S - Hello Poetry

S Aug 5

Hurt

I look for you
in the background of
photos of our mutual friends.

For some reason I want
to see you and know
that you are okay,
despite the fact that
you hurt me so bad.

I guess we can’t choose who hurts us,
but we can choose who we love.

#heartbreak #love #longing #loss #relationship

S Aug 2021

Pharmacy Line

While I stood there-
I swore I saw you sitting, waiting too,
but you had long hair (which would be strange, even for you)-
And when you did passes by I realized that it wasn’t you-
But oh-
did I wish it was you.

#double #lost #love #depression #new #york #pharmacy

S Aug 2021

Dissociation

If I dissociate any longer
I’m scared that there will
not be anything left to come
back to.

#anxiety #depression #trauma #response #dissociation #hurt #sad

S Jun 2021

Crisis

It’s too early in the night
for an existential crisis-
yet here we are.

#dread #anxiety #depression #panic #fear #hopelessness

S May 2021

Last Time

This will be the last time that I ever write about you.

#goodbye #acceptance #final #heartbreak #depression #coping #embracing #life

S May 2021

Trust Fall

I am not afraid to live- for I have lived.
I am not afraid to die- for I have died.
All I can do- when faced with oblivion,
is stand with my arms outstretched-
and fall.

#death #life #acceptance #embracing #free #fall #oblivion

S Apr 2021

See Me

I was there-
I emoted-
I read-
I tried-
But why-
can't anyone-
acknowledge-
the-
work-
the-
acting-
I-
have-
done-
?

I mean, I'm not desperate for attention but an acknowledgement would be nice ya know?

#theater #performance #invisible #selfdoubt #actress #worthy #worthlessness