It is what it is until it changes...

Love is a richness that cannot be bought

If I gave myself to you would you keep me? 
Would you be happy with what you see?
Would you take me for all that I am
And all that i cannot be?
Would you love me as they say unconditionally ?
If I gave myself to you would you keep me?

My hearts on your table
I'm lying here unstable
Exposed and bare
Fix me if you care

My feelings in this open space
My hearts starts to race
I listen to yours...it's at a normal pace
Should I read into this or is that my mistake?

If I dig deep within you
Underneath your touch, your warm comforting embrace
Will I see your true face?
Or will the facade continue 
at this known hotel venue

I've fallen for you, I say
You're still here, you haven't gone away
That's also a price to pay....

I drift back to the table
You say little
Can I forget you?  
Am I able?

You worry that I have deep feelings for you 
I pretend it's not true when we both know I am blue

Alone now,  the memory of you still haunts me
Although I am 100 % sure that we cannot be
my broken heart fails to agree 
She wants you more than anything don't you see?

Your glow
It's there
And all so rare
Look deep inside

Expose it so
And let it grow
Release it's spark

A glimmer
A shimmer
It's sparkling oh so bright

Reaching and soaring
Within everyone's sight

It's there
And not so rare
Surfacing always

Time went back today
How I hear you say
It's autumn you see
An extra hour for free

Helping us to rise
Bright mornings in the skies
Greeting us today
We've chosen this change to stay

Some choosing to sleep
And Others to meet 
Resting or enjoying
Its A joyous treat

Clasping these precious 60 minutes
And holding on tight
Enjoying this gift 
with a grateful might

For tomorrow shall be a normal day
No hour gained as such 
But a memory that will remain

My hand I give to you, but my heart belongs to me...

In the hustle of todays life its far too easy to forget how insignificant we are on this sphere that rotates around our mighty Star
Off course we are aware of this rotation but do we really know and consider the Wonder of how and where we are in a point in time
If we were closer to our Star or the majestic sphere had more oxygen than she holds ah we would know it,
but we know not nor do we ponder on the marvels of our Universal life just our single lives

I can't stop smiling
Grinning like someone just told me a joke and the punch line is echoing in my mind
I see onlookers wondering why
Well, I say to myself, the sun is shining on the inside and on the outside.... What a bonus that the sun reflects my mood and when it rains as it will do my inner shine will remain for as long as it does and may even shine down others

The real is becoming so,
The haze lifting,
A gaze at the Universe,
To be breathless again
Senses aroused... I tingle,
Overwhelmed with a grateful sigh,
To be here,
Ah to be here!
No more unconsciousness, just a peaceful sleep and a calm filled day

The birds they celebrate my awakening,
And the Seas they beckon my vision,
I see her glistening as I wonder,
Several blinks but the glistening remains,
I'm on the edge of the shore,
I'm one with her,
We exist in harmony,
This is reality!

While we have nothing much to express to one another....let's allow this state to envelop us....

Feed your soul
She quenches for your thirst
Let her breathe
She's ready to elevate but depends on you
What are you waiting for?

I'm Learning
How to be
With thee
Independent or a little dependent
What's your definition?
What works?
You tell me?
Or can I just
Be me...

Feed your soul
For She quenches for your thirst
Let her breathe
She's ready to touch, taste, see and smell all the world has to give
What are you waiting for?

We know not yet what we are capable of and the beauty will surely be grand,
So soar the skies and feel the elation
for this world is truly yours to land

He said I was amazing,
My eyes now blazing,
I watched as he walked away,
To his home, the Lords bay,
I didn't fit there,
Then where?, I say as I lay
I miss you,
Waiting for these feelings to be through,
But you knew,
You were not with my/our long term view,
For a time you were,
We both concur,
And I knew that the time had come,
But my eyes and head felt numb,
Waiting for the feelings to pass,
The weight feeling like a mass,
Upon my shoulders,
Been hit with a boulder

The dark does not see light
It doesn't exist
The light sees the dark
For that's how the light appreciates itself

It may not matter which way you go.....but what will matter is your perspective on your choice

Experiences are either easy or they help you to grow

This mind can dream of a thousand stars, a sea of galaxies from here to Mars
This mind can dream a thousand deaths, gruesomely freakish till I awaken with scars

Once you learn to be comfortably alone, being in company will be a wonderful gift...

