To live


The radiance of your smile tonight is an intoxicating drug
As you stood in the middle, I was engulfed by an epiphany
You are my heaven
You are the first ray of sunlight in my life
Everything about you captures my heart
You are my wish
All my life a part of me felt empty
It longed for a feeling, the feeling that leaped into my heart as I saw you tonight
We have no need for lifelong vows.
Hold me close
I want to feel everything tonight
I wish to dance my heart away tonight
I just want to live!

Lilac clouds veil the crescent silver bow tonight.
The moonlight seeps through.
Madness soars through the sky.
A storm is approaching with the rumbles of thunder.
Rain rushes down from the charcoal sky.
And flashes of lightning crystallize against the darkness.
We lose ourselves in the moment,
knowing another is yet to exist.

She always kept it in.
No matter how much was thrown in her way she took it in.
She carried a heavy burden on her tiny shoulders.
A burden that always anchored her down.
She cried in silence hoping no one would see her tears.
She didn’t want to trouble them with her wounds.  
She masked her wounds, waiting for them to heal.
The scars never fade.
She kept it in, she hid it well.
They failed to understand her pure heart.

The voices in my head that were once just whispers are the only thing I now hear.
They are no longer whispers.
They have taken over.
My thoughts are now playing on a loudspeaker in a loop!
They block out everything that’s happening around me
and I am now just a vessel that’s breathing.

They tell you to be open-minded yet they narrowed what it means to have an open mind.
“Think outside the box,” they say, yet the outside is guarded.
Everything is a big puppet show.
We live, then we die!
In between, we go through so much agony
only to attain this perfect life; a perfect life that yet to exist.
We all play pretend.
Some people find love, some find wealth, some suffer terribly.
I just want to break that chain of a perfect life
I didn’t ask to be a part of this but I was dragged into it.
They claim free will,
but it’s never free will, they hold you down.
We let them define your happiness
perfectly orchestrated by a wheel of illusion.

They all walked on the path that cascades down to a celestial land of light.
I followed them, they looked at me.
Something in their eyes made me feel uncomfortable,
I knew I didn’t fit in.
I walked away to an empty path.
A cold gust of wind sent shivers down my spine.
I looked for light but there was only darkness.
I continued.
Suddenly I could see a light following me but I couldn’t find a source.
I searched but I couldn’t see anything but darkness.
The light followed me.
I stopped looking for the source,
I admired the light.
It shone bright like a cosmic star.
It was never-ending.
I stumbled upon a small pond glistening like a sapphire under the darkness.
Lily pads decorated the pond like a Christmas tree.
I peaked,
I finally saw the light.
It was a reflection: my reflection.
I was the light.
I was like a dog chasing its own tail,
All along I failed to see the light within me.