Inspiration has left me lying in the gutter
This forced write is all I have to console me
The reverberating hum running through my fingertips seems numb.
Not one insight, not one iota of a wordly crumb.
This desire to write nothing is a dark stain I'm bleaching
Poetically ironic that my own desolation has conspired
To unwrite me from my pages
Even the gutter has a view of this ****** ****.

Shots fired.
Expression of emotion is vital, cathartic.
My words despairingly ugly. Sensorship even  uglier.
I will not  find peace or sanity until i ***** my offense.
Do not negate my reality
with your unempathic offence
A survivor on defense.
The best defence is attack.
I apologise to no one
for the constant exorcism and reinfection of my demons.
You dont have to live with them.
If you take my words
and stuff them back down my throat
with your own pretty pious version of hate
dont think you won't then be a target of offence.
Don't speak for me
Dont correct me
Do not vett me
Do not circumvent or block me
my spite will pour from its source
Deep pain and loss
Regardless of my senses
Of my deliberate take on inhumanity
If you want to be humane step aside
And don't let the filth catch you on its way out!
I will shout down my demons with fire and light
Stand back!
It is done,
When tis done.

God needs no defending
God is love
God is good
What is good is evident
It feels good

God needs no defending
God loves in spite of evil
God chooses us even if we don't choose God
To light The Christ in all of us

To destroy in God's name is defiling
God can love even through this misguided attempt
God needs no defending
All is done through love
For every emotion stems from it
or the lack of it

We are not separate from God
We are collectively God
We can only turn away from ourselves
Placing our faith and trust in man
and the here and now
and you zombies don't know what it means
and you keep on keeping on
believing a fake reality
As if nothing else exists
while discounting the truth in your soul
In the aether, in your heart,
God needs no defending
To do so is to believe that we are greater than the collective
That God is weak
God is enlightened consciousness
Only the blind Christ maims in its own honor
God needs no defending
God only requires choice
The choice to love inspite of evil
To choose us even if we don't choose God
To reveal the Christdom in all of us
God requires no defending
Only choice.

I know you're thinking of me
For the simplest of facts you know I'm thinking of u.
Caught myself in a bunch of spare time
driving around with those love songs we'd dedicate to eachother.
Stupid lines that cut the situation out perfectly
each song followed by a perfect sync to the facts of our love.
It was a glorious time
Passion and danger, love on the rocks,
Everyday something new. Fleeting heart moments all fallen askew
"Tell me how to love you" you would often ask while doing it as perfectly as i didn't know i wanted.
Gotta turn off this radio.
This **** is getting too real again.
The music stops in time with the stoplight as as if on cue.
I felt you, a raw energy drawing my head to the side.
i looked at the same exact moment you did to see the light of our eyes. You were right there.
It took 2 seconds of eternity before the lights changed still managing to transfer a universe of missing between us as we turned in opposite directions.
I know you're thinking of me.
For the simple fact I'm still thinking of you.

*****!

Aiming high,
With big boots
Too big to drag across the poetic chess floor,

Never read the greats
Never loved and lost like the great lovers
Never forged the mind in tempered steel
No resolve,
No other inkling than pride for scorn

Yet it was this morn,
Eyes read with a fresh dawn
The braking newness of creation
Art as poetry
And fluked it no more than a precise preponderance
As each word chose itself its order
And a profound truth was embellished
With the love and care of a depth of many aeons
Pared back into a child’s innocent eyes
Reflecting providence, grace and wise
With a goodly turn of genius
That left the mind searching
And words begged of in hopes they would lay more
Yet none were needed

And never did a loving envy grow so warm in its light

The day has faded away
and the last light
kisses the horizon goodnight
The moon beams come out to play
and chases the last ray out of sight
The moon climbs over
and catches up
with her little halos asking of
Her lover the sun,
who makes her glow
in his presence.
Pulling the carpet of tides
in her chase to claw herself near
she would rather
disappear in daylight
than be away forever I fear
Sometimes they dance the tango
as they pass in the clear
and sometimes they dance alone
seductively drawing eachother near
Destined only to feel the effects
of the glow each light beam brings
As gravity pulled together;
this union a catastrophe would bring.
With unlucked quarters
in crescents
Other masters call to them service
But every now and then
hiding in the shadows
of the earths surface
A stolen moment
of love is exchanged
eclipsed only by us it seems
Thus you are my warm sunlight
and I your cool moonbeams
Destined to hide in the shadows
of rings as Saturn steps in
Running rings around us as
we dance
like the moon chasing the sun.