It dawned on me that we only live once....It's not just a saying
The lie I live, its a lifetime commitment  
Got to be free
Free from my thoughts

I'm your button
Round and whole
Attach me on and i'll guard your soul

I can be different sizes and colours too
I'll radiate your life
Like you never knew

And when its dawned just what I can do
Off I'll pop just to annoy you ;)

Wishing that your hear the birds
That you see the sun
But mostly that you hearts at ease
With your soul feeling nothing but elated

It's not love
It's not hate
It's not joy
It's not sorrow
It's a steady stream of unrest and sadness
I'm in between states

You whisper sweet melodies to my ears
Your words and harmonies invite me nearer
I slip through my boundary of restraint
In your arms I hope to fall if I should faint
But the fact remains that you're always a dream away
So I'll think of you often here as I lay

You beckon me and I haste
But this will be the last time I put my heart on the line
The skies are changing and there's a sign
That a lovely goodbye is dawning in the real world
In the fantasy world, of course, we still exist, hearts connected and spirits intertwined
The oneness of the universe felt for eternity between us
But for now its goodbye

The darkness is rarely the end

I tremble
But it's not shaking

When I give to you I give to me

Let not the fear stop you from discovering yourself and going where  you belong

He's sick
He's old
He's all over cold
He's poor
He's tired
He's just been fired
..... He's still ALIVE

Your silence has said more to me than your words ever did

Love is when time stands still but you and I grow old together

Your kindness knew no limits  
Your gentle touch so loving that never got sharp
I was held secure and tight all night
With our close bodies connected
But no slumber fell upon us
just a warmth of protection
Bypassing the sorrow and sadness that existed before you
Now only comfort stood
Most naturally the want soon grew to need
And then need almost met
Until life showed itself again
And in crept the sorrow and the gush of pain
I'm back to me without no you
Just a sweet bitter memory remains
Remember I shall till that fades too

There's more to life than just me, My worries, fears and anxieties,
There's more to life than just me, My wants, needs and desires, 
Yet My reality is all I see,
And my life begins and ends with me,
But hold on a second, when did it ever not?!
Who? What? When? And how?
Will these questions ever stop?
Marvelled by life I continue to think about my life or what I know as my reality!

The most important relationship
You
        Can
                Have
                          Is
                              With
                          
YOURSELF.....

Last night I dreamt of you
You were there alive and bold
And I woke up wishing you were there to hold
Although the dream ended with loosing all my riches
The happiness of you being there had me in stitches
The dream wasn't long nor was it short
It was just enough for me to feel your support
And when I awakened with a smile upon my face
It was the first time in ages I hadn't felt misplaced
So tonight again when my head touches my pillow
I hope you'll join me under the weeping willow

This land is made for living
The dirt, the animals, the aliens herein
The silver moon shines for one and all
And the sun beams with great cause
Birth, growth and sleep, all must experience the journey
This land is made for living

My senses were all I had
Touch, Taste, Smell, See and Hear
But the absence of you has made them disappear
I'm a shadow ,oh how I fade
My heart, heavily weighed
Now unfulfilled and echo less

Help, I yelp from under my breath
Can't you hear me, I pled?
Rescue me, my crying demand ! Take me to another place
Does my silence not awaken you?

Today the rage gushed out of me like  water on tap
And I blame you, the one who made me react!
Seeking your needs and ignoring my own selfish wants,
Tonight I still dwell herein this dark place
That echoes loudly as the silent night greets me
And where peace escapes my reality

Your heart knows exactly what it desires and those beats you hear are not only vital for you to survive but are essential for true living

What is your heart beat telling you?

We were once connected in happiness and sorrow, an attachment that I couldn't fathom

As we grew closer the lines became blurred and joy, anger, hope visited us often

Confusion and pain seemed to have overtaken anything that was before

Then you distanced yourself from me, to save any kind of memory and for focus

I thought I needed you and hoped to be in your life again soon

Time passed and my emotions were erratic, accepting, anger and then one of great loss which you echoed

As I saw you sitting there today, I felt ordinary to you, the connection seemed to have faded or at least my ego felt numb

The thought of you now leaves me analysing what was, what is and what will be

Let the loud voices continue on their own path... Let the whispers of your heart guide you home..

That dull beating of the drum is your Heart....it's time to let it beat!
Hear it, acknowledge it and then follow it!

The clock went tick followed by tock
The years have passed by whilst you've hidden behind that rock

The past is your lesson,
The present is your engine,
The future is your vehicle