I wish I was as cool as you,
Listening to Issues and Blink 182.
You think you have the right to mock,
You don't know how strong I am.
How I can hit like a man would,
How I wouldn't be your manipulated toy

the nicest person in the entire world,
someone who stands her ground when her views are questioned,
the best friend because I will always put you before myself
always the friend who gives up her coat to a friend if they need it,
the shy kid with the loudest laugh.
The most giant clingy loving human being

the friend who gets replaced first
the friend who tries to figure out when it all went wrong
the friend who depends so much that she loses herself
the friend who realizes she is nothing special
the person who never stops crying when she's replaced,
the person who asks "why" over and over until my lungs give out

the person with the most love to give,
someone who loses everyone easily
someone who says I love you and gets nothing back

You did what you did
You crucified me,
You wait in bushes and let your hate breed.
You always watch me like some sort of freak of nature,
I feel you under my skin,
I can feel your every sin rubbing me raw
Stick nails through my palms and cut me limb for limb

I broke up with him,
I broke off that tie,
I have no friends,
and I want to die.
Not one second of my day feels good,
not one second feels alright.
I am alone, I am a mistake.

You came up on me and abducted my heart,
The most valuable ***** a girl has,
Besides the thing between her legs,
At least thats what they say,
If my hope is lost then how can I breathe,
I'm pushed under water with your hand,
Your hand cupping my cheek.

If you ever showed a sliver of love,
It was never towards me.
I was never your favorite web to spin,
I was always the best one to devour,
I'd let you come back for seconds,
Thirds
Fourths
Fifths sometimes  if you weren't satisfied
You leave me black and blue in a way no one can see.
So no one would ever know

I mean this,
please never let one person dictate your life
please never let one human decide whether you are happy or sad,
never give someone that power over you,
you have that power
please never give yourself to somebody
unless you know they love you too
please

I do not belong on this Earth,
every morning and every night I wake up with the same feelings
the feelings of, "how is today going to be any different from yesterday?"
and then I remember
It wont be.
I will wake up at 9:34 and I will eat too much breakfast,
I will go downstairs and run off the calories because I have fat arms
I will not eat again until 2:45 and then I'll eat.
I will go downstairs again and run off the calories.
I will eat dinner four hours later and I will feel fine, I will feel full.
I will not go run it off because I still want time to get ready for bed.
I will get in bed at 7:45 and stay up for six hours,
milling on the internet or watching TV,
I will end up crying by around 12:07 because I realize that I have accomplished nothing in my life,
and that I never will.
And that I am an extra person on this earth that you pass on the road,
I am the extra person with two friends because thats all I feel is right
I am the extra person who eats in class and thinks of how to run it off
I am the nicest person until you realize that I am nothing special.