Me and you

I say "_!"

You say "you too!"

You say "_!"

I say duck!

You throw _!



Just my luck!



And then,

a flash across an iris

A magnet of desire,

A silent pause

And we both start doing

Exactly just what we'd said we'd do

don't think you could ever know me like the stars

don't think you know my number or typography of love

there is a world beyond compare you cannot put asunder me

all the love in the universe lives there

yours too.



so you see,

let it live in my soul

let it seep out of my aching *****

give it free will

and do not restrain it

for when you partake of it

you have touched souls with me

and thus forever

I will remember you.

Reprieve \Folder:  Heart aesthetics


a breath drawn ever so lightly,
so cautiously aware.
the rain drops fell lightly and kissed the dry ground.
a blessing eases out from under a rock
blood  from a stone turned to wine
the cool breeze caresses
and the heat slips into sleepy embers
the wind gently consoles.
the nagging worry eases on the shoulder
knowing too well the conjuresome
tricks of the fire storm,
a breath, a beat;
a sideways glance;
a view to a ****.


(c)

Your ethereal essence wraps around my senses as I'm drawn to your atmosphere

buring like a Phoenix washed in a new hope
a flash across the bowels of space and time

the call reaches deep into my soul as it rises from the pits of despair and disconnect
oh how I've missed you, aching chasm of yearning hovering over our used to be

your eyes lit like a new day dawning
you have once again remembered me
Love has resurrected

And i slow suspended in your orbit
afraid to venture  any closer
the last millimeter
always spans an infinite chasm
a fiery fanned Dragon floating in limbo
poised,
i wait desperately for your signal
Hovering precariously over your frequency

Agony and delight

You swish past my mind at the most unseemly times

you plunge straight into my heart

pulling it down tight like an elastic band

and you finger it till I want to throw out some profanity

heart strings trigger fear and hate. loathing and love

I lose myself enmeshed amongst the layers of sanity[?]

I scrape the skin from under my nails hoping to find traces of you there.



I can not lie.

I can not confess

I dont understand this mess.

or you. or me. or us.

I crave and I misbehave

I miss and I dismiss

I feel and I reel

***** **** dust or

crimson lace and black love?



nonsense on top of nonsense

it never made sense

but it always felt right

it was never easy

always too hard to ignore



where are you now?

in every cell, in every memory

in every space, in every moment

a part of me

apart from me



love you.

miss you.

it is as simple as that

thats all there is and

all there ever will be.

The hollow space where you stepped from my atmosphere felt so empty;

void of all feeling and substance. It seems you even took the air with you.

---

As you left I felt my contentment tearing away.

i held my hands awkwardly half shut, half open;

it was all I could do to stop myself physically clawing for it

---

a coldness swooped in and claimed your previously occupied space as its own, hanging itself around me... A strange essence, with the ability to call out my confidence and destroy its underlying ego. It taunted me with the relative ill-ease consuming my thoughts. As I watched each drawn out pace spreading you further away, your physicality dissolving in to the clatter and garbled amusements of the facetious element hoarded into the smoke hazed ornate ballroom.

---

It was clear you had no intentions of pandering to my insecurities, or remotely interested in any other of my womanly charms

A beast of bested burden; how easily he laid upon my heart like a warm blanket

His cruelties stung me with passion, his empty words grew me to love him in spite of him. How easily he tangled my well formed opinions and pulled my perceptions from under me!  I felt I was dancing on an ever shifting carpet afraid for dear life about to topple over the edge and ever rescued from the finite moment...

---

Appalled by my countenances, compelled by my indignation, repelled by my eagerness,  yet, still there ghostly and taunting.

But I had seen it.

A gold moment of freedom, of warmth in his eyes and I pained to see it again. It was this dust particle lit by the sun emanating a warmth to fill the rooms empty space with such a gorgeous sweet freedom, of dancing upon lightness and air!

Eye to eye, soul to soul. In that fraction of a moment it had happened and he was driven to erase it with all and any counter actions. Knowingly I begin to feel a slight crescent nudging the corner of my mouth as I realise suddenly  picking up my ego and dusting the cold off my shaken confidence... Impossible. I left, knowing the manipulations that would follow with the kind of surety of knowing one with a complete intimacy aged of many years an yet it had only Been 3 days, 3 complete life times. One fraction of eternity. I walked never looking back knowing it was I leaving the void behind me.

