Mattress no longer on my back
I’m on this high again
Your eyes form a dream
From which I chose not to defend

Oh my love
My personal cut
Of homebroken ******

Here we go again
A heart in the race
Hoping to reach the end

Colors swirl around my head
And they sing your sweet testaments
Swirling within liquor like lies
To your sobering truth

Flowing through veins
Sapped of passion
Synapses on overdrive

I look into your eyes
And the skies pull me
Dangling me between heaven and misery

Dripping a sweet soliloquy
From my lips at the sight of you
Here in a purgatory of hope made for myself
Marvelous in its hues

Drugged on the memory
The melody
Praying out of looming loneliness

Here I stand again
Heart on my sleeve
I believe

Here we go again

How
    You
  Fail
Me
So

With words of shattered diamonds
So precious
But are as sand to deserts

    How
They
         Pierce
   My
Sole

Causing me to slow my pace
To stop
A race I am now sure to lose

          I’m
In
    Your
            Control

A simple play thing of no consequence
A grain of sand
Amidst a desert of a trillion billion lies

Some
Day
    I’ll
       Let
           Go

Someday I’ll find me in all of this
I’ve been filled
With ignorance

Diamonds mean little to a heart dying
Of thirst

I wish you could hear the shaking of these bones
To know how brave I am with you, yet scared when I’m alone
My ****** Snacks have all run out and there’s no motivation
Praying my legs keep me up and that there’s no escalation

My mind is the one that drives such thoughts into my head
Suffering from choices that might conclude in accompanying the dead
Fear is all that drives my consistent anxiety
And I long for you, for what I fear is me

View the scenery
The lesser of attractions
Beyond the lights
The stars
And in the vast, the blackness

The backdrop endlessly
Speaking to ears
Not hearing
I feel you out in space
I think of you so clearly

Prayers float from my mouth
Answered, forwarded to voicemail
My ceiling holds spaces
Atoms form me
And my jail

It’s electricity
That makes chemicals in me
The forms the lonely
Forms the empty
Filled with the scenery

I wish for a dreadful thing
Every night
Wonderful though it may be
My pillow by my side
Emulating you laying next to me

Spaces between compose words
Flicked outside by
Movements of my tongue
I dwell in loneliness
And I pray I’m not the only one

Do you feel lonely?
Beyond your street
These scenic stars?
I pray you long for me
In crowded room, still alone you are

I feel this
Aching too
A rowboat in an endless sea
I look in the black
And pray you’re as lonely as me

You should feel as lonely as me...
... tell me she’s as lonely as me

Selfishness fill the darkness
Lines between concrete seas

Help me believe she’s as lonely as me...

I know these thoughts
They arise
Like moons
Eclipsing light of day
I whisper wicked things
Coated in prayers that float away

These eyes
Dare not close
In case miracles start
In front of me
Maybe my wounded heart injures
But I pray you search till you find me

Eternity is brief, love
We have not a moment
To waste
Two hearts scattered in blackness
Leaking words that float to space

I beg forgiveness
I know my folly
I’ve took too long
No map in darkness
Hope dwindles, but I search on

These words divisive
Selfish as they float
Never to be
Retrieved
I pray you’re lonely
And that you search impatiently

I pray you’re lonely
And ever alone, you ache for me...

There is a match
A rage in me
Held in rooms of kerosene
And time itself
Will decide
Who in flame
Will burn

Are you sand?
I ask myself
Are
You
Sand?
I ask
As you run through
My hands
Understand
I love you
Boulder or lesser
I just happen
Not to be
The best guesser

Are you sand?
Burned to clarity?
Do
You
See
Beyond
What they
And even I
Perceive you to
Be?
Just be
Sand shifts
So elegantly
Overlooked
Though vast
Ground
But
Weathering

You
Are
Sand
To me
Do you count
Every
    Single
De-
       Scend-
-ing
Second with me
I lose track
In the
Warmth of you
Ever living
Till
I’m
Sand
Too

We are sand
Ground
Mountain
Traces
Independent
Wrapped embraces
Found in crevices
Of
Places
That we
Unknowingly
Found
Ever
Changing
Yet
Always
On the ground
Only valued
When
We
Are
From shore
To shore
But never far

I know what you are...

Cracked China cup
At a chipped table
Stained cloth dressing
Do you still see
Beautiful
Tell me now
As broken candles
Burn
        On
Down
Broken things
See broken things
And cracks hide
Truth
I see you
This crack’ed thing
And I see you
Beautiful
Lovely you
Cracked
But not outdone
They try to
Break you
Take you
Because you’re the only
One
A cracked cup
That runneth over
But
Can still hold your
Own
Oh precious
How you’ve grown
Setting a place that
You deserve
I pray that
You are filled
Cracks only
Show
When you can’t
Hold

But I’d gladly hold
You