In the distance
A light began to shine
Sitting on the porch
We waited curiously
A soft tap was heard
The tapping grew louder
As we exchanged glances
A lady’s voice called out to us
“Stop it” She yelled.
In the distance
The light grew brighter and hungrier
As quick as an engine roared to start
The roar just as quickly, came to a halt
Frustrated murmurs
Fists against glass
He wanted his keys
Leave her alone, please
I imagined the stench of his whiskey stained breath
As possible scenarios invaded my head
Was she safe? Was he drunk?
I asked these questions out loud
But I don’t remember any answers
Searching for them myself
I stumbled closer to the sound
Now she was screaming.
Don’t hurt me
Please don’t hurt me
There’s a baby
I had to help her.
Running back towards the group
No memory of talking to them
I’m sure that I did
I only remember
Gritting my teeth
Closing my eyes
Covering my ears
Trying to block out the sound
Her screams and cries for help
Slowly morphed and twisted
Into my brothers voice
His six year old voice
The tapping on the window
Became the rattling of a bunk bed
The woman’s screams and yelling
Became my baby brothers cries for help
I’ve gone backwards.
10 years.
It’s been three days since
I heard her yell
And three days since
his screams began
It’s been three hours since
I took the pill bottle
And three hours since
I put it down again
It was a painful night. I don’t think I can ever put into words how helpless I felt that night. No experience has ever felt as close to my childhood before. The police were called and I think that she’s okay. I’m okay now too thanks to my beautiful friends and partner.