Echoing screams are no louder than soft whispers when drowned out beneath a mouth full of cotton.
Once, a heart with a shell of gold had been chipped away to show the ****** beating interior beneath in which is now rotten.
A kind smile that once danced across the lips of a warm hearted angel reflects in a broken china doll.
A dear young child who had her dreams crushed and had been taken away from it all.
A cold blade glistened brightly against the pale color of the room.
How was this young angel supposed to know her cry for help would lead her to her doom.
A broken heart is one, the shattering of her heart is another.
So many new types of pain is what she would soon discover.
It was such a lonely day in which was mine.
The kind of loneliness that puts together a work of pain and agony that is so divine.
This day is one that should have been banned….
This day is one I cannot stand
So let the lies slip through the teeth of trusted guides
And see the crimson that creeps beneath the one door in the house in which misery hides.
For lies do more than rip the heart, they take innocence and soil it to its core.
A beautiful young angelic soul exists in this child no more.

Silence.... Quiet.... Shut your ******* trap!
What would make you think I'll be held down by this strap?
Release me! Free me! Or I'll **** you too!
You better unleash me or I'll be the end of you
All I did was quiet his scream in which I heard from his heart.
He was begging to lose his life, even from the start.
His clock would not stop ticking, and my ears soon did grow soar.
So I took my knife, cut off his head and threw it out the door.

This cannot be, must be a dream!!!
This cannot be as it seems....
They're hooking up the chair and the lights keep flashing bright.
The smell of burning flesh and hair are filling up this night.
I cannot be slayed, I refuse to die this way.
I will survive and **** for one more day!!!!

Father please forgive me
I had to break free from the pain and agony
Now that I’ve done what I have to
Remember, I will always love you
I’m your child….

Little boy, talking so mean…
Come face the fire, and you’ll never be seen

I killed! (After midnight)
I ran (A few miles)
He died (it was a big fight)
I was numb! (For a while)
He screamed!(I won’t give up)
In pain! (I won the last hit)
My god (His soul won’t shut up)
I killed your other child….

“I can’t stand you here!”
“You make momma cry in fear”
“It’s not your voice I want to hear!”
That’s when he cried one last tear….

Little brother, playing so *****
I’ll destroy your mind, your blood’s so pretty….

I killed! (After midnight)
I ran (A few miles)
He died (it was a big fight)
I was numb! (For a while)
He screamed!(I won’t give up)
In pain! (I won the last hit)
My god (His soul won’t shut up)
I killed! (After midnight)
I ran (A few miles)
He died (it was a big fight)
I was numb! (For a while)
He screamed!(I won’t give up)
In pain! (I won the last hit)
My god (His soul won’t shut up)
I killed your other child….

A feeling in my heart, fast as lightning striking the ground
So much passion, but you hear no sound
Losing all control
I can feel it in my soul
Determination is overpowering.

Close your eyes and feel it within
Let yourself travel to where you’ve been
Don’t stop till the world is in your hands
For then the world is under your command
Determination is adrenalizing.

Tear down the halls
Burn down the walls
Scream and shout
Till the lights go out
Determination is everything.

I feel a little lost, but that’s okay
I can make it another day
But everyday I wake I am in this room of white walls and I need room to breathe
But no one will let me out, no one will set me free

Instead I fight to maintain what makes me smile.
This fight has been going on for a while
Always afraid if I let go I’ll lose even more
I don’t have much else left to take in store

I know I mess up, I know I fail
But if I didn’t succeed to fail, I’ll always fail to succeed and prevail
Though the costs are so much, And there’s not much more they can take
Cause I’ve broken so much from my own mistakes

But now I need room to breathe, I really do!
Trust me these white walls would drive you crazy too!
I almost prefer the strict ways of Aurora to this, for at least they let me leave the room.
And there’s so much to do there that I don’t contemplate how I will meet my doom.