---

I did not care for wanton games this evening. I am not a plaything contented to puzzle over strings dangling of bobs, bits and things. As the cab rolled up and I was safely tucked inside, I thought of the ensuing orchestration of our physicality. I felt with such fervour we would meet again soon. That was three lifetimes ago. And I still won't let myself falter.

---

I write to pass this endless time.

I don't know how, probably never will.
The capture of understanding eludes me
there is no definable logic or reason.

I wish I could capture all the molecules invading the senses and elements of mystery that constantly reshape themselves with the answer being you to the question of love.

For these fleeting seconds, I am fully completely adamant without doubt

For every fibre of my wishing different there seems to be an antidote ready to mute any plausible argument
You don't fit me well
You complement me perfectly
You don't see it my way
You see my endless potential
You wreak of disaster,
You smell so **** good
The argument goes on
Till i suspect the day I surrender
Twisted up in a messy kaleidoscope of love
As dark as it is light
But I am a shadow of thought
A beckoning dream
Contorting into a nightmare
Curious to capture
Hard to take hold
Designing your delusion
Bringing nothing but confusion

I suspect I never will succumb
Except for those few moments
How quickly and darkly they pass
I am happy here staving off
My affections for your disaffections
While you Completely disarm my ever rearming senses
I loathe you as much as I love you
I scramble all the pieces of you only to find them in my heart
For this second any way and after the next,
Perhaps,
perhaps,
perhaps?

She waits for me at midnight
the stars aligned n such a way
as to reveal her sudden beauty
I trace the lines between the sparkles
as if they, like bubbles, would perhaps burst
spouting an array of lights!
alas they twinkle less brightly
she has not yet unveiled.
I sense her close
the air thickened
fuller with anticipation
I have no choice but to offer myself patience
And suddenly the gloriousness of her is revealed
and I am whole in her radiance
filled and alive
luminous, I dance a halo
like I’ve never danced before
the patterns anew
and the footsteps in the sand
spell hope
aligned in the order of a prayer
without even the thought of one
just the joy that hung upon the air.

I kissed the wings on the heels of love's brokenness
I drew the breath that carried the words that lanced love's boldness
I drew the sword that sliced the veil of hope
I pelted icicles of cold affront that built a towering wall of division

I thought I knew  the desires of my mind and flesh
deeper still, is the wound I carry
inflicted by my own weapons of righteous rebellion

thinking I knew better.
When I didnt know anything at all

eyes flash heart beats in tandem

a waiting game

a predilection given over

the tempo aligns

the dance begins

an orbit around atmospheres

the tasting of ether

a blend of intoxication

and indoctrination

the scent of temptation lingers

the supple notion takes form

twisting and winding of a breath

interchanged with promise

a heavy countenance of anticipation

yet, touch was refused

and together they imagined

a different existence

beyond the plane of reality

to a place in the future

where two souls merge

into one magnificent phoenix

where love is always revived

in the tiny hope conceived

in each other's eyes.

Her grace and beauty blew in like a warm wind

Caressing the soul of one's creativity,

Raising blooms wherever she touched.

A blessing so powerful heaven could tear open with one thought and rain joy or tickle with delight!

With the same breath a tornado of hard hitting truths could lay down to rest when lyrically wrought

a gentle awakening from slumber

Without objection one would invite her careful dissection, the intimate eye of her perception

Her love is fierce as it is gentle, a stinging healing tincture

And she vanished just like the wind

But the feeling is indelibly there

And I fear always will be in memory only

And if so she unwittingly took my breath with her

On that stellar journey where were so destined to have met.  
So I will go on in suspense looking around every corner of every page for signs of her,

incase she decides to breeze in in that cool way she does and washes every eye anew.

my constant lover has run off on his flight of fancy

and in his absence I am lost,

I dont want to think of you.

I dont want to be thrown back in that boat with you

I am aprehensive.

I am dragging my feet

those fake smiles and snorty vibes

the i really couldnt give a **** reply

all the pretending

the preditor and the prey

whos in control?

none of us it seems

but the fates have conspired once again

and another preening ritual is attended

and for what?

to show you what it is you havent got.

but you notice things like that dont you?

