it’s hard to look you in the eye
i’m afraid you’ll see how  f r a g i l e  i’ve become

i fell in love with those nights we spent
chasing the sunset in your old silver jeep
with the windows rolled down, our favorite songs
playing on the radio and the smell of
opportunity in the fresh evening air

it’s moments like these that remind me
how lucky i am to be alive.

      -   and with you.

it’s unfair for me to be upset at you
for not liking me how i like you, really  
because you have no idea how i feel about you  
maybe if i ****** it up and said, hey, i like you
a switch would turn on in your mind and
you’d start to notice the little things about me
the way i’ve noticed them about you  
and maybe that little bit of attention
could flower into something more
something that i’ve always wanted with you  
a chance
a chance that you’ll fall in love with me, too

i think i’ve always known deep inside that you and i was never going to happen
but even though my mind is telling me that
my heart is telling me
yes yes yes
because everytime i look at you i feel something inside
that i haven’t before
and i know how cliche that sounds but
i truly cannot get my mind off of you
you are unlike any other boy i’ve ever seen
and not just because your eyes are bluer than all the rest but
because you make me feel like sunshine
even though you’re not even mine
can you imagine how bright we’d be combined

1. you may feel that your feelings are illogical.  you may feel stupid for even having them in the first place.  don’t.  you have every right to every feeling you are feeling.
2. getting the feelings to go away will be difficult.  the more you think about how you wish you didn’t have them, the longer you will.  it’s okay.  you’ll move on eventually.
3. you may have thought they were perfect, the only one for you.  that will fade.  soon you’ll find the real one who will be everything you thought they were and more.
4. breathe.
5. remember that in a few years, they’ll just be someone you used to know.
6. silently watching them with someone else will eat you up.  it will hurt more than anything.  you’ll feel alone and overdramatic for feeling so much for them.  in these times especially you need to do all you can to get them out of your mind.  i know it’s hard.  find an outlet; surround yourself with friends; indulge in reading or running or whatever you like to do.  focus on yourself and not them.
7. breathe.
8. breathe.
9. breathe.
10. you know deep inside that they are just a tiny corner of the big picture.  everything will be okay.  tell yourself that every day.

i fell in love with a boy
whose skin was as smooth as the surface of the ocean
and whose smile looked like the summer sun.  
he burned so bright he melted me
into a puddle of longing for him every night.  
when we were apart i couldn’t focus
on anything else but finding my way back to his arms,
and then when i did it was like i hadn’t seen him for weeks.  
he was the first person i ever let in,
the first person i showed all my flaws,
and in return he gave his all to me.  
we spent hours on end mending each other’s faults,
trying to heal the broken parts of our hearts.  
our love was as beautiful as the setting sun

i try not to blame her
she makes you happy
and if you deserve anything
it is to be happy but
every time i see your eyes light up at her
brighter than they ever did at me
there’s a pang of aching jealousy that
hits me and my stomach drops to the floor
i wish i could be her
i wish i had her long blond hair,
perfectly shaped lips and thin hips
i wish i could’ve made you as happy as
she makes you.

soon i’ll be gone from your memory
i’d like to say the same for you of mine but
i know the thought of you kissing her will be
enough to keep me up at night for weeks

it’s not her fault, it’s not her fault, it’s not her fault
(is it mine?)