bright green eyes open.

ice in my veins as I hear the sound
green eyes flicker to him
for a moment of a heart beat frozen in time
release of breath

running in the hall to reach the future
running in the hall to save a lost soul
running in the hall to see him praying

on his knees, alone, confused, lost

green eyes flicker
green eyes flicker to red blood on white collar
green eyes flicker
green eyes flicker to words leaving trembling lips
green eyes flicker,
green eyes flicker to tears of the future,
                                carefully formed by the present

the memories tear my soul apart,
the blue flickering lights
the neon orange jackets, stern voices

the black denial that hurts,
hurts.
green eyes flicker
blue lights flicker

so ******* alone in the hall,
footsteps, merely echo of the past
green eyes flicker, tears forcefully fall
green eyes flicker, whom should I call
green eyes flicker, sliding down the wall

dark green eyes close.

how much does it take to **** a man?
is it the curves of her body,
or the curves of her smile.

Soft lips kiss my soul
As a tender voice spells out love
She doesn't know what she does

Bright eyes to match her light heart
Too big for such a precious body

A laugh that can melt
The coldest of hearts
A smile that can brighten
The darkest of days

when she sings
The song birds listen with envy
Everything about her
makes my heart flutter
The butterflies in my stomach
Reach for her
Begging for and glimpse
At her imperfections
Because even her imperfections are perfect
Because they are her's

I wonder why she does this to me
Why she lies in my head
Gazing at the falling stars
Making me wish for her
But she doesn't know what she does

There are things I never told you

Like how I loved the way wrinkles formed
Around your mouth and next to your eyes
When you smiled

Or how I would pretend
To fall asleep in your arms
So you had to hold me
Just a little longer

How your voice
Made my soul shine
As you sang folk songs while you cooked

Or how it would soothe my fears
As you read to me.

There are things I never told you

Like how your stories always bore me
But I would listen anyway
Because I could see how happy it made you

Or how I hate that you will never see me marry

Or how I loved the way you would adjust how you were sitting

Or the tiredness in your voice
Early in the morning

There are things I will never get to tell you

Like how while you were sick
I didn't want to help you
Not because I didn't care
But because it wasnt you

Or how I still hear your voice
whenever I read anything

Or how when I saw you that last night
I wanted you to hug me back
I wanted you to hold me
Like you used to
So I could pretend to fall asleep
So you had to hold me
Just a little bit longer

How I still see you in my dreams
And every time I'm happy
I can feel you patting me on my back

Or every time I cry
I can hear you telling to put my chin up
'Cause crying is useless

There are things I will never get to tell you

Like how I will never love anyone
As much as I loved you

There were white dahlias
And they lined your island
I remember pulling them up
And weaving their thick stems into my hair
But you said
I couldn't take your flowers
Because I always wore black
And the vines that held my arms skyward
Were always black.
Oh, I loved you,
I fought for you,
I sang for you.
And every night when you would fall asleep
I'd uproot those dahlias
Until every last stem was gone
And now
You collapse in my arms
And you don't know why.