every part of me
convinced my heart that
i loved you
but in the end i only wanted to be in control;
i wanted to grip your hand so tight
you couldn't slip through my fingers
and i know that's selfish of me to say
but i don't want you to think
i actually loved you

because when i love,
i break; every promise, every foundation, every piece of your soul
until a broke heart and hazy eyes
are all that's left of you because
i don't know how to
love
without
destroying

perhaps the best way
to understand
ourselves,
is to understand
nature
and all that surrounds us.

i've been told i have
irrational fears of
drowning;
heights;
and burning alive;
but there's been one
situation where
i have fearlessly
faced each one
of these fears

i submerged myself
in your waves
fell for you and trusted
you would catch me
before i hit the pavement
and
i let the flames from your
fingertips touch my skin,
trusting you will not let
me go up in flames
so maybe love is the
only conqueror of these
fears
or maybe it's just
y o u

maybe i jumped
too soon

~but you said you would
c
   a
     t
       c
         h
        
             m
                 e.

•|||°

the stars weren't
the only celestial
bodies
that aligned.

our souls did too

•|||°

she spoke
as if there
were colors
running through
every word.


i spoke
as if i had
a blade for
a tongue.

•|||°