It's a sweet escape

It gets me lost in my own high as I glide into temporary paradise

Power is such forbidden aphrodisiac when it pumps through the veins and the more you intake; the more less reality seems fake

As my adrenaline starts to race

Il mio unico desiderio è di amarti

It is a sea of faces which swims in the ocean current of my dreams
All images of him - the man I loved and lost long ago
A veil of wisdom slowly unravels as my mind processes all of his charm drifts into marvel of how we first fell into love
All starting from a one night stand
He adored my seductive curves, as dance in my time, rhythmic, ******, and grace
How we made love as we entered our own paradise time after time
How I wish he could caress my body once more before laying his head on my thighs
We are alone together in a comfortable stillness often known only to lovers
We connected spiritually in tune to each other - a link rarely shared especially from one night alone
For now, let us enjoy this periodic peace
As we feast on each other's carnal desires
Are we destined to be soulmates?
Only time shall tell?

No one wants to be alone (although we rarely admit it)
But there's a distinct difference in alone vs. lonely

Alone is when there is space to relax, unwind, and be yourself
Lonely is when there is no one to vent, care, or feel

When you're alone you feel a sense of relief - to break free from the demands of the day
When lonely, you feel only dread and pain - the added weights and sorrows only to follow tomorrow

Alone and lonely; two truths but distinct paths to tread

We've all been at that level at certain points in our lives

Once I was innocent

A dreamer, I loved you
I stepped so blindly in karmic labyrinth created
I followed your breadcrumbs
Life was perfect and the world reborn
The Empire you've built was seemingly perfect by design is flawed and cracked - how could I be blind?
All this time I've played like a puppet
This empire is no more a pile of cards - card and fragile


It must fall!

Now I wake up to the fire, tripping through ashes and decay
What do you see when you look at me wither away?
Do have feelings for me anymore?
Love me (yet)?
Our love story was blossoming
If only it were true ...
You gave me an adventure I lost my voice (and freedom)

Our love was just an illusion
All this time we were *******

We were hollow shells without souls
Machines without programming
We were nothing
I am a ghost whenever I am with you

Now that you are gone, I am reborn
I disintegrate into nothing but ashes, may the wind carry me away

At least, I am finally free........

Amore è cieco

Whenever we touch or kiss
It's the utmost bliss

Never part from me lover
Aren't our souls intertwined?

Eros is passionate and vibrant
When I can feel you inside of me
Aria transcends into bel canto ascending soprano

Heavenly music fills the air composed of body heat and skin

A Siren visits me in the realm of Somnus
It is she who owns my body as well as my heart
We don't **** - we make love
From a single glance of a soft and tender look, she has me hypnotized in her spell
The voodoo charm she weaves, although I know she's make believe - in my own reality, she's real

Our stamina fueled by a fire
Our limbs lock, intertwine like vines
Our chests pressed together, hands and fingers bound together
I can feel you embrace my skin
Ebbing and flowing like tides on the ocean wave
Your hair feels like the clouds I’ve dreamed to touch
Your eyes are closed, savoring the memory to mind
We’re breathing in the here and now
I never thought I’d want someone so much like breathing air
Your tenderness makes me feel safe
I can feel nothing but fingers and skin exploring and groping
You leave me breathless and gasping
Your kisses are sweeter than wine
Our bodies naturally know what to do

We go far back to the very first time we first made love
This wasn’t merely a ****
Come and let me have your lips, let me taste your fears
I will give you what you need
I feel your skin on mine
Roam my flesh with your soul and worship my body
The thirst will soon be gone
Safe is not just a place, it can be the space inside the body
Open up and I will take you to a different high
I'll show you that heaven is not just a state of mind
Explore me with your kiss, trace the path to hell and sin and I will give you the heaven
Between my hips


I still struggle to find heat in my heart
As the darkness slowly shows itself
My mind and heart go further apart
I laugh at love
No longer knowing the meaning of the word

My soul releases every emotion
Each and every scream can't be heard
There are tales of angels becoming demons
A bearer of light becomes one of darkness
Banishing all worldly feelings
Gaining pleasure from the misfortune and pain
Feeding off the sorrow of sinners

Impariamo a godere di questo paradiso nel nostro inferno

It is HER
The one I love
You I lust
The one that knows me
You barely scratch the surface!
The one who owns my heart
You only **** the body
You are a pillar
She is the foundation!
You are the present
She is the past
I love you
I will always love her more
My tears and sadness are not for you
It is only for her
She was - is - my soulmate and until I meet her in death
I shall only live
Not for you
All for her!

While asleep, even my dreams are not of you!

Her lips are crimson, her skin fair and smooth, her voice melodious and tempting

The Siren who visits me when I'm in the realm of Somnus
I pour all my tenderness into each kiss and touch, and though I kiss you longer and hold you tighter, it's an alien feeling
As if I am a ghost

It is her I see everywhere I go
It is her I only think about
It is her I only feel to love

However, she has long since passed this Earthly realm and though I'm committed to you and our children, she always haunts my heart
In my mind's eye, she is still here with me - alive
We have a life together - a family
Our children are happy and healthy

You found me at my lowest
At a time when I thought that I could never enjoy happiness - or life - ever again
And though we share a life together - a family complete with children
I will always be stuck in the past; it is where my heart truly lies and where my good memories are stored

If this is hell, I don't want to know what heaven is!

Created from the lies I've caused and chaos I unleashed

Why?
It's unknown - even to myself!

You are calm in this sea of chaos
You are light and warmth

It's sickening really....how can one be so content with betrayal

When I think of mating

Systematic copulation
        
All because I hate
Who I am - what I discovered while being with you

This
               evolving,
                               being

Damaged instead of
                          mending
                           this complex being of mine

I was drowning

           it was a strange relief

Not that was just
                               tampered

Cutting and severed my bond with you

Silence

I can begin separation

To
    think, study, and know

Who I really wanted to be

You are what I want

And yet........
I cannot live with what I have done to you

Here's the truth:

While asleep, even my dreams are not of you!

If this is hell, I don't want to know what heaven is!

La mia penitenza deve essere per sempre amarti!