But I need room to breathe cause this life is suffocating.
Sitting at a desk with my work done, I stay waiting.
This is no life for someone my age.
Everyone else is out in the world exploring and finding their place.

Yet here I sit, empty and alone. My heart beat beginning to fade.
Wishing they would hear me and the words in which I say
But their parental instincts say locking me up is best.
Keeping me from the world that “I can’t handle” and telling me to rest.

I’m done resting for sleep is driving me mad!
My sweet dreams have now all gone bad.
My body is screaming, telling me it needs out.
And for now the only thing I can tell it is not to shout.

I need room to breathe or I’ll die from loss of breath
And that to me is not a peaceful death
But it’s ok, I understand
I guess I did get locked away by my own hand………

Look into their eyes, what do you see?
When I look at them, I see me
Maybe that is because they are my art and mine shall they stay
For each of my girls are my memories being washed away

Expressed in worlds not seen by people in their minds
Maybe because when I think, my creativity unwinds
It is my escape from this dull reality of nothing but white wall
For my worlds on cardboard, paper, and canvas gets rid of it all

I see a life of adventure and happiness
Feelings in my life which I forcefully suppress
Each girl is happy with her marks so unique
Each girl is more like a tiger but in reality people are like sheep

I want to be my ghost girls for they let their colors shine
Each one of their happy faces are quite real and divine
That’s the secret behind the happiness I seek, they are what I wish to be
For like I said, each of my ghost girls hold a little happy piece of me

Until I can be a ghost girl myself, I will draw more genuine beautiful girls of my dreams
For that is my only happiness it seems
I don’t find happiness in doing things, you’ve got it all wrong
I find happiness in being a tiger, an individual girl with a heart that is strong

My hair as my pelt, piercings as stripes
Until that day comes, there is more to draw and more to type
So awaiting in the dull room of white
I suppose it is the ghost girls stories I should write

I found a love I cannot have
I found a love in which I want so bad
I found a love so pure inside
I found a desire I wish to hide

A shot at love is so hard to obtain
A shot at love is nothing easy to gain
A shot at love is so easy to destroy
I wish my love was worth more than a useless toy

He said to me with widened eyes
He said to me a bunch of lies
He said to me in a voice more bubbly and sweet than Fanta
That my true name is Romanta

This name means that of a broken heart
This name means I have no place to start
This name means I will never find true love
So now I wonder if this name is something I can rise above

Is it true I will never feel a sense of safety in the arms of a man?
Is it true that this name is the truth in which I've been ******?
Is it true my heart is eternally shattered, never to be mended?
Is it because this is what he has commanded?

I won't let my heart be shattered
I won't let my life not matter
I won't let myself give up hope
I'm not letting go of life's rope!

I will hold on for dear life
I will never again cut with that knife
I will give myself a life in which happiness will find me
I am not bound, I am setting myself free!

So let the memories of him fade
So let my life turn a different shade
So let it be when I see his face, the day I do not see a person I know
For the look and memory of him, I shall let go

RUN!
The girl's legs gave in beneath her, her hand releasing her wounded side
RUN!!!!
Then came a screech
"No!"
Came the cry of a petrified mother
"Kiersten!!!"
A family howled in unison as they rushed to the side of the fallen girl
silence
Blood eased from her body and onto the floor showing she was no more
silence
Devastated looks, glossed over eyes, pale and horrified faces grew in numbers
They're here...*
Came sirens with police, ambulance in close pursuit, but they're too late
darkness
I still hear them, but I see them no more, it looks like I have truly died
no more senses*
I can't believe I actually went through with suicide.....

