I met my soulmate years ago
A love I never got the chance to know
However I try to push past it
I just can't seem to mask it
All my attempts to numb this pain
Strand me to shoulder my own blame
All these conversations all this history
So well known yet such a mystery
Even as I pen this line
I know she will never be mine
Love is simply complicated
In a sea of souls I'm isolated
Somehow not myself without her
There will always just be something about her

Sweating so much and gasping for breath
I need to express the words I have left
and nothing can explain
how I feel in the rain
that washes my face
when I feel out of place
and help is a hand of a sojourner
who knows what it means to be a mourner
Time and time again
I learn what it means to end
I wish I could dance to express my view
but dancing is entirely new
and I feel that it us too late to start
but its okay because art is art
With an outstretched hand I reach
for a partner that would be willing to teach
until that day I'll dance in the rain
it's the only thing to wash away the pain
So can my feet move tonight
with loving care toward the light

They asked me what
my heaven would look like.
At first I hesitated in
a fear of being blasphemous.

Then I said that heaven
would be a thousand
Sunday mornings with
fresh sheets and a pretty girl.

It would be that summer hit
on an endless loop
from the year we thought
would never cease to end.

Perhaps it would be
back on Lombard Street
back before my heart got heavy
and souls got dark.

Heaven will bring back
the innocents that was
lost, the same we thought
could never be returned.

Best of all heaven will be
you in a sundress;
young and smiling,
and completely free.

Love’s a ship and my heart your castaway                                            
You are my wonderful weekend getaway
Lost in your eyes, pretending not to see
The love that we share, just you and me
Your skin glistens with the oceans spray
Speaking in words we don’t have to say
Driftwood burns until the early morning light
When embers spread and fade from our sight
For the flames of our love die quiet and alone
To be rekindled again diving into the unknown
The taste of the ocean on lips that are wet
I see that I am endlessly caught in your net
The sunset in your eyes like fire on the ocean
When I look inside they reveal your emotion
When you look back into mine, try not to forget
Because you saved me, I am forever in your debt
© J.Ray 2.1.2016

I'm ready to step out
i guess i always was
but was too scared
to face the fact that
i am not the only person on this planet
with a life worth living

i am ready for sacrifice
of time, money, and comfort
i am ready to be free
of the fickle judgements of others
i am ready to reach out
and enjoy me
and pour into others
and pray for real
and be legit
and dream
and work
and fight
and make life a journey
of thought and sacrifice
and love

Away from you a year has passed,
They all tell me " happy new year!! "
The end of a year I survived with fear,
How much I tried to hide that tear,  

Away from you like desert and rain,
In the wish to see you I go through pain,
Not knowing it is in vain that I wait,  
As you are now an enemy to my state,  

The rain didn't come the desert turned dead,
I smiled before now I'm depressed instead,  
Gave you my heart not using my head,  
I love you I'll never regret what I said,

My love for you was extremely deep,
I was crazy in love but not  a creep,
Wishing to see you in every dream,
If I don't see you tonight  forever I'll sleep,


© AROODY2016

           For 28 March 2016