I will speak to you with those eyes you mask with hate

and I will mirror cool disinterest

and the rest shall feel ill at ease at my presence

while I fit in with the calm ease

of even the greatest sleeze.

comfortable in my destruction

and thier recoil at my gall

to put the **** out there so nicely

like it doesnt stink at all...

then you don't get the message.

its been fun.

but I gotta run.

this isn't as free thinking a place as I wanted it to be.

I know where I am from and where I am going.

see you when I get there.

the writing on the wall

says it all

if you need me My HP FRIENDS  you will know where to find me.

you would have looked beyond

the smallness of one thought

nothing is as dangerous as an idea when it is the only one you have.

don't worry I have far too many to ever be considered a real threat

till then I'll take a break and say adieu

my friends I will be back to read what you do

till then I offer my love and thoughts in lieu.

HugSS.

Rivers of thought flow bringing shimmering distorted reflections of you
Memories lap at the shores of my heart
pictures of warmth and beauty dazzle dancing in the bright sunlight
what adventures we had
wild and carefree collecting careless memories
echoes of laughter still tickle my soul
the smile of a thousand smiles soaking me with contagious joy
what youth and innocence could do back then,
free and generous that's what we were
living off love's air
we thought it would last forever
that growing old was matter of refusing the heart for a number
that we swore it would always be this way
radio waves playing our songs over the air
Both living in one beautiful frequency
we were so young then
remember you cried and I laughed?

Kiss the truth away one  more time
Torn footnotes in the wind
Your swift hand  cutting goodbye through the air
The world is dark again
I trip over your your love so readily
Eyes cast over the night hoping for light
No stars dare shine
No flowers bloom in colour
The moon drags the day over
The same sarcastic drawl
Silver sliver smile irks me
I never learn,
Draw the bullet again
It's love.
What the hell did you expect?

Plum
Cucumber
melons
Drip
Offered
Open
Lucious
With
Seed
Mouth
Waters
Flavor
melding
Lick
****
Slide
Swallow
Savour

it was a quick gentle motion caught more by intuition than by the concrete senses
a hand waving over and had I blinked, I would have kept the same old lenses

I wasnt led like a dog by the lead or coerced with convoluted imagery
instead I was asked upon the silent wind if i wanted more than debargery

a life less ordinary but unbelievably different to the numbed down dumb down perceptions
I took the opening in the lightning crack offrerd me. I never hesitated, I was not afraid of deception

i felt. I felt the urge of undeniable truth calling
and as I tugged at the veil I stood to watch my manufactured perceptions falling

at my heels the dogs of war became powerless
I saw the heat of blood in the heart of my enemy and I loved them no less

i stood there watching the flashing blade come down at my shoulders again and again
and did not flicker, nor wince nor change and was not in all attempts slain

i stood there in peace as the vile anger of my assailaint grew and the flashes of rage became faster
the purest form of evil manifested in eyes burning rage vehement too powerful to master

and I looked upon them with the curiosity of a child unaware of the forces of hate being expelled
and in the peak of resolution one final grunting blow readied above our heads suddenly eyes welled

the flash of irrelevance dashed through both eyes weakness and pain exhausted,spent.
frustration had given way and so too pain released, exorcised it went

a desperate plea escaped thier eyes seeking mercy and had instantly found it.
i was stricken powerless by love and held over like breathing to have given it

then the sons and daughters of pain and denial sprung forth from thier eyes
sobs of relief and gratitude barreled into tortured cries truth had crushed lies

from knees they flung themselves at my feet kissing my footprints afraid of much
and I knelt down and hugged them with humanities touch

they clung and held fast to their forgivenesess
and asked for my own.

We floated in light and love waiting for the first smile of knowing.

confliction is the only line I've ever known to tread upon.

the place where resolution sits ive never found.

I guess its at the end of this not so taught string beneath my feet

and as I look down the at the chasms below the line

secured God knows where,

the scene of my possible death changes.

but the fall is inconsequential.



death happened years ago.

this is a fight for absolution.

only Im too afraid to fall into the often rushing waters below

and too afraid to stop tredding the line

for fear of being swallowed up on hallowed ground.

I am a prisoner of my own love

a consideration long expired.

and in my one young and foolish deed I destroyed myself

and my hopes for a new and fulfilled future.

the emptyness can never be filled.

that part of hell can not be washed from me

and niether can the fool who follows my love

in fallen crumbs,

do anything but **** me further.

such is the nature of my life,

a short burst of hope and large dose of consternation.


