I'm choking down my self worth,
why are the ropes to far away;
Can't you throw farther?
I was set up, why can't you see?
Why must I plea;
Look! I'm down on my knees.
I've worked so hard,
And come too far...
Just to have this pure
Essence of light,
Tarnished.
You will NOT succed!
I wont have it!
The world doesn't DARE
Tear us from each other...

SO . WHY.  WOULD . YOU.

answer meme you spineless fiend!

We are critical.

We find flaws in
everything we see
because nobody
wants to write
about perfection,
even though sometimes
we wish we could just stay
staring into that
unblemished surface.

2. We are never satisfied.

We live our lives upon
mountains of
scrunched up
bits of refill and
ideas we gave up
trying to
express.

3. We never forget.

We write words about
eye contact made
three months ago
that we replay over
and over in our minds
even though it
stopped
being relevant.

4. We are fickle.**

Our emotions flash
from one
to the other
like strobe lighting that
disorientates us
until we feel as if
the world
will never be still.

5. We are exposed.

We don't know how
to keep our feelings
to ourselves so
we'll write them
down for
you to find
'accidentally'.

6. We are vulnerable.

We wear our
hearts on our sleeves
and won't lift a
muscle to fight back
if somebody tries
to break it
because we thrive
from the pain.

7. We will never stop.

We will never stop
feeling and
we will never stop
hurting,
we will never stop
breaking and
bleeding and
loving
even though the cycle
is endless
and we know what's
coming next.


We are addicted
to agony,
but we agonise
for the art.

I grow up in your garden
full of harmonic noise
I linked those then
and destroyed those that dared to fall

My garden is full of flowers
from poppies to battles
we are children of attitude
broken musical geeks

Oh we played the game
most with sydomism names
battled for the a want
in the flower garden of beauty

We fight most furious
a insurrection of the norm
we don't do
in the name of Jesus

Flower garden beauty
see I am strict to you
and I only break
when my last breath dies


By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

You tricked me
Made me believe there was something
Yet, here I am
With no light to guide me
Feeling like nothing
I loved you, still do
But something's changed in you

I thought you were a lighthouse
Out of reach, maybe
But guiding me to safety...
Turns out you were the wind
Causing waves of hurt
To crash over me

Now the light has dimmed
And I can't find my way
Not without you
But you led me astray
I'm drowning, dying,
I can't breathe
And "I'm sorry" was all you had to say

I don't need you
I've seen others sail on their own
How hard can it be?
But my muscles are weak
My lungs are filling with salt
That spills out of my eyes
I can't do this alone

But that's how you've left me
To fare the dreadful ocean waves
With a broken sail and no mast
Joining lost souls in watery graves
Because your bright light never shone past

You're dead inside
I see it now, clear as the light
You stole from me
There was no lighthouse,
Just me, chasing after a dream
That I didn't really need
And now there's only darkness
As far as I can see

Something that stands out so completely;* Resilience, is not so very discreetly kept locked away from the planets you shine on, to their envy. ~~ *Frank Ruland

Yes, I shine
I smile
I carry on through the days
But my light gets dimmer
Each passing moment
With nothing to shine on
I simply fill darkness with light
I don't bring anything
Those planets that envy?
They're crazy...
I shoot past,
The speed of light
(really fast)
What is there to be jealous of?
My speed...
My strength...
My bright, shining glow...
That may be so,
But what are all these things worth
If I have to do it all alone?



Absolutely Nothing

She can't stop
It's uncontrollable
She just wants to turn it off
She just wants a switch
Turn them off for good
All emotions...
Especially love
For forever
It only causes her pain
Unrequited love
The worst of all
"Friend Zoned"
Backed against the wall
Last attempt
Wasted down the drain
She watches it swirl down
Then drops the knife
Sinking sowly to the ground
No heart + No life
= nothing, empty
and she's finally happy

finally snow fell onto the ground
landing softly and safely on its white blanket
they say white is purity, innocence, wholeness and completion

when i saw the white wall sinking to the floor
i thought of you
your eyelids fluttering shut resembled the snowflakes
so delicate and fragile as my heart
crash
break
sliding
slipping
pained
blood

dripping to the floor
flags of patriotism
pink
a beautiful swirl
of wind and colour and snow,
finally

sometimes,
i'll taste myself
like you asked me to that night,
but a little slower.
i'll trail my fingers across my lips
and dig deep into my imagination
until i can almost feel you kissing me.