULLY THEMSELVES …. !?!?!
YES Into... POOR HEALTH … !!!

The Type Where Heads SWELL... !!!
Because They're … NOT WELL … !!!

INCREASING Blood PRESSURE … !!!
That … HOTS UP Their TEMPER … !!!!!

When They Should COOL Down … !!!
See I'm Used To Them NOW … !!!

Those I CONFOUND...
Because I SURROUND...

Their World of … " INSANITY " … !!!!!!
With Thoughts That Are SOUND … !!!

THEY KNOW They CAN'T DEAL...  
With ME... Cos' I'm REAL … !!!
And Choose NOT TO Hide …
Myself … Behind LIES … !!!!!

I Choose To EXPRESS … !!!
The Thoughts In My Head …
Even When They OFFEND... !!!
And Make THEM Get VEX … !!!!!

They Talk of … " RESPECT " … !!!
But Then Choose ARGUMENTS … ?!?
Or WORSE STILL Make THREATS … !!!!!
And Some … EVEN TRANSGRESS...
To Threats of VIOLENCE …. !!!!!!

Well It's Now PLAIN TO SEE … !!!
That Their …. " Realities " ….
Seem To Feed FALLACIES … !!!

So That What They BELIEVE …
Can FEED Their... DECEIT...
About Being... " HAPPY " … !!!
In The Lives That They Lead …

It Seems That Their Hearts BLEED ….
To FEED Their... "  JEALOUSY " … !!!

JEALOUSY of EXPRESSION … !!!!!!
That's SWEET And Flies FREE …..................

FREE... As A Bird … !!!
When Hearing The Words …
That Come From BIG VIRGE … !!!!!

SEE I TOLD You DON'T DOUBT …
That... I'm Used To Them NOW... !!!

Girls Who Be Thinking …..
Bout' ******* In Kitchens … !!!

And Men Who LOVE These ******* … ?!?
Who Have … ALL Kinds of GLITCHES … !!!!!

Who Seem To Have A NEED … !!!
To Be … Bringing Down The V  … ?!?

Because... Who Knows WHY … ?
Because I DON'T LIE … !!!
Because I DON'T CRY … !!!

OVER … SPILT Milk...

Or Because I WON'T WILT … !!!
In The Face of ABUSE...
Or THREATS People Use …
In Some VAIN ATTEMPT...
To Get Me UPSET … !!!
And See Me Get VEX … !!?!!

WELL Sometimes I DO … !!!!!

But These Days I Choose …
To Now Take The View …

Some Folks Have ISSUES …
That Have Them CONFUSED … !???!

SOME Just Want ATTENTION ….
In Order To STRENGTHEN … !!!
Their LACK of Conviction …

Because Their Life's Rhythm …
Has Got Something MISSING … !!?!!

From Children To Women …

SOME PEOPLE Have PRISONS...
That Keep Their Minds' STIFFENED … !!!

In … AWKWARD Positions … !!!

TransmissIon's Disposition …
EMITTING... ALL This DISSING …. !?!

When If They'd Simply LISTEN …
They Might Be MORE FORGIVING... !?!

... ABOLITION of Positions...
That Work Towards ATTRITION...
Might LESSEN Their INSISTENCE … ?!!!?
of Giving … " CRITICISMS " …

To Those Like Me … !!!
Who Choose To Be …
HONEST To Their CORE … !!!!!

SEE … EVEN When I LIE...
My Lies DEFINED Are PURE … !!!!!

PURE Like The Force...
With Which I Move … !!!!!!!!!

To … SETTLE Scores …
... WITHOUT ABUSE … !!!

That Shows The WEAKNESS...
... IN Some Shoes …
Who Seem To Have Bleakness …
... In Their View... !?!

They'll Say... " IT'S ME "... !!!

But Now  I SEE …. !!!!!

It's REALLY … THEM...
With The PROBLEMS …. !!!

Will This NONSENSE …
….. " NEVER END " ….. !!?!!

Well I'm NOT QUITE READY …
To … THROW in The Towel … !!!

Cos' Now It's NOT So Heavy … !!!
Because … Right Now I've Found …

That When All Is Said And DONE … !!!!!

... The Truth Is THIS … !!!

.... " I'm Used To THEM NOW "....

His knuckles were knots.
Round, tight bunches,
Tied roughly, taught
By the lessons of men;
Who seem only to brutalize
The beauty of the body.

His heart was chiseled.
Stone in the stead of flesh,
Fixed to a function. Grounded,
Not in hope, but the kiln’s capture.
Heat, the blistering rage, resolved
In all the hand’s heartless work.

His mind was not his. Home;
A house of helplessness. Now,
The mental mutiny made know.
Year's of yearning for youth, only
To forfeit all faith of the future,
In exchange for hard truth.