I am realizing I seem to be a toy
Passed on from boy to boy
Told I'm loved by one, then by many
None of them meant it, not any
I am just a doll that is a common interest for no more than a second
I feel like my sanity is being threatened
I have feelings, but then I don't, confused and hurt by each guy
Driven by a passion to believe each and every lie
I want to be loved and that's why I follow
But left here in a puddle of my own tears I shall wallow
Till the next guy walks bye with his sweet word
Only to yet again cause my mind to flutter like the wings of a bird
Believing yet again that he could be the one
Just to break up the next day, week, month to see that we are done
A toy I am and a toy I shall be
And if it continues, these boys will see
When you break a toy there is a consequence
And I will burn the memory of myself in their conscience

Pale and heartless was my last man
If anyone could break me, I know he still can
I watched as it was my own heart he began to shred
Loving him is like loving the dead
I began to fear and lost my love for him
Our future in which he described "was beginning to grow dim"
He believed in taming the beast, but he did not succeed
For he was bested by his own greed
Not studying the beast he went for its heart
But you can't hunt a creature if you don't know where to start.
You need to know the beast if you wish to attack.
And intelligence seemed to be what he lacked.
Like I said, trying to love him is like loving the dead
And now I lay within my tear soaked bed.
Ill of a broken heart I hate to say that I cry
I sob because I still wonder why
Why is his heart so dead inside?
Why was it that I decided to hide?
From his undesirable love in which he attempted to express
I mean he did at least try to make progress
But you can't just simply shock something back to life
If we could how many men would bring back their wife?
Would he bring me back if I were shot with a gun?
I need to stop thinking of it for he and I are done....

In my dreams I see her face
With each stride I see her beauty and grace
When she passes through the hall
I feel my heart begin to fall
I know when she looks at me
That's as close as we will ever be
It's been one dark year
And the more I follow her the more I fear
My heart will break when she's gone cause she never saw my love
I wish I could ask the skies above
Why memories of her can't be real
And why she can't feel the way I feel
But I guess I'll just have to let her pass
Cause hopefully my love for her won't be a love that lasts.....

Why so serious?
Learn to take a joke!
Like a pencil disappearing,
I'll make you laugh so hard you'll choke!

If my jokes don't make you laugh I can at least make you smile.
Just look at mine, it'll never fade away!
I'll just take this pretty knife to your face,
And you too can smile everyday!

Oh hush dear officer, if it makes you feel better I'll tell you how I got mine.
My daddy told me one day to "put a smile on my face" but he did it for me.
And since then now my smile's wide and my eyes shine.
Besides officer, at least you'll live! (For now that is)

Oops, haha sorry, I didn't mean to cut you there
Officer you move a lot. But if you want random cuts, I don't care.
Just as long as I can still give you that pretty smile,
That I know, will last for a while
Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!
~Love the Joker

Zippers are like hearts
They do inde ed tear apart
But when they do    they zip back up
Because not everythi        ng breaks like a cup
No, hearts heal            and zip up too
And my heart zipped          up and lead me to you
So zippers are a sign to m       e that everyone has to heal
And eventually face    what they see as real
Cause eventually everyone   will have to zip up their heart
And find a new place to start
Just as this poem zipped itself up just for you to read
So go on, zip up your heart and go do a good deed!

So you wish to **** someone without a single touch
Without hurting them physically but just as much
As though it were a bullet to the head
Yet you don't wish to have them end up dead
Just hollow within and have them end up like you
Well it is so simple! The steps to take are only two
Show them their true colors, show them their inside
That is when they'll run and hide.
Next show them the pain they caused another friend
And that will be their very end.
People don't wish to see their cruelest of mind
For once they do they begin to unwind.
The inside tears us apart.
So when we see it, we end up having nowhere to start.
We're just as dead inside instead of out.
Not enough energy to let out a shout.

Blue hair, ripped jeans
That's just one style of the scenes
Black dress, red eyes
People judge based on lies
Green hair, pierced up lips
When I see them, my heart skips
My friends are the odd ones out
When told to be silent they are the ones who shout
You can't hold them back cause they are free
I love them cause they're like me
If you fight one you fight us all
And don't be shocked if you fall ;)

I want to be as pretty as a picture, but I'm as round as a ball.
I would do whatever it takes to have it all.
Cut into my flesh and carve a perfect frame,
Paint my face for the desire of fame.
I want to be perfect like the other girls
Skinny and beautiful, wanted by the world.
So I dream of a figure I'll never get.
Cause how I look is already set.
You can't change ugly, but you can change weight.
But that still won't fix what I hate....