I am afraid.

afraid of the end.

when my string runs out,

or is cut,

it is the end

and I must face

the inevitable wrath,

the karmic sin.



and the sadness of it all is that I have passed it all on

to those I have loved the most

before I even knew them

and I have just noticed the twine

wrapped around my neck.

its too tangled a knot to release

and all I can do is keep it loosened

oh if only I knew what I would be

running from and where I was running to

and the significance of the string.

I would have chosen so differently

now I choose nothing whole heartedly at all.

Another minute wasted, but savored
lets never leave from this place
it seems an eternity we Labored
To be here in this same space
together after chasing stars and comet tails
running rings around Saturns moons
under and through where the dark holes hail
over and under shifting desert dunes
Looking for me, looking for you
another minute wasted but savored
Now we dance along ultra violet tunes
but us, dastardly luck never favored
to the beat of our hearts croon
Once again We labored
looking for me, looking for you
the fabric of the universe once again tears
Nothing left but to rue
it seems it never cares
for me or for you
but hold tight love make this minute last
there’s nothing we can do
time seeps by so fast
loving me, loving you
Agape, we’ll find eachother again  
it’s what we were designed to do
I ache another minute through
kiss met love hold on
I promise I’ll find you
promise you’ll find me
lets take this one last breath
together in the same air
and as you’re torn away from me
know eventually I’ll be there
and now as you fade into another oblivion
I’m grateful for those minutes
wasted yet deeply savored
to sustain us
till we meet again.

There it is,
your infectious laugh!
catching me off guard and pulling me into light
smiling glints of warm in your eyes
every slight, every insult lashed upon my grace
forgotten,  melted away,
lost in that throaty yet light warm chuckle,
oozing charm and charisma every time
I am lost in your joy,
hug me close and make me feel alive and real
kiss my love with your soul
wrap me in your happiness
its the only kind I live for...

the charm bends me in ways I never thought I could go.
I do things
lots of things
hidden things
to invite you to seep into my essences and fall away
the two of us
evaporating into oblivion
as gas and reforming as a new entity
a state of absolute being
the soma of us.

torn by the violence in your darkly silent heart
swallowed that bitterly taste of disappointment
and then some.

Nothing's a given
Nothing s a given

hung in for that toe to toe pound
made the bed and lay in it
tore the sheets looking for love
But your heart could not be found

Sometimes your best is wasted

I know the way I want to go
I'm not facing the same direction
my destruction my  insurrection

Nothing's a given
Yeah nothing's a given

smashed my heart on jagged rocks
wrung out of emotion just short of numb
Swallowed that bitterly taste and then some

Yeah Sometimes your best is wasted

clawed my way through crazy logic
stood up and took the beating
Darkly voilent eyes keep reliving
Nothing s a given
Yeah Nothing's a given

hung in for that toe to toe pound
made the bed and lay in it
tore the sheets looking for love
Yet your heart could not be found.

*nothing s a given
Nothings a given

Yeah,
Sometimes your best is wasted...

this is you kind of weather,the early morning cool air,birds chiriping,your **** in my mouth

the foot treads lightly
the twig screams of injustice!
silence is broken.

I was tip-toeing across the galaxy
trying not to lose my balance on any particular star.
balancing carefully, chasing the thought of you
Your trails are complex in my imagination and
I search the hazy halls of confusion.

Crossed Orions belt twice,
for imaginary luck!
My only consolation is
we are somewhere in this same universe
Though never sure which plane
I catch a glimpse of your colours...
I speed through space and time, there!
again! a glimpse near that star!
must be where you are!

I race towards that sun,
the hope dying well before I reach it
a feeling so hollow
I want my soul encased,
to feel the physicality of my pain
that I can clutch something tightly
and find some small relief
from this sub conscious form

I miss The heart flutters,
the skin tingles,
the aching ****...
My flesh long burned away
from a particularly messy passing
though welcomed,
you had gone,
and I wanted to be too.

But now?
Oh, how I ached for its responses,
for the comfort in the finite form.
This existence is one of a consciousness
willing itself into creation
The form of all born.

All the knowledge of existence
in all it's forms,
reduced here to Pathetic words
of an inept language
naive and incapable
of the divine expression of love.

In truth there is only one emotion.
The categorisation too limiting,
so gladdened to be free
of the immature understanding.
All is one and one is all,
the same as creation=existence.
But even here in this enlightened state,
The control of existence is unknown.

