I thought it would be bliss, I never thought about anything falling apart. He was my heart, my forever.
I was so excited every time he walked through the door
I remember his sent, his laugh, his whistle... It sounded like happiness.
The way he embraced me
Made me feel like the only woman in the world.
I just knew he would never hurt me. Did he make me feel safe? Safe was an understatement.
As the years dragged on,
Disagreements arose, issues I thought would be important to him because they were important to me, left him cold. Aloof to me.
His temper grew with each year, it seemed to bring the house down.
The children and I never knew how to walk on those egg shells.
Making too much noise, saying the wrong thing, doing the wrong thing.
Uncomfortability became our life,
Wine became my best friend.
Singing was an outlet I cherished, I would never blow up as long as I could sing.
The separation was the longest and hardest suicide.
The divorce finished me.

I might die tomorrow.

I am 5, & I don't know my family. I was born like this.
They say my life is in gods hands,
but I don't know what God is? God if you are there, will you please send me an angel?

I heard angels are beautiful.

A lady came today, she said I was so pretty. She told me she would take  me somewhere special where they would take care of me, is she your angel?

3 days later I was on the ocean, shoved into a train car on a boat. All of us, children,
we need baths, we need food. She lied, we are not safe.

Oh no! Where am I?
This place doesn't look clean,
this is scary, now I am in a cage like an animal!
We all are, all the children around me, they are crying... they are not safe,
we are so sad,
they are hurting.
Where am I?

It is so dark in here, it is so cold. Please bring help,

I might die tomorrow.

Please send me an angel.
please send me an angel.