Created from the lies I've caused and chaos I unleashed

Why?
It's unknown - even to myself!

You are calm in this sea of chaos
You are light and warmth

It's sickening really....how can one be so content with betrayal

When I think of mating

Systematic copulation
        
All because I hate
Who I am - what I discovered while being with you

This
               evolving,
                               being

Damaged instead of
                          mending
                           this complex being of mine

I was drowning

           it was a strange relief

Not that was just
                               tampered

Cutting and severed my bond with you

Silence

I can begin separation

To
    think, study, and know

Who I really wanted to be

You are what I want

And yet........
I cannot live with what I have done to you

Here's the truth:

While asleep, even my dreams are not of you!

If this is hell, I don't want to know what heaven is!

La mia penitenza deve essere per sempre amarti!