the worst part of having a bad day
is not being able to cry it out
the day has been complete ****
all you want is to scream and yell
but you don’t feel anything
you are numb
you can’t smile cause it takes too much energy
but you can’t cry either cause you don’t feel anything
you’re just paralyzed
your heart is aching
and you can’t breathe
can I please just to cry it out the next time?

*(s.m)

i’m so sorry for being such a mess
for not having the right words
or any words at all
but i’m trying
i really am
trying

*(s.m)

I can’t cry anymore
so instead
I just sit there
staring blankly at the wall
and feeling my heart
breaking into a million pieces
and no words are coming out
speechless and heartbroken

*(s.m)

Your skin was born to know mine.

They won't leave me alone.
They keep haunting me.
Telling me things.
"You're worthless"
"You're fat"
"You're ugly"
"No one loves you"
"Go **** yourself already!"
I'm losing more of my sanity everyday.
I wish they would go away.
I'm beginning to believe them.
I am worthless.
I am fat.
I am ugly.
No one actually cares about me.
I should go **** myself.
They make me want t die.
The voices in my head
They won't leave me alone.

You're perfect, let's start there
Your eyes, your smile, your perfect blonde hair

I'm scared to see what you'd say
If I'm honest, you'll run far away.

Frankly, I'm just not good enough
No diamomd, just rough

Your type you say so simply
Is the complete opposite of me

Thin, tall, blonde, perfect
I'm short, fat, brunette, not worth it

If only you could see the inside of me.

i love you,
but you don't
i'd give everything
but you won't

you're my sun
but to you
i'm just a light

it hurts a lot
but i still hope
that maybe you'll feel
what i'm feeling towards you

i want to give up
but i can't
and i don't even know
why

maybe because,
you can't teach a heart
to stop loving someone
who doesn't love you back