RMBDUBS

RMBDUBS Apr 2015

Silence

I thought you were dead
or close to it.
And I cried for days
Did you hear?

I tried to be silent for you.
Be strong for you.
Have healing hands for you.

You tried to be strong, too.

You tried to smile
And laugh
And cuddle
Like an old basset.

Your eyes gave you
Away.

They still do sometimes
Fill with flecks of crystal
And become the ocean.

A warm ocean
that basks in the heat
but knows it’s
a warning
Of what’s to come

And feels guilty for knowing the sun.

Any comments y'all have would be much appreciated

#sad #lost #strength #wanting #support

RMBDUBS Apr 2015

Burned

My eyes were fire
and they hurt
But you were awfully chilly.
If you just got a little closer, maybe-

You told me I was beautiful
And I knew it was a lie
But it meant I was worth
Lying to, didn’t it?-

You said you’d fight till the end
I pretended to believe you
Pretended so hard
I scalded my insides

I said I was a bad dream
An echo of the girl you wanted
You chuckled and said you knew
But you couldn’t, could you-

You wanted an angel
I gave you a harlot
A Lohan Mary Magdalene
Wrapped in a mask of candlelight.

I didn’t mean to hurt you, Dear.
I wish that wasn’t a lie
I wish you were a fairytale
And that I were not an
Arsonist.

Sorry this kinda *****

#love #sad #depression #fire #lost #angel #romance #burn #apology

RMBDUBS Apr 2015

Break

Break it
it’s what’s wrong
break it.
Do it.
Waiting?
Do it.
Do it till it can’t
be done anymore
Break it apart
till it bleeds.
Beaten
Bulldozed
Battered
Burned
Busted
Bruised
******
Broken

Beautiful.

Alliteration!

#depression #dark #hurt #blood #inspiration #alliteration #bruise #creepy

Apr 2015

Laura Jane

Conversation between The Predator and The Prey

PRD: What did you think of the dinner?
PREY: I really don’t know how to answer that
PRD: Did you get new glasses?
PREY: I keep having this dream where I go to touch you and your whole body falls apart right in front of me. I'm screaming and screaming but then you somehow turn into a lake. I swim in it for ages and I wake up crying because even though it was a dream there is no way to make the feeling un-real

shuffling is heard. A drawer opens and closes

PREY: What are you going to do with that?
PRD: I’m going to shut you up
PREY: please please do

#love #fear #life #pain #relationships #hurt #power #*** #complicated #giving

RMBDUBS Apr 2015

Solution

Claw
at the problem
till it’s so big
You can crawl inside.

#sad #depression #inspiration #claw

RMBDUBS Apr 2015

Flaw

A flaw.
Small.
No one notices, probably.
It’s nothing.
Calm down.
It's fine, calm down.
You’re fine
It’s the spot
not you.
No worries
You’re fine.
People would ****
to be you
to have what you have
your looks
They’d ****.

****
****
****.

#broken #flaws #beauty #perfection #creepy

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