I hear the faint echo of the naively called 'father'
"Why do you still go against my creation?
Why will you not follow
what I have spent eternity
labouring over for you?
Must you hurt me this way?
Must I continue to watch you
burn tragedy through all existence?"

My dear Devine source,
I respond in conscious
forgetting the source hears me
You could never show me colours like my beloved.
Will you not ever just once,
allow this grand expression?
You and your tyrannous rules!?
must i prove the impossible,
that this existence is wrong!
there must be a better way!?

The source feels further
and I feel like the stars are shining less.
The good and evil in me balance, yet,
the one emotion
propels me to every corner of every star,
my birth is eminent
and I want to make a soul agreement soon.

Frantic!

I must find you!
This is beyond the realms of creation.
This is less than existence
There must be more,
I traded home for you.
Will you not come?
Will we ever prove
that within the confines of existence,
there is something new?
something meant for just me and you?

Frantic!

Manic!

My star has risen.
My Mother Earth calls.
Another eternity away from you
chained in my earthly walls.
Sub-conscious.
Conscious.
Soul panic.
The One.
Lost
amother painful
Existence...

without you.

Gaping wound mouthing its pain at me directly
Red voiled words strain themselves from makeshift lips
A tongue of bone  sits across the torn out scream
Sputtering and gurgling as veins add to the heated furore
The surgeon peers and wipes over the crass outpouring
Silence, then muted sobbing
***** red mouth needs  washing flushed out
More unruly crimson defiance! Deftly Muffled once again
the gaping makeshift mouth  mutters a desperate prayer giving a resolute yawn and finally relaxes 
Scrubbed and trimmed, Stiched into a peacful crooked smile.
Docs got it all sewn up!

Grassy knolls crunch gently under foot
Winding wind sweeps around folding me in
Soft sunlight dips through the clouds
And through the lightly blustering playfulness i hear your name carried
Sea air slips open long shallow held lungs
Release on the bounty of home
Eyes devour the horizon longingly
News had come days ago
Life had begun to stir inside
But the sun sank in the same beat of a longing heart
The north star twinkled hope
A quiet prayer lept on the wind
Another faint trace of sound
Whats in a name when it has no form?
Another prayer slips out to search the sea
The sun pulls the sky as purple draws over,  
Dragging with it a blanket of velveteen,
glittered with stars
twinkling beacons of light dancing to the song of hope
Waiting for the moon to make her grand entrance
Maybe on the faintly illuminated horizon
Love may finally appear amongst the stars.

I've hurt you and I recognise it
As deep as the torn pieces of aorta I've choked on
How proud you stand defiant in your love of me
How you stich the pieces of my guilt into velvet pillows to lay my head upon
Soothing in your denial of fact
Forgiveness in your heart, pain your eyes
Doubt has settled there
The beat ticks time,
the colours of love bleed
My heart swells,  as yours drains
The words never come no matter how I start,
I wish I'd known
How much
Before i even let it start
Like the sorry caught on my lips
Despite the laboured floundering of my tongue
I cannot bring my self to say
The words I should have remembered
The day I fell from your heart
into your pillows
Never asking how or why
Death is more certain
Than the code written in your eyes
No clues to decipher
Only the way I see your pain

The silky strings of empathic poetry
wind thier way through my mind to my fingertips,
In turn each caress hums electricity
and glowing reverberated letters form
the beauty of eloquence reserved for greats, restrained.
Instead the satin pearls lay sprawled
gathered with elcectric tweed and tied with pixel yarn
with clunky pebbles inbetween ,
the pearls calling to each other
to dance together on the electric string,
and the pebbles beg for polish
in order for thier beauty to sing.
I however,will not.
For they are eloquence and beauty to me,
and are as my creative souls expression
faultless in the delivery of my first truth,
in all art born of soul and heart
simply
elegantly evocative in the highest perfection
of the electrons clumsily,
imperfectly formed birth of
inspirations.

Left by my haunting lover
no ghost remains
no line or verse
in the body of love
will let the fingers of my mind traverse
The water lies stagnant
loving eyes have not returned
warm hearts have fled
I write to the wind instead
brokenness of disillusion
lays it’s grace upon my head
love has flown
locked and placed
the cage has been set
the unkind cut made
the bleed continues
im on my own
as my wordss die
with the one faithful constant
now faded to dark
and I lie within a lie
yearning for my lost art
inspite of my refusal
now inanimate
and begging for life