Talented was this girl I knew
She could easily sneak up on you
Quicker than speed, more silent than light
She will forever know she cannot lose her fight
I shared a secret that was quite deep
A secret I know she still will keep
She is a friend I will never lose to any mere boy
She is more to me than pride and joy
I'd lose my life for this friend of mine
For her friendship is quite divine
I owe her my life for she saved me
And I promise you I'll be there for you Marcella, wherever you may be....

Beautiful and elegant is this beast
Often found within the forests off to the east
His eyes so dark like pools of rain
I wonder if he will show himself again
Power behind his paws, determination within his eyes
His fur so long and wild, the ultimate prize
I love him so much, I really do quite like him
But I fear the closer we get, his future becomes more dim
For I envy his gift, I want his spirit so bad!
It's all I crave, even if it was the only I could have.
I'd trade him my life it it were an option
But life doesn't work like an auction
So I'd have to steal it to have it, despite my love
Once I take it, he'll return to the heavens above.
My greed is speaking loud and clear.
So loud that he must be able to hear.
Yet there he sits with his glowing eyes
As though he does not care in whose hands his body lies.
So with a rifle I take aim.
And take his life, his body mine to claim.
I'm sorry dear wolf, I feel much shame.
For I do not wish to soil your name.
In honor for your courage and giving me your life.
I will not bring towards your body a jagged knife.
Pride is not the feeling I receive
Anger in guilt is what it is, I believe.
Dear wolf, I say this to you as a friend
I will never **** another ever again......

Take a bite!
Have a taste!
How dare you say no!
What a waste!
One bite won't **** you!
Well not that you will ever know.
Just please taste it!
Once you do, I'll let you go
There you have it!
It wasn't that bad right?
Ha! Fool! It was poisoned!
Now you're turning white.
Why did I do this?
Because I was the fairest before you arrived!
So to come to my former glory,
I had to **** the person in which this beauty thrived.
Sorry it had to be this way little child,
I didn't wish to harm you this way....
Oh wait, of coarse I did!
I'm just so glad that I had finally succeeded today.
I'll leave you to rest,
For you won't be living in a minute,
I mean you're practically already dead!
So just lay down and let your eyes shut.
I am the queen, fairness and all.
Snow White, you were destined to fall.

Heart wrenching feeling
A thirst for blood
Whose life am I stealing?
And who will lose their bud?
Torture is a must in the game of life
All tortures include the pain of a simple knife

Quick with silver
Slash of red
Upon the floor
They lie dead
Killed by fear
Though they tried
Their screams I still hear
For I watched them die
My hands are stained with sin
Though I can't recall it all
I knew where I had been
And I knew who was to fall
They tried to control a power they will never forget
A power that had won
A power I regret
Their fear caught within their eyes
Their pale figures drained of their soulful lies
They pressed their luck when they pulled the chains
Nothing left of them but blood stains
Goodbye all, I wish you farewell
For you may be next, only time will tell....

You don't care, not at all
You wouldn't hold on you'd let me fall
You wouldn't save me
You'd let me drown
All because you're afraid of being dragged down

Crying herself to sleep, there she lies
No one there to hear her cries
No one to whom her soul ties
Left alone in her mind until she dies

A little girl who feels so used
An innocent child in which men abused
Leaving her in tears upon her knees confused
To be happy she soon refused

Paranoia and fear filled her mind
Her self conscious soon to unwind
Leaving all her sanity behind
As they watch the horror of her life rewind

A dagger in her hand
This is her last stand
Release is what she wished to demand
All just to die by her own hand