i reached for your hand
and suddenly i was
lost
in the stars with
you

i hope one day you
find a place
that doesn't leave you
feeling
homesick.

•|||°

my walls are not built
for the same reasons
as yours.
they were built to protect
myself from my own head

•|||°

i've changed every lock on my home to keep you from
shattering everything i've built
so please do not come knocking
because it will take everything
i have inside
not to open the door and let you in.

this is the three seconds
before the floor breakd
and i'm pulled into the hurricane
of every thought inside my head

my head and my heart is at
war before i can call your name
but i think that
maybe this is ok
because now i have a 200 page poetry book
with your name written on every page
and the story of us written in ink
but i'm bleeding because the paper
cut into my skin a little too deep
and the words tore into my heart

i was too late to love you and
admit to you that you were the one
thing i have yet to give up on
but now my heart is only bleeding
on the edges of the words
"i don't love you"

now the three seconds are up
and suddenly i'm thrown into the hurrican my mind has created
in hopes to win against
the force of my heart

there are parallels
between you and
the stars.

•|||°

every part of me
convinced my heart that
i loved you
but in the end i only wanted to be in control;
i wanted to grip your hand so tight
you couldn't slip through my fingers
and i know that's selfish of me to say
but i don't want you to think
i actually loved you

because when i love,
i break; every promise, every foundation, every piece of your soul
until a broke heart and hazy eyes
are all that's left of you because
i don't know how to
love
without
destroying