are there is something wrong with me?
or I was made like this...
i'm feeling pretty good when i'm sad
it's like sorrow is my happiness

i'm just so used to it, i guess
..

we all need recharging

but to save our batteries
sometimes we need to stop speaking
and to start listening
  
need to breath in and breath out
of course breathing out is optional
just joking

and yeahhh
sometimes we need a good laugh

if i couldn't dream
then i couldn't breath
i just would't stand living.

when i'm go to sleep
i'm going to my world
there everything is better
more exiting more dramatized

this world is too plane for me
i can't stand this feeling of disappearing

in the dream realm
i'm feel more alive
then in the real world
...

i'm in love with sea creatures
even the mystical ones
imagine they have their own world
their own rules
..

i'm so unlovable i guess
i'm not made for human interactions
i **** everything up

they say i'm perfect
when i'm getting almost good grades
when i'm not speaking too much
or too little

they say i'm perfect
when i don't care what to wear
when i have messy hair
or messy handwriting

they say i'm perfect
when really i'm not..

they say i'm perfect
when it's perfect for them..

my drug and addiction

i have to drink coffee
or else my head wants to explode
but like in medical terms
it's my pain killer

but in the same time
coffee makes my hands shaky
and heart too fast and
i want to do everything at once
and nothing at all

i really don't like coffe
it tastes like nothing
like burned sugar
and its blackness scares me

what should i do?
if i don